What is up? Millionaire Case Study this is a massive episode because I'm 30.
Hey guys, so here I am. Today is November 1st. I'mma said that today is November 1st
1987. It's not 1987, that just happens to be the year I was born
so 2017 today I'm 30. So just wanted to pop in here this is episode 79 and I'm
up here in Riverton I'm here in a coffee shop parking lot. I actually don't know if you
can see there's like a coffee shop behind me here, it's actually called like
The Coffee Shop, that's where I like to work and reflect and hang out with
friends and family when I come up here to Riverton. But I just had to come in
obviously cuz I'm 30 and thirties 30 is kind of a significant benchmark for me,
for Millionaire Case Study, for my life and so I just wanted to come in and I
think that the only thing I really wanted to talk about on this episode is
more of my mental state my mindset and where I'm at. Especially in relation to
Millionaire Case Study so a major goal when I even was starting Millionaire
Case Study when I did the first few episodes was what if I made it happen
before I was 30 and I was like well I want to capture it. Here's the thing I
didn't hit it I have not made a million dollars yet by the time I was 30 so I
just want to document that because it's the truth. So where am I at? I think I was
just looking at it I think for the year I'm close to like a hundred and twenty
five thousand dollars or something so kind of far off I'd say eight hundred
and whatever thousand dollars away for making a million dollars within a
year. But because I didn't hit it I think it's important to know where my mindset
is now when I've failed or haven't hit the goal.
This is what I know more than anything. Yes I'm pissed that I didn't make it, yet,
that's the keyword. Yes I'm pissed that I'm 30 and I'm not a millionaire, yet. So
the one thing I do know is I'm not fucking stopping. I've had such a weird
feeling today in a good way because it's almost like I've been going after this
million dollars thing before I was thirty for so long and now that it's
just a fact that I'm 30 and I haven't hit it yet it's almost like it's clean
slate and now I can make the right decisions for the long-term and stuff
like that. Like now it's like okay now I can really do it it's a it's a weird mix
of feelings and I think that's what I want to document is I'm kind of
surprised looking at myself today, I'm surprised that I'm not more depressed,
I'm surprised I'm not more pissed at myself and maybe it's because I'm on the
high of my birthday but maybe not. I don't know it's just almost like I've
been worried throughout this whole time of what if I don't make the million by
the time I'm 30, well Calvin guess what bro, you're 30, you haven't made it. Who
gives a frickin shit. Now what. So that's kind of that's kind of where my head's
at right now is again clean slate not really as pissed as I thought I might be.
It's been a weird last month or two if you've watched other episodes there's
been some good stuff some ups and downs but there's been a lot of downs and I've
been in a very reflective mood trying to find out who I really am and there's
some big decisions that are about to be made. Decisions on what I'm going to be
doing next, what like my my next career move in this millionaire journey because
here's the thing I'm just not gonna stop. I've already started Millionaire Case
Study we're 79 episodes in and I think this is probably a very important part
of the journey that here in episode 79 being 30 on November 1st I'm not just
stopping it and saying well didn't make it therefore I'm done. There's that kind
of a glare right there because of the sun, that's kinda cool that glare. But uh
yeah I think what I what I'm trying to do and I will continue to do
throughout this week is reflect on what I have done and what I have accomplished
and be proud of it. That's been a hard thing because it's I see so many people
that are that I view as more successful or have what I want and there's a part
of me that's jealous and pisses me off that I'm not there but I have to say
well dude look at where you were a year ago.
I'm growing, I've hit six figures this year for the first time in my in my
existence, that's progress that's progress, progress is everything as I
talked about in the last episode. Progress is everything. I'm just looking
for the positive, looking to see what to do next. That's where I'm reflecting now
and what you'll see one in episode 80 is
I've decided to really get clear on what it is I'm going to do next
on what I should be doing getting close to my core and this is why I mean by
there's gonna be big decisions. In the next episode, I'm gonna be going to Costa
Rica and I'm spending a seven day retreat to do Ayahuasca, a psychedelic
and stuff like that to hopefully have a deep spiritual experience and get clear
on Who I am and I don't want to talk about that item in this episode because
I'm sure I'll talk about it a lot in episode 80. But that's kind of where I'm
at is it's it feels like I'm okay I'm thirty it is what it is what has
happened has happened up to this point now I'm entering a new decade what the
fuck am I going to do with it like it's all on me in a good way in a good way
it's on me. What has happened up to this point has
happened it's the decisions that I make now and what I'm gonna be doing now over
the next few weeks, over the next few months, is what's going to determine my
trajectory of where I end up going. But I'm so excited in a really cool way I'm
excited that I'm on this journey and I think the biggest thing of today if
there's a major key from today that I'm just noticing in myself as I'm even
doing this episode and as I'm analyzing myself and
how I've been able to accomplish what I've accomplished so far is what's
happening today is that I'm not stopping. I'm not giving up. I'm still going after
the million and I think that's gonna prove to be a major key I just have this
feeling that that's gonna be a major key in the theme of my life, in the theme of
this journey and the theme of you watching this that that's how you're
gonna get your success. It may not happen as fast as you want, it may not come as
quickly as you would have wished, you're gonna fall on your frickin face but just
don't but get up. I don't even want to I don't even know how to put it in a way
that's not cliche I've just never quit. But I think that's the point is yes I'm
disappointed that I am NOT a millionaire officially by the time I'm 30 but in a
weird way I feel like I am a millionaire right now it's so weird it feels like
now it's just an inevitability. Now I don't have to be so hung up on the by
the thirty thing and now it's like oh I'm on the millionaire journey even
though by the way just to document numbers here October was a lower month
compared to October the last two or three months I've kind of been on a
decline and in a weird way right now I'm not freaked out by that I think last
month I only had like 10 grand coming in which if somebody's watching this that
might sound like awesome ten grand isn't too grand like I was doing at my day job
but it's not 90 that I need to have to be making a million in a year so in a
weird way I just feel like yes now it's just inevitable now I can just instead
of like by a certain time I can just focus on the journey and say this is
what I'm after and this is what I'm gonna do to like I just want to get
clear on who I really am, provide value in the very best way possible and
just have fun at with it now being in the journey and knowing that it's gonna
happen. So I'm gonna wrap it up right here here in Riverton it's late
afternoon right now that's why there's that shiny thing that's happening
earlier cuz the sun's about to go down over there. I'm gonna be doing a cool
little dinner later tonight with friends and family should be fun and then
there's gonna be a little bit of a party on Friday night but I'm digging deep. I
want to enter my 30s getting clear on what my next step,
chapter, whatever it is that you want to call it is and go balls to the wall and
just freakin move and in a weird way I'm not very disappointed where I'm at. I'm
just excited for the new clean slate and ready to enter this decade with a bang
So I'mma end it there. Calvin Wayman, your Millionaire Case Study, the first story
following somebody go from zero to a million as it's happening.
See you on the next episode. Peace out!
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