If you're a black person, and it's in a place like this,
Be careful: Don't wait for the train closer to the gap.
Because a radical person can appear, and push you.
We cannot ignore this kind of sick people. They exist!
Do u think I'm saying it because I'm a big horror movie fan?
this kind of sick people really exist.
A lot of people already told me this kind of story.
- So I won't go to this place!
If you'll be afraid about all that can happen, you'll never go out of home.
You can die inside your own home.
No one tried to kill me here.
But an old man, at downtown,
looked at me and said:
- You're not welcome here.
His friend was in panic!
- He's crazy, he's crazy! Always repeating in spanish!
I looked very serious to the old sick man
and I said:
Fala em inglês!
And he kept repeating: - You're not welcome here!
in swedish.
I understood that.
And he kept repeating: - You're not welcome here!
His friend said he has a mental problem,
Then he started to walk, always repeating the same phrase,
while his friend said to everybody: - He's crazy (in spanish)
Two very mental sick guys.
We respect old people,
but when they're boring and full of prejudice,
or act as if they had a mental disease,
they're the worse.
And, about these radical people,
Can you believe that a lot of swedish people asking me about
why there's just a few black people at brazilian tv?
I heard it so many times!
'I was watching a brazilian channel, a soap opera,
But, more than half of the brazilian population is black, right?'
"But I just saw a few ones while I was watching"
Well, it's starting to change. It doesn't mean it's good.
I wasn't expecting some swedish people knew some tv shows.
I'm not sure, but I think some brazilian soap operas are exibithed here!
Pause at the trip 'cause this is important!
When I decided to do this 40 day's trip,
at Sweden and Norway,
I was ready for two things:
The sexual exoticism,
A tottally different biotype from people who are from there,
it gets a lot of attention!
and it means more sex.
A lot of people don't like this, they feel uncomfortable.
What about me?
I loved it LOL!!
YES!
JA!
JA!
KANSKJE!
YES!
JA!
JA!
KANSKE! KANSKE!
JA! JA! JA!
And the second thing is racism.
If in Brazil is this mess,
Imagine a place where everybody is so white,
blond,
With blue/green eyes!
What will it happen with me there?
People will have sex with me or throw stones at me
I was mentally prepared
to any kind of situation.
It don't matter how worse it would be.
Someone throwing stones at me.
Someone trying to punch me and I'm needing to run through the streets,
Run through the streets never is a good thing,
If you see someone running through Rio's streets,
You think that person was robbed,
or is a thief running away.
You'll never think that he's running,
because he won at the lottery.
I was prepared to listen all kinds of bad words,
bad things,
be treated like trash in public places,
I was really prepared for everything!
I was not waiting for it,
But I needed to be prepared!
It's a different land,
another ethnicity,
another color,
and if here, where everybody is mixed,
is this mess where people hold you,
and after give a stab at your back,
Imagine a place where everybody is similar and you cannot camouflage yourself?
I was in this place!
Since I started to make friends in Sweden, the first advertence was the one
you saw at the subway.
Don't get closer to the gap.
A radical one will appear, push you and then disappear at the crowd.
And you'll be there, dead at subway rails.
While he'll be safe.
There was a dawn when I was at two blocks from the hostel.
eating a sandwich, then I remembered!
I FORGOT MY PASSPORT IN MY ROOM!
I'm fucked up!
The policeman will appear, I'll be deported,
they will slap me,
because,
you keep these thoughts in your head.
I ate like a crazy man,
get back and got my passport.
When I told about it to people from there,
all of them laughed a lot!
Why were you so desesperated?
I cannot walk without my passport!
I'm brazilian, look at my skin colour, I cannot walk without my passport!
It's impossible! Otherwise something will happen with me!
and everybody was laughing!
Did you do or will you do something wrong?
No, of course not!
So, why the policemen will stop you?
I don't know!
Do you believe the police will arrest you because are you not carrying your passport?
I do.
Do you really believe policemen will talk to you because of your skin colour?
Yes, I do.
This is what you need to do:
You don't need to carry your passport all the time!
Take a photo of the principal page,
And keep your cellphone with u, as u always do.
If you need to show the document, show the photo!
Really? I won't have problems with it?
They're still laughing.
No Gerson. You won't have problems with it here.
if you won't do nothing wrong,
No one will stop you, or approach you, nothing will happen.
WOOOW!
THIS IS SO GOOD!!!
I decided to do this video,
Because I needed to put some information,
who has connection with the subway's videos.
I started my trip with one thought, and I finished with another one,
tottally different.
Wait, did you change your skin colour?
No, my colour didn't changed.
Skin colour is a big mess in my life.
Because,
Here in Brazil people say I'm black, when my hair is big.
This is me with big hair,
and another one when I used a big afro power hair!
To dance in Amor & Sexo's TV show, or because I wanted to use it.
Here in Brazil, when I shave my head, or use a very short hair.
No one accept when I say I'm black!! No one!
You're not black!!
This don't make sense!!! Don't say foolish!!
Then my hair grow up.
If I say I'm not black, everbody scold me!
What are you saying?? You're black!!
Look at your hair!!!
It's the hair.
It's the hair who decides my skin colour.
If I straighten my hair, I'll have a blue skin colour.
If I curly it I'll have an yellow skin colour.
I get it now. It's the hair.
Sometimes I'm closer to some friends,
we have the same skin colour,
but these face lines are stronger than mine,
They're considered black. Me: Brown!
If it bothers me being callled as a brown or black?
it doesn't make difference for me.
What bother me is the treatment
and
the prejudgement around all this situation.
An example:
I'm at ipanema beach, posto 9.
if I'm using short hair or no hair,
nothing happens,
Now, if I'm with my big and wonderful curly hair,
it looks as if I was coming out of one Jorge Amado's book,
A LOT of people ask me if I sell COCAINE!
If it's not cocaine, they ask for marijuana!
most of the times is cocaine,
ahh, but u like it!!
No, i don't.
How is that possible?
With all this hair and u don't use cocaine??
I get it!
My hair is a parasite who eats drugs to survive!
It uses cocaine, crack, all that mess.
One like for those who thinks the same.
I'm at the line to buy a ticket to a rock concert.
But at the same place will happen a samba show,
Everybody who comes to me to ask something, ask too:
Ahh, are you going to the samba show, right?
No, i'm going to the rock concert.
The person feel a little bit ashamed,
They need to be A LOT ASHAMED!
and speaking about samba,
"everybody" thinks I love samba, I love to dance samba,
that I dance samba all the time.
But I don't have any kind of connection with samba.
How come it has nothing to do with you?
Look at your colour! It's in your blood!
I don't have to love samba, because of my skin colour.
this is soo boring,
Because if I need to love samba because of my skin colour,
So I can write only about slavery,
about comunities (favelas),
about poverty,
and poor comunities (more favelas)
Do I need to expain more?
I thought everybody, in my trip, would say something about samba with me!
NO ONE DID IT!!!!!
No one said: Dance samba!!
When I was at parties,
All of them said:
Let's dance! You're brazilian, you must love dance!!
YEAH!!! I LOVE IT!!!
No one asked me to dance samba!
it was soooo nice!!
When I was a child and turn up the radio for the first time,
I fell in love by Eurythmics, A-Ha,
Sinéad O'Connor, David Bowie, Madonna,
and so it was.
When internet appeared,
I had the chance to do a deep swim in this musical universe.
That's why today I know more scandinavian artists,
than people from samba.
This is not a criticism to samba
to pagode,
it isn't.
I just don't need to love a music style because of my skin colour.
This is ridiculous.
I know much more scandivanian artists,
than people from here who works with samba,
If I'm proud of it? Yes. Because it's my truth.
The scandinavian artists are better than our people who plays samba?
No.
It's just a question of identification,
and NOT comparation!
I admire this style a lot,
it's a patrimony of my country, of my culture
A very rich, powerful and wonderful style,
Here in Brazil everybody says: Ahhh, you'll dance samba!!
If you dance, then you'll dance samba!
No, I won't.
Well, I can do if I want,
or if they pay me for.
but this music style has nothing to do with me.
Isn't weird that you feel a lot of preconceptions,
that when you're in the other side of the world,
where everybody is tottally difffent from you?
Lojas Americanas (brazilian shop)
it was a comedy if this subject was not serious.
The wuantity of security who follow us there is,
I lost count.
Lojas Americanas and so many other shops.
There's always a security guard following who's not white.
Then I'm Sweden and in Norway
going to stores with prices ten, twenty times
more expensive than so many brazilian stores,
The treatment for all of u was the same.
People who worked there came to me, said their names,
Asked me if I needed some help,
I said no, I was just visiting.
All of them left me freely and said: If you need something, just call me.
There was no security guard following me,
No one bothered me or followed me!
I was in Adidas store in Oslo, Norway,
I was so relaxed, in peace,
that I opened up my bag to catch my water bottle.
I put my hand inside my bag, and I freeze!
I stooped for 10, 15 seconds,
There was only one thought inside my head!
I'M FUCKED!!
I opened up my bag and put my hand inside
Inside this store (Adidas).
They will call the police!
I was freeze! I couldn't take my hands inside my bag.
To move.
I never freeze that way.
I was ready to be in panic!
What the hell will happen now???
After these seconds, that was like an eternity,
I took my bottle of water inside my bag,
I closed the bag,
I drank the water an relaxed.
At this moment I get
how we are conditioned to
live in a mediocre society.
But we don't see it.
It's not our place,
our mission,
our obligation,
we didn't born to
be in an alert mood, 24 hours day by day,
Until where can I go? Until where can't I go?
no matter how much we act like "I have no limits"
When you're inside another system,
and you freeze by yourself, you see how limited you are.
This is terrible!
I understand women reaction here in Brazil,
Because this stupidity that is male chauvinist.
so, always when a man get closer to a woman,
they feel as a threat.
So, what they do is retreat,
look at you with tension,
and get far from you as fast as possible.
So many times, in the middle of the night,
going back after parties and other places,
Alone at the streets, sometimes I met a woman,
We were walking at the same direction,
sometimes walking side by side for a few moment
those women never did something to be far from me,
or looked at me worried, thinking "Who's this guy?"
Nothing happened, in all the places and cities I visited!
It don't matter what time, where and when!
with or withour cellphone in hands, going back home after parties,
Everytime when I was alone closer to a women, they never was worried.
it shows how much we have to mature as a society.
This is a very delicate subject matter, 'cause both sides are affected.
I don't know if she's scared about me
because I'm a man or I'm black.
or both.
At the same time,
I really understand her afraid,
it's so weird be in a place where you understand why she rejects you!
But you don't know exactly wha the rejection is!
There are two possibilites!
Or three, when those two are united!
As soon as I arrived,
I was very afraid about people around me in the cities.
I thought people wouldn't be receptive about me.
thwy would be harsh.
maybe rude because of my skin colour.
And it happened the opposite!
People were SOOOO nice and amazing with me!
Very open and cool!!
Very peaceful and gentle.
When I tell subway's story on Brazil,
People say: - It's horrible!
How do you like a place where there's someone who wants to kill you?
Life is much easier when you really know who wants to kill you,
than live in this mess where people smile at you,
and next wants to shoot you.
I said to my swedish friends what happened with me and that sick old man.
And they said: - It's not because of your skin colour.
For us, you're more muslim than black.
I only needed this! I don't know anymore which is my colour in Brazil,
and at Sweden I'm muslim!
What will happen when I go to other countries?
Will I be considered blond at some place?
No Gerson, you're not black.
No!
You're brown!
No, you're not black!
Then they started to show me who they considered black: The african.
No one, in any moment, said I was black.
Then you aks: That's why they treated you good!
That's the question, because I asked about it1
The answer was the same, it don't matter where I'd be.
I'm dealing with you, not with your skin colour.
Your skin colour is just a part of you.
Why would I treat you different? Why would policemen stop you?
Why would someone approach you in a different way because of your skin colour?
Everybody said these same questions,
So, won't you treat me bad?
No!
After 40 days travelling alone, through different places in these two countries,
Really,
I was extremely well treated.
It's very interesting when you're in a place where everything is said clearly.
even being something horrible, as subway episode.
It's better to know, clearly, who don't like me because of a racial question,
than all this mess where we live,
where people say that racism doesn't exist,
But, in a silently way,
wanna put limits on you.
Until where you can go, what you can create,
How far you can get,
according to your skin colour.
So, we cannot accept this!
as hard as it may be
We can do WHAT WE WANNA DO!!
Even listening a lot of bad things
Because if we don't do it, things get worse.
So there's no prejudice there?
Yes, there it is. But to explain their prejudices, how they happen
and why they do exist,
I need to do another video.
Now that you returned, how do you see yourself?
Well, SUPER AMAZING!!!!!!!!
Then I'll keep writing and travelling around the world.
So relax and do not give a shit!
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