Saturday, September 30, 2017

Youtube daily report w Sep 30 2017

Hyun-seung.

I'm dating with Seung-hyuk.

So, don't come to see me anymore.

Love Playlist Season2 EP12 Ji-won's story.

Ji-won.

Why don't you just see me for a while?

I'm not telling you to become my girlfriend right now.

You can just give it a shot, right?

Seung-hyuk is really a nice person.

Ji-won.

This weekend, let's go eat pasta you like!

He is doing what you didn't.

Hey, what's up here?

Eat this when you need sweets while studying.

I just didn't know what you like.

Thank you.

Study hard. Cheer up.

I feel he really likes me.

So, I was trying to open my mind for him.

But, something's strange.

The more I meet Seung-hyuk,

the more I think of you.

One time, I went to school without makeup.

Seung-hyuk.

So, I said,

Seung-hyuk, I couldn't sleep last night. So I look terrible today.

Then, he said like,

Yeah. You look a bit tired.

Go to bed early today.

He told me like that.

Ah, I like that he cares me so much, but

Honey, I look so terrible, right?

No, you look so beautiful.

Don't do any makeup, like today.

So flattered. Where did you learn those words?

Oh, I want you to become a grandma soon.

So that guys don't hit on you.

You liked me more when I don't do any makeup.

Just it brings back those memories.

- Do I look pretty in this way? - Yes. So pretty.

- No jokes? Seriously? - Yes. I mean it.

Okay.

You are goddess.

- Ji-won, this place is so cool. - Yeah, I think so.

And you know what I'm good at.

Ji-won, you can put that kinds of face?

So cute.

Then, I just thought of the moments when we joked around.

Honey, honey.

Well, the things we had always done.

Plainness battle.

Let's have selfie time.

Ah, suddenly, I just wanted to have some late night snack today.

So,

- Seung-hyuk. - Yeah?

How about eating late night snack at library?

I said so.

Late night snack?

It's not very good to eat foods at night.

I will buy you something delicious tomorrow. Do you have something in mind?

He told me like that.

Of course, I know that he cares me so much.

Honey, what about chicken feet for the late night snack? Call?

- Chicken gizzard on top of that? Call? - Call!

And.

Oh my god.

Honey, I want Korean-style raw beef as well.

Gosh. Ji-won, you really fell in love with meet.

Actually, eating together is the best part I guess.

I like that small bit of happiness.

It's so strange.

Even though I fought with you that much,

while I was with you

I laughed more. Why is that?

You drank again?

Yes.

Why do you always call me whenever you drink?

I don't know, just.

Where are you?

Me. In front of my house.

Look at you. You keep lying to me.

What made me like you that much?

This time.

I won't open my mind even though you take a doll like that. Really.

Well, maybe there's no answer for me.

Decided not to meet you anymore, but.

Hyun-seung, you said you're near your home.

Why am I here?

Why are you lying to me?

How did you know that I'm here?

You've been here these days. Not just one or two times.

What's wrong with you?

Why do you always come until there?

And why do you just go back?

You are always like that, Hyun-seung.

You make me come along all this way.

Why are you doing this to me?

I don't want to see you again, but

I miss you as well.

I want to break up with you, but

I want you to hold me back.

It's all my fault.

I'm sorry. Ji-won. Don't cry.

Want to see someone else, not you.

But, the one should be you at the same time.

Do you also know what I feel?

Why you again, honey?

I don't know, neither.

Seung-hyuk

I may lose a really good person.

And I may regret after fighting with you.

But, I'm gonna do that stupid thing again.

I feel upset sometimes, but most of the time, it would be fun with you.

For me, love is like that.

Human keeps making mistakes,

Human keeps making mistakes, and repeat the same pattern of love.

Ji-won.

You came here to dump me, right?

But you feel sorry to me.

Yes.

Then, just don't need to mention it. I understood.

I'm sorry.

No need to be sorry. We were not lovers.

We were not lovers, so nothing ended.

Yes?

I didn't give you up yet.

What did you say?

Just so let you know.

For more infomation >> Could a broken couple gets together again | Love Playlist | Season2 - EP.12 - Duration: 10:51.

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İstanbullu Gelin / Istanbul Bride Trailer - Episode 19 (Eng & Tur Subs) - Duration: 0:59.

- What happened? What? - It is done.

- What does done mean?

Look at the number, the number!

Did he accept it?

2.500.000TL?

When did you come up with this?

When did you think about it all and plan this dirty game? Was I married to a different woman?!

You are figthing for your pride.

If he extends an olive branch, you'll hold onto it but you want him to work for it.

Brother, if Esma sultan learns about this... I swear to God, she'll give us all hell.

I will give my children's livelihood to the woman who hurt me this much, is that it?

Süreyya, you have to talk to me.

I only speak with honest people Faruk, you are not one of them.

Süreyya, sit down.

What is a mistake for the first time is stupidity, if it's done for a second time.

For more infomation >> İstanbullu Gelin / Istanbul Bride Trailer - Episode 19 (Eng & Tur Subs) - Duration: 0:59.

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Replica Tale e quale show 2^ puntata del 29 settembre su RaiPlay - Duration: 3:47.

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[Soluzione 100%] Tomb Raider 1 - Liv. 1: Caves - Con spiegazioni - Duration: 9:19.

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Scoop: annullata l'Isola dei famosi? Ecco la sorprendente decisione di Mediaset - Duration: 3:51.

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[MV] Don't Judge Me - TIMETHAI - Duration: 4:21.

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SsangYong Rexton ACTIEPRIJS - W 2017 Sapphire 4WD - Automaat - 7A/T - Duration: 0:54.

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Nissan Juke 1.2 DIG-T Acenta (Rijklaar / Navigatie) - Duration: 0:57.

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LOVE YOURSELF - Justin Bieber (Cover) - Bak Ne Söylicem! - Duration: 2:58.

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BREAKING: This Could Be The END Of Season For NFL After Receiving Devastating Blow Overnight - Duration: 5:06.

Please Subscribe to get Instant News Updates that liberal Media don't publish

You've Probably Heard The Saying Read the Room When making Public Comments

This Means you Should know your Audience before you do or Say Something Controversial

Players in The Nfl Apparently Missed that

Because The Results That Their Antics are in and These Overpaid ballplayers Have some Serious Explaining to do

Players and Coaches Alike, who took a new Wall the national anthem Have stirred up a Huge Media Frenzy as Many

Americans Consider Their Actions offensive The nfl's Declining

Viewership has Turned Into A Nightmare for the league as Their Right-Leaning Fans Are Refusing to Watch Any more Games

The Washington Examiner Has The latest Round of Bad News for the nfl they're

Sponsors and The Racist Players Whose Jobs are on the Chopping Block

The National Football League Is Feeling The Impact of the Trump Effect

Ticket sales Since he Called on Team Owners to fire Players who

Take A need to protest the national anthem Have cratered the online Ticket reseller, Tech Pick Told, secrets that sales Have Dropped

17.9%

Far More Than The usual Week 3 Fall

From Tech Pick

Seventeen Point nine Percent Decrease in Nfl orders This Week Compared to the Previous Week

Last Year the drop, was ten Point eight Percent in Orders on Monday and Tuesday Following week Three Games?

This Means that While The Regular Season might still be in Full swing this Season Two protest is over

With Viewership Numbers Reaching Startling 20-Year lows the league Can't Afford Any More Setbacks

And They're Going to have to do something Drastic to win back Their irate fans

We have Seen A massive Decrease in Nfl ticket Purchases This Past Week in Comparison to years Past?

Wait Reese Seems to Usually Have

Less ticket orders in Week two but this year ticket Purchases are Down More Than 7% from this Time last Year

Said Technics Jack's linked Hland While

We can't Specify if This Decreases due to the President's Comments?

Player and Owner protests Play on the Field or simply the Continued Division of kin Media Attention

The Conversation Around the NFl this Week has Focused on the President's comments as

Well as the Players and Owners

Reaction

As viewers Continue to abandon Their nfl Sunday Habits Both the Number of ticket sales and the Purchase Price of Tickets will drop, oh

You Can Tell what's causing These Declining Numbers it Could?

Be due to the Hundreds of Thousands of Fans Who've Decided to stop Attending games After getting Slapped in The Face With

Disrespect Or Perhaps Protesting Players in Recent Days Telling Outraged Fans to Take a hike

Business Owners Are also Decreasing Their Patronage as they are

Increasingly reluctant to be associated with The kind of Activity that Flies in the Face of American values

Al Wiseman of Freedom Daily Reported on restaurants who have opted out of Showing the games at Their establishments

Mom-And-Pop Restaurant Owners Are Actually Responding to the rich Spoiled Oppressed

Hypocrites in The NFl That Kneeled in Protest against the National and then during Sunday's Games by Shutting off TVS in Their establishments

This Comes After President Donald Trump Denounced The protests and Told Sports Fans to Never Condone Their Actions

And this Is not an Easy Thing for the Restaurant Owners to do since Their Profit Margins Are Known for being very Small and They

Make A Lot of Money when People come in to Watch sports games eat Chicken Wings and Drink Beer A

Lot of Americans Are Protesting and it Really

Doesn't Cost A thing in fact it might even save, Money since Fans aren't Shelling out the Cash to see a game

This Is Just the Beginning of the Problems of Problems at the nfl Faces as

Prissy Holly Reported the league Gets Soon be Forced To find Their Funds from Places other Than the american Taxpayer after Government

Officials Get Finished Dropping the Hammer

Unfortunately for The Anti-American NFL empty Stadiums and Plummeting Viewership Could

Soon Be the least of the Concerns

If These Subsidies Set in The end all the nfl Would have to Fork out Their Own Money to build and Maintain These Fancy Stadiums

Meaning They'd Have no Choice but to listen to their Angry Fans and put an end to These protests

As These Cocky Players Continue to Disrespect our Country our Police and

Every American Soldier Who has Fought bled and Died to protect america the one Thing they Didn't Consider was the will of the American People?

After

Refusing To Listen to Their vast Patriotic Fan Base

Nasally incurring The Full wrath of Gop lawmakers who Overnight Could ruin everything for them With This Wonderful new Piece of Legislation

They might be able to Keep Playing for now but With a multi-Front Attack that the american People are Launching

On them the nfl is going to have to Make some big Decisions Soon Otherwise Football as?

We know it might be A thing of the past?

What do you think About this

For more infomation >> BREAKING: This Could Be The END Of Season For NFL After Receiving Devastating Blow Overnight - Duration: 5:06.

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Could a broken couple gets together again | Love Playlist | Season2 - EP.12 - Duration: 10:51.

Hyun-seung.

I'm dating with Seung-hyuk.

So, don't come to see me anymore.

Love Playlist Season2 EP12 Ji-won's story.

Ji-won.

Why don't you just see me for a while?

I'm not telling you to become my girlfriend right now.

You can just give it a shot, right?

Seung-hyuk is really a nice person.

Ji-won.

This weekend, let's go eat pasta you like!

He is doing what you didn't.

Hey, what's up here?

Eat this when you need sweets while studying.

I just didn't know what you like.

Thank you.

Study hard. Cheer up.

I feel he really likes me.

So, I was trying to open my mind for him.

But, something's strange.

The more I meet Seung-hyuk,

the more I think of you.

One time, I went to school without makeup.

Seung-hyuk.

So, I said,

Seung-hyuk, I couldn't sleep last night. So I look terrible today.

Then, he said like,

Yeah. You look a bit tired.

Go to bed early today.

He told me like that.

Ah, I like that he cares me so much, but

Honey, I look so terrible, right?

No, you look so beautiful.

Don't do any makeup, like today.

So flattered. Where did you learn those words?

Oh, I want you to become a grandma soon.

So that guys don't hit on you.

You liked me more when I don't do any makeup.

Just it brings back those memories.

- Do I look pretty in this way? - Yes. So pretty.

- No jokes? Seriously? - Yes. I mean it.

Okay.

You are goddess.

- Ji-won, this place is so cool. - Yeah, I think so.

And you know what I'm good at.

Ji-won, you can put that kinds of face?

So cute.

Then, I just thought of the moments when we joked around.

Honey, honey.

Well, the things we had always done.

Plainness battle.

Let's have selfie time.

Ah, suddenly, I just wanted to have some late night snack today.

So,

- Seung-hyuk. - Yeah?

How about eating late night snack at library?

I said so.

Late night snack?

It's not very good to eat foods at night.

I will buy you something delicious tomorrow. Do you have something in mind?

He told me like that.

Of course, I know that he cares me so much.

Honey, what about chicken feet for the late night snack? Call?

- Chicken gizzard on top of that? Call? - Call!

And.

Oh my god.

Honey, I want Korean-style raw beef as well.

Gosh. Ji-won, you really fell in love with meet.

Actually, eating together is the best part I guess.

I like that small bit of happiness.

It's so strange.

Even though I fought with you that much,

while I was with you

I laughed more. Why is that?

You drank again?

Yes.

Why do you always call me whenever you drink?

I don't know, just.

Where are you?

Me. In front of my house.

Look at you. You keep lying to me.

What made me like you that much?

This time.

I won't open my mind even though you take a doll like that. Really.

Well, maybe there's no answer for me.

Decided not to meet you anymore, but.

Hyun-seung, you said you're near your home.

Why am I here?

Why are you lying to me?

How did you know that I'm here?

You've been here these days. Not just one or two times.

What's wrong with you?

Why do you always come until there?

And why do you just go back?

You are always like that, Hyun-seung.

You make me come along all this way.

Why are you doing this to me?

I don't want to see you again, but

I miss you as well.

I want to break up with you, but

I want you to hold me back.

It's all my fault.

I'm sorry. Ji-won. Don't cry.

Want to see someone else, not you.

But, the one should be you at the same time.

Do you also know what I feel?

Why you again, honey?

I don't know, neither.

Seung-hyuk

I may lose a really good person.

And I may regret after fighting with you.

But, I'm gonna do that stupid thing again.

I feel upset sometimes, but most of the time, it would be fun with you.

For me, love is like that.

Human keeps making mistakes,

Human keeps making mistakes, and repeat the same pattern of love.

Ji-won.

You came here to dump me, right?

But you feel sorry to me.

Yes.

Then, just don't need to mention it. I understood.

I'm sorry.

No need to be sorry. We were not lovers.

We were not lovers, so nothing ended.

Yes?

I didn't give you up yet.

What did you say?

Just so let you know.

For more infomation >> Could a broken couple gets together again | Love Playlist | Season2 - EP.12 - Duration: 10:51.

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İstanbullu Gelin / Istanbul Bride Trailer - Episode 19 (Eng & Tur Subs) - Duration: 0:59.

- What happened? What? - It is done.

- What does done mean?

Look at the number, the number!

Did he accept it?

2.500.000TL?

When did you come up with this?

When did you think about it all and plan this dirty game? Was I married to a different woman?!

You are figthing for your pride.

If he extends an olive branch, you'll hold onto it but you want him to work for it.

Brother, if Esma sultan learns about this... I swear to God, she'll give us all hell.

I will give my children's livelihood to the woman who hurt me this much, is that it?

Süreyya, you have to talk to me.

I only speak with honest people Faruk, you are not one of them.

Süreyya, sit down.

What is a mistake for the first time is stupidity, if it's done for a second time.

For more infomation >> İstanbullu Gelin / Istanbul Bride Trailer - Episode 19 (Eng & Tur Subs) - Duration: 0:59.

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Minecraft Skin Küçültme Ve Moblara Dönüşme Modu Efsane Oldu Oha - Duration: 10:03.

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4 Timeless Tips To STAND OUT in Your Home Business Videos - Duration: 2:44.

- Here's four ways to stand out

in your home business videos.

How about by making them visually interesting?

Maybe you're a bit of a hair girl like me

and you like to wear hair pieces and do nice hairdos.

Cute animals work really well too.

(giggling) Right, Daisy?

Or getting together with a friend and doing a video

also captures people's attention.

I don't have any friends today,

so I'm just using a doll as an example.

♫ I got no friends

But gimmicks aside, one of the biggest things

about capturing people's attention with videos

is actually doing videos consistently.

Forget the cute kitty cat.

Forget the hairdos.

If you are consistent and you provide value,

whereas you're not pitching people and trying

to sell your products all the time.

If you are providing value

that your audience deems interesting, valuable,

helpful, funny, entertaining, they will like your videos

and you will capture attention.

Videos is a longterm game plan.

Yes, you can get great results really, really quickly

with videos, but think of it as a longterm plan.

You're providing a lot of info,

a resource of information, if you'd like,

that you can tap into time and time again.

This is my point with videos is I want

to create videos on lots of topics

that I get asked all the time.

So when people ask me these questions over and over

and over again, I get to leverage these videos

and send people the videos instead of having

to answer people all individually.

So provide value, be consistent, be visually interesting,

and the last one is make sure you are creating videos

on topics and key words that you're audience

is actually interested in and searching for.

Videos are such a great way to gain leverage

in your business, attract customers and clients

and teammates to you and also stand out in the crowd.

And if you're worried about what do I say in my videos,

well, I've got you covered there too.

I have a downloadable cheat sheet on my website

called 103 Video and Blog Post Ideas,

so you will never run out of things to talk about.

So head over to TraceyRose.com and download that now,

and I will see you in the next video.

Bye!

(bright, uptempo music)

Such a cool way to attract people to your business,

leverage your time and gain I dunno. (laughing)

Videos is such in a ways blah la la.

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BITCOIN Technical Analisys 29/Set/2017 | EN subtitles inside - Duration: 5:46.

Hello everyone, good morning, it's now September 30th, my name is Nuno,

Hello everyone, good morning, it's now September 30th, my name is Nuno,

and I wanted to bring you a small rant of what happened this week in BITCOIN.

So, without delay, lets move on!

We had a very strong week

Last Friday we closed at €3,056

and this week's high was at €3,620.

BITCOIN had a bull run of 18%

and the forces involved now seem to be more balanced

But without wanting to get further ahead, let's see what this week's price action can tell us.

There were a few important moments this week,

the first being this €2,956 rebound, that took place on Friday and Saturday

as I mentioned in last week's video,

whose link I'll put somewhere on the screen,

I would not like to see BITCOIN below €2,950, ​​and why?

Because we would have a lower low on the daily chart,

and the upward trends are composed by higher highs and higher lows,

breaking this support the chances of revisiting the €2,500 were big.

But that did not happen and the next day, Sunday,

we went to do a first test without success of the ​​€3,210 area

a price that had already been support in the previous week, here!

Therefore it was presented as a zone of potential resistance.

It was only Monday that this resistance was surpassed.

Note that at this time, the declining trendline that came from the top, September 2nd, intersected with the resistance of € 3,210.

The trend lines, when decling, are made by intercepting consecutive highs lower, as shown here.

And this is, to me, the second important moment of the week,

we broke a resistance that intercepted the declining trend line of the last four weeks,

with volume, as we can see in the 5 minute timeframe

and then begun a new uptrend here in the 1 hour timeframe,

where each bar corresponds to 60 minutes,

Bicoin formed higher highs and higher lows.

Notice that, as is supposed and healthy,

the volume increases as the price goes up and decreases when it goes down.

If this test turned south we would end up with a head and shoulders,

a bearish formation in a scenario already by itself not very suitable for buyers.

We would have here the right shoulder, here the head and here the left shoulder.

Using the projection of the distance that goes from the top of the head to the neckline

to get an idea of ​​the potential of the drop,

see where we would stop,

the €2,500 price range again.

Well, that's not what happened,

which takes us to the third important moment of the week,

the price getting successfully above the VWAP (Volume Weighted Average Price).

The VWAP essentially tells us,

given a certain period of time, in this case since September 2nd,

what the average price at which the asset was bought by the buyers involved since that date.

Buyers involved from the top were now, on average, in profit.

Which in my opinion and understandably

brought renewed confidence to buyers.

Then the price took off and hardly stopped in the ​​€3,460 area,

where I sincerely expected to see more resistance,

because it was a support in the past and where we crossed with the 50 Day Moving Average on the daily chart

We then reached €3,620, week's high

and some profit taking took place,

which was to be expected given the week and month end.

Buyers are now more confident,

but even though the intermidiate trend is higher

with the Bitcoin price above the VWAP and a rising 5 day Moving Average,

we remain in a standstill,

notice how the 10, 20 and 50-day Moving Averages intersect here on the daily chart,

in a healthy market we are supposed to have the 20 below the 10 and the 50 underneath the 20

as it happened here and here.

In our case, the 10-day Moving Average seems to be crossing above the 20's,

but the 50's is still quite far behind,

maybe we need a little more time and consolidation before we think of more upside,

so be please be cautious.

And that's it ...

I hope you like the video and, if so, leave a like and subscribe.

Thank you! Have a very good day and till the next one.

For more infomation >> BITCOIN Technical Analisys 29/Set/2017 | EN subtitles inside - Duration: 5:46.

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10 Most Gorgeous and Beautiful Wives of Cricketers!You Won't Believe.... - Duration: 1:33.

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A Child's Death Brings 'Trauma That Doesn't Go Away' - Duration: 9:52.

A Child's Death Brings 'Trauma That Doesn't Go Away'

  Anne McBrearty Giotta doesn't remember much of what happened on that August morning in 2013.

One moment she was cursing her older son, Michael, who was supposed to have picked her up for a long-planned beach weekend, but was late and not answering his phone.

The next moment, the police were at her door in River Vale, N.J., saying that Michael, 51, had been found dead in his home of an apparent heart infection.

"Don't tell me lies like that," she told the officers in a barely softened brogue. Giotta immigrated from Ireland 60 years ago, worked as a bookkeeper, raised five children and then divorced.

In her long life — she's 87 — "that was the worst time." To have a child die before you, at any age, upsets what we all consider to be life's natural order. "You lose a part of yourself," Ms.

Children are supposed to outlive us. When they don't, grieving parents can suffer depression, poorer physical health and higher rates of ruptured marriages even decades later, researchers have found.

    "This is a trauma that doesn't go away," said Marsha Mailick, a social scientist at the University of Wisconsin-Madison who has studied bereavement.

But to be an old person when an adult child dies brings particular trials, both emotional and pragmatic. "The loss means something different at that stage of life," Dr.

"It can have a profound effect." It happens more frequently than we might think.

Researchers at the University of Texas at Austin, reviewing data from the federal Health and Retirement Study from 1992 to 2014, report that 11.5 percent of people over age 50 have lost a child.

The figure is far higher among blacks (16.7 percent) than whites (10.2). But those percentages don't tell us when the child died.

Looking specifically at child deaths after parents have turned 50, the figure grows from 2.8 percent by age 70 to 3.4 percent by age 80.

Of the roughly 2.5 million Americans who are 90 and older, 7 percent — about 175,000 mourning parents — have lost a child since turning 50.

Because the so-called "old-old" group (over 85) is growing fast, the number of seniors who will confront such late-life losses will also rise.

Deaths of people in middle age are what sociologists call "off-time events," things that happen earlier or later than normal in the life course. "It often puts you out of sync with your peers," said Deborah Carr, a sociologist at Boston University.

I received a heartbreaking email from a Wisconsin couple whose son died in an auto accident at 36, leaving them without grandchildren, such a source of joy for their friends. "Our lives are so empty," his mother wrote.

In other cases, losses later in parents' lives reflect not the premature deaths of children, but the parents' very advanced years.

"We'd see a centenarian whose 80-year-old daughter had died," said Kathrin Boerner, a gerontologist at the University of Massachusetts Boston who studies the oldest of the old.

"With increased longevity, the likelihood that a child dies before you increases." We know rather little about the impact of these late-life losses, far less than we do about the effects of a young child's death.

Research takes a while to catch up with demographic changes. But in a country that relies so heavily on family caregiving, an adult child's loss clearly threatens to undermine the support a parent may need.

"He was the one the rest of us relied on," said Kathleen Giotta Delano of her brother.

"If Mommy's not answering the phone, who do we call? Michael, who lived five minutes away." All the children live hours away or have no car.

Anne Giotta still drives to mass on Saturdays and has lots of friends in her condo building, but Michael was the one who spontaneously took her out to dinner, asked if she needed anything at the supermarket, and brought her to his house, where he had a generator, when Hurricane Sandy hit.

At least the Giottas are a large family, not that she mourns her son any the less. But most families are smaller now, and the loss of a child can upend everyone's expectations.

  In fact, Dr. Boerner said, an older person whose child dies may feel more vulnerable than someone who never had a child (another growing cohort) and therefore formed the extended social networks that childless people often depend on.

The cause of death matters, too. Rising rates of drug-related mortality and suicides in midlife are making early deaths more common among whites (blacks have long experienced premature deaths).

Researchers say that sudden or violent deaths, and those from stigmatized causes, prove more difficult to handle. In such cases, "parents wonder what they could have done differently," said Dr.

Carr. "There's a lot of self-blame." Michael Giotta, who owned a landscape firm, had developed a dependence on prescription pain medications.

"We fought, we argued," his mother said. "I carry a lot of guilt." After he was arrested for leaving the scene of an accident while drinking and went to rehab, he emerged a different person, she said.

"I wish it had happened years before." Neighbors and friends don't always step up with casseroles and condolence calls when someone dies from censured behavior.

"People might not be getting the social support they need, because others just don't know how to broach these tragic topics," Dr.

Moreover, some of the factors proven to help younger parents regain their footing after a child's death become less available with the years, pointed out Jan Greenberg, social scientist at the University of Wisconsin-Madison who has published studies with Dr.

Mailick. Older people cannot have more children, and if they've lost a spouse, they cannot take comfort in a close marriage, another demonstrated source of support.

But they can still find, or retain, a sense of purpose in life, which can help foster resilience in the face of great grief.

In 2010, Nancy Koontz and her husband, Grant, experienced the shock and horror of finding their son Jeremy dead in his bedroom in Raleigh, N.C.

After years of struggling with bipolar disorder, anxiety and addiction to prescription drugs, including multiple hospitalizations, he died of an overdose at 34.

Earlier, when Mr Koontz was a minister at a conservative congregation, "we tried to present the picture of the perfect preacher's family," said Ms.

Now more open about their family's troubles, the Koontzes work with the National Alliance for Mental Illness and annually join Raleigh's Walk for Hope to raise money for research on mental illness. "I'm not ashamed anymore," Ms.

Anne Giotta finds strength in her religious faith; each morning, after breakfast, she says the rosary for Michael. The ritual helps her keep going, yet "I fight with God an awful lot," she confessed.

"I ask him, 'How could you do that? How could you take Michael?'"  .

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