Hey, BookTube. It's Sylwia. And I am back from BookNetFest. S, I really want to
talk about BookNetFest. I feel like a lot happened I have a lot of thoughts a
lot of feelings about it. So what I'm gonna do in this video is I'm gonna tell
you why I think you should go next year. That's what I want to focus on. The event
was phenomenal. It completely catered to its audience, so basically if you were
there, it was for you, which is a little bit different than other conferences or
conventions where you're kind of the viewer and you're made to feel like the
viewer to all the content. This conference went so well and it felt like
it revolved around the people attending the conference, which is phenomenal. I'm
not an introvert so I don't know what it felt like for people who are introverts
or who are shy because I'm also not shy. I went into the conference with two
goals and that was to learn something and to socialize with as many people as
possible. In terms of learning, let's start there, in terms of learning: all of
the panels I would say were very thought-provoking and very validating.
I'm trying to think if anyone said anything that like really blew me away?
Yes! So I went to the workshops. Marines from mynameismarines was hosting the
I think blogging workshop and I sat down we were talking and I don't know if I
asked her a question or somebody else asked her a question but she but she
gave us the advice that if we don't know how to do something we could always ask
for help from someone who does know how to do it. Like, that was my, like, rock my
world moment as a content creator, because I struggle so much, especially
with thumbnails and graphic design part because I'm not good at that. I have no
training in that. So when she said something along those lines that was my
like biggest like move forward as a creator. if I didn't go to BookNetFest
I would not have come out with that statement, which I really needed. I had
to miss two panels because of self-care because after my first panel I had to
breathe for two hours and then before my second panel I also had to breathe so I
missed some panels between mine. So I ended up going to for the two that I was
a panelist for and the US and the industry and the diversity panels. I
believe those are the only ones I went to and in the workshop. For the US and
the industry panel, I appreciated the honest discussion
about how personality influences brand in a good way, in an authentic way. When-
when we use the word brand, I guess a lot of people think that's a dirty word, but
we have a brand as content creators, something that our viewers/our
subscribers know that they can look forward to when coming to our channel. So
basically your personality is your brand and I appreciated the honest
conversation about that because that set the tone for a lot of honesty. Actually I
guess the keynote set the tone for that too and that just solidified it because
I feel like the rest of the conference was no-nonsense. I feel like everybody
was telling it how it is. So that was the first panel. The second one was I went to
my panel obviously. I went to the On Reviewing panel. I think it went pretty
well but I guess you guys can let me know. Caitlin, Savannah, and Jess were
incredible along with our moderator Sam. I loved how Jess brought up the
conversation about spoilers. I don't tend to think a lot about spoilers so that
was my like thinky moment when she was talking about that. I love everything
Caitlin has to say all the time. She knocked it out of the park when she
brought up trigger warnings. That was key. I'm sure a lot of people walked away
remembering what she was talking about trigger warnings. And I appreciate
everything Savannah ever has to say and how she discussed critical reviewing and
what that was like when she read Ready Player One because I loved that video
that she made and I liked hearing her talk about it again.
So that was panel two then I had to self-care for a long time and I will say
that between that panel and the workshops I was not enjoying myself at
all. I'm gonna be honest with you. Like for-for- I guess that was like three hours
of time that was a very difficult time for me because I experienced a lot of
rejection and whether it was intended or unintended I felt like I was receiving a
lot of rejection. There were people I would make eye
contact with and they would either have like a "resting face" which I logically
didn't take as rejection but emotionally did and there were people who would like
make eye contact but then like walk away. And that was difficult especially during
those three hours.
So, I had to, like, refuel. I had to experience my emotions. I took a minute. I
went back to the hotel room and I just, like, felt sad. And then I went back and I
got my second wind and I tried it again. So that's when I went to Marines'
workshop. So then I went to my second panel which was YA is not the only
fiction. I was on that panel with Mari as the moderator, Katie from chaptersstackss,
and Thomas from SFF180. And they were so brilliant, oh my God. Thomas is
phenomenal. I feel like he had a lot more to say and there wasn't enough time for
it and I'm like looking forward to learning more from him and I'm so glad
that he hung out with me and I got to talk to him because he has so much
information about communities and topics that I don't know much about at all so
he's like a fountain of information for
me because science fiction is a genre that
I don't know much about and I want to know more about. And Katie is more on the
horror/mystery/thriller side and she was able to also talk about how you can be
successful on this platform even if you don't only read YA, even though YA
dominates this platform. So I really appreciated being on a panel with them.
They were brilliant. After that was the diversity panel which was just perfect.
They covered so much important information. Let me see if I'll remember
everybody that was there. It was Sam and Maddy obviously. Sarah, Christina Marie,
Paige, and Cam. And they just knocked it out of the park. I felt like that panel
was not, like, informative for me because they didn't say anything I didn't
already know, but they established a set of guidelines for how to interact and
how to process within this community. It was such a key moment I feel for this
community. I know only 250 people were there and I hope to god that they
recorded that panel because it was basically like the BookTubing 101 in
regards to diversity and it was powerful, it was emotional. and it was instructive.
I think that's what I loved the most about it because a lot of the time when
conversations of diversity come up people feel like they're allowed to
debate and there's no room for debate when it comes to such an important topic.
When people of color are talking to you or when queer
people or disabled people are talking to you, you should be listening and you
should not be providing your opinion back. So I really loved the way that
panel went. I hope that everything that those wonderful people said was heard
and that it will continue to be repeated throughout BookTube for the rest of this
year. So after that was the mixer. The mixer was a little awkward because it
was kind of like what do we do do we just talk to each other? Is that what a
mixer is? And then they did giveaways so, like, almost everybody won something
which was phenomenal. It wasn't like three people winning, it was like twenty
or thirty or fifty people winning which was I think a really great way to end
the official part of BookNetFest. So then for the rest of the night I just
kept, like, asking people to sit with me and at some point I think I was sitting
around with, like, 15 people in a circle because I just wanted every- I wanted to,
like, soak everyone into my brain. I wanted to meet everyone. I wanted to have
conversations with everyone. There were moments where I didn't get to talk to
someone but I just, like, wanted to acknowledge them so I told at least two
people "I just wanted to say hi to you. I hope that's okay.
Like, I just appreciate you and I wanted to reach out and say hello." I don't know
what that felt like for an introvert or a shy person. For me it was difficult in
small ways but mostly it was easy to do things like that. And then I maneuvered
my way into a dinner with a lot of wonderful people and then I spent the
winding down time after that with another group of wonderful people so all
in all I really think BookNetFest is worth going to because the panelists
have a lot to say and as a panelist myself I can tell you that. The creators
are brilliant and they understand what works for the community. They understand
what the community needs. I don't know if that was conscious of them or if it was
natural, but they brought to us exactly the things that we needed to hear the
most. I don't know how to say this but I feel like the ideals that Marines and
Sam brought in with them when making this conference were extremely healthy
and positive ideals that are good for this community and I feel like that's
the most important part of this conference is the direction in which we
want BookTube to go. We want BookTube to be healthy, responsible, critical, all-
inclusive, intersectional. And I feel like the creators
made an event that focused around those themes. So that's why I
think you should go next year. I really want to, like, take time and like thank
every individual human being who came up to me at that conference I can't tell
you enough how validating not even as a content creator but as a human being
what it feels like to have someone come up to you and say, like, "I appreciated
what you said" or, like, "you taught me something" or- or- or- even just something
like "I wanted to say hi to you" or "can I take a photo with you?" I can't explain
properly- I don't want to use the word empowering. Maybe uplifting? Motivating.
Validating is just a great word. What that felt like. And I just want to thank
those of you who did that for me. I'm so grateful for the conversations that we
had about books but also about the other conversations. In terms of what I wish
went differently for me, I think what I'm gonna do differently next year is I'm
definitely going to ask for roommates. I have people in mind that I'm gonna ask
to be my roommates and I'm going to have a plan for breakfast, lunch, and dinner,
because that was the most stressful part for me. The, like, ~see where it goes go
with the flow~ did NOT work for me at all in terms of like finding a group to hang
out with during, like, eating times. So that's my plan. I'm gonna have roommates
and have, like, dates scheduled in advance for who I'm gonna eat breakfast with,
who I'm gonna eat lunch with, and who I'm gonna eat dinner with. Because
especially lunch I was like devastatingly sad. Just the the feeling
of exclusion that I experienced during those three hours was, like, phenomenal. I
got through it, thank God my partner was with me. And if I do it go again next
year, I feel like I'm gonna have like a sign
around my neck, like, "if you feel uncomfortable come stand next to me"
because I felt so uncomfortable a lot of the time but because I'm outgoing and
because, you know, because I'm not shy, because I'm not introverted, it was easy
for me to, like, put my discomfort in the background of my head and just kind of
like push through. It was really easy for me to do that, so just so you know if you
ever see me at any events you are more than welcome to come talk to me. I do
feel like it was harder for the panelists to go to other panels.
I guess I'm speaking for myself because the come down after a panel and, like, the
anxiety before a panel is so strong that, like, it's hard to listen to other people
talk when you're worried, like, "oh my god I'm about to go on stage too"
I also want to, like, shout out all the panelists because you guys
rocked it. You all came off so incredibly natural and I hope you felt as confident
as you appeared and you knocked it out of the park. Oh, I was asked about my
bingo card. So I made a little bingo card to, like, make it easier for people to
interact. I know that some people were talking about it on Twitter. My plan was
to go through each of them in a different tweet and, like, talk about, like,
who I did which part with, but it was really difficult to do that in real time.
I do feel like for the majority of us, and correct me if I'm wrong, I feel like
we really were not on Twitter while the event was happening. I felt like it was
like a Twitter blackout. I was on Twitter because I'm obsessed with my phone, I'm
one of those. If I go again next year and if Mari and Sam let me do it, maybe I'll
print them out instead, and maybe have them be bigger because this was three on
three maybe I'll do like a five by five. But that's up to the creators. I'm even
glad that they let me, like, share that with them. I was just being goofy when I
made it but I hope it helps. If it helped you, please let me know because that
would make me feel incredible, if that helped you at all to communicate/
interact with people. If you have any other questions about BookNetFest,
please let me know. Come talk to me in the comments! <3
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