Sure is a rainy day.
Ahh.
Mmm.
Coffee.
Cool.
This mug is so cool.
When it finishes changing colors it has nice little messages on it.
Fury.
Patience.
Conversation.
Yep.
I'm ready for a nice hot cup of coffee on a day like today.
Hehhehheh.
We're gonna make a video!
How about that.
Have y'all been wanting a video?
I hope so.
Well, I'm ready to make one.
Getting the camera plugged in for ya.
There we go.
That way I can talk for a long time.
And not worry about it giving out.
So, hi everybody.
It's time for another Letters to an Asexual.
And this is 65.
And um, this looks a little close.
Let's move back.
Okay.
I hope you can see me.
This is pretty much exactly the kind of thing that I hate when other YouTube video uh, creators
spend the first one to five minutes just rambling about stuff that people watching their videos
did not come for.
Um, so I have some personal updates and whatnot, but I'm gonna share them at the end of the
video because first I wanna share an actual letter that you guys have probably come to
this video to watch.
And um, then if you're interested, you can stay for that.
Um, I watch a lot of YouTube, uh, reactors and stuff, and it drives me up the wall sometimes
that they spend all this time talking about what their schedule is or when they're going
to upload the video I'm watching.
And I'm just thinking, who needs to know this?
Who is the audience for this information?
I'm just really confused and I'm just rambling to you about it because I recently watched
one where the guy didn't get started talking about the subject of the video until fourteen
minutes in.
He was literally rambling about his upload schedule the entire time, and I'm, ahhh, anyway,
really frustrated about people who do that.
So I will save my personal updates until the end.
Um, how about if I pull up today's letter, which is actually gonna be two letters!
Um, they both kind of cover the same topic, which is why I'm reading them both, um, one
is a little more coherent than the other.
The uh, second one is admittedly from a known troll, but it's still uh, an interesting thing
to tack on, I guess.
So, um, first I'm going to read you something that came as a YouTube comment a while back.
And so this person says, "I don't have a more polite way of saying this, but you're an attention
whore.
Posting one or two videos about your sexuality is fine, but you base your whole channel and
all your videos on something that's your personal business.
Maybe you should post a video about your narcissism."
I responded to that with, "Aww, LOL.
Honey, get some perspective.
You don't have a more polite way of saying this?
Sure you do.
You just didn't want to.
You want me to shut up because you don't think this is relevant to anyone, and can't imagine
anyone doing it for any reason except ~attention~.
Waaaaah.
Have you ever heard of a theme channel?
Most video channels have a theme.
Mine posts a new asexuality video about once a month.
Guess I just have a life completely consumed with it if I make a video once a month, huh?
You might want to watch Letters to an Asexual #19 if you think this isn't helping anyone
and it's just about 'my personal business,' though.
I realize it's been invisible to you your entire life because you have the luxury of
not having to deal with it, but that may give you some perspective on why people who are
asexual--who have very few resources available to them--need there to be people like me creating
content.
What a snotty thing for you to do, then--to try to silence people because YOU don't have
a personal use for the content."
And he replied, and said, "You claim to be an artist, a writer, but you're completely
defining yourself by your asexuality.
I'm sorry but refraining from sex and romance is not profound or even that interesting.
You don't go through shit compared to gays and transgendered people.
Legal issues with marriage, job discrimination, abandonment from family and friends, medical
issues, being targets for violence and even murder.
You don't have sex.
Wow!
Holy shit, that's fucking amazing, you special little snowflake!
Go write books and blogs, and try to be a figurehead for an asexuality movement, march
in parades, pass out flyers, raise awareness for your cause which is of little consequence.
I think you're full of shit.
I think you love attention.
I think you love being unobtainable.
You love being a tease.
You love having guys try to change you.
Your OKCupid profile is a fucking novel about yourself.
You're a hack.
You should be defining yourself through your art."
And I replied, "First, please stop prefacing things you're saying with 'I'm sorry but'
because you're not sorry, and if you were, you'd stop.
As for 'it's not profound,' I agree.
Why would something have to be profound for me to make a video about it?
'It's not that interesting' is subjective.
I have close to 4,000 subscribers--" and this was obviously made a while ago because I have
more than that-- "and they do seem to think it's interesting.
That doesn't prove anything objectively.
Just that I seem to be doing something people are interested in, so your opinion that it's
not interesting is not relevant to me.
And on the violent little pee-potty tantrum you're having here about how OH MY GOD OTHER
PEOPLE HAVE WORSE PROBLEMS THAN YOU FUCKING JERK YOU FUCKING BITCH STOP SPEAKING BECAUSE
IF SOMEONE HAS A WORSE PROBLEM THAN YOU THEN YOU SHOULD NEVER TALK ABOUT ANYTHING OR ELSE
YOU ARE AN ATTENTION WHORE OH MY GOD.
Like, calm the fuck down.
Why the hell would my problems have to be comparable to someone else's on the same axis
before I should be allowed to talk about them?
That's completely asinine.
Do you isolate ONE 'worst problem' and then tell everyone who talks about not-as-bad things
that they need to shut up out of respect for the worse problem?
I mean seriously, get over it when people who are not you want to talk about themselves.
And all the nonsense about how I'm just a cock tease is funny.
You should probably stop telling other people what they think and believe, or what they
'should' be defining themselves through, because you're honestly not very good at it.
Considering my various accomplishments that I ALSO devote my time and energy to, though,
including novels that are not about myself, I think I'm doing pretty well.
But I can't imagine that you've actually researched any of that.
Feel free to do your homework and find out what I'm talking about if you want to.
My book that came out earlier this month--" you can see how long ago this was, "was praised
in the New York Times this week, for instance--they don't seem to think I'm a hack, and neither
do the hundreds of people who spent thousands of dollars on my book in the past thirty days.
I've been interviewed in over a dozen publications since it came out, been on TV internationally,
got offered another publishing opportunity based on the success of my first.
But I guess I need a trollish YouTube commenter to come and tell me I'm not doing enough with
my life (or the right things with my life) so I'll realize I'm just a piece of crap and
just like attention.
Wow, kid, get a life."
Um, and uh, for the record, um, a couple of my previous videos, like, recent ones, have
talked about kind of the other stuff I do besides this uh, this channel and most of
the videos on it being about asexuality, and aromanticism, and community, um, but um, I
kinda feel like a lot of people subscribe to YouTube channels because they want that
content that they came for and if the content starts to drift into something else or they
don't focus enough on what you came for, a lot of times people do unsubscribe.
They, they wanna know where to get this specific information.
My channel is not really about me.
It's, um, I guess it is sometimes, and I feel like I'm allowed to share personal stuff on
here if I want to, but this is not the primary place where I show all the other things that
I do.
I feel like most of y'all are here to hear me talk about asexuality, read my hate mail,
uh, share some of my lectures, my updates, my information, my perspectives, have a chat
in the comments, and um, I feel like if I diversified the content a lot, um, that would
maybe alienate my core audience, I don't know.
Um, but like I said, I, I feel comfortable once in a while, like, uploading a singing
video or something.
Um, and um, I think that people like that who say I must be obsessed with asexuality
if I make a theme channel about it are um, you know, they're one side of this argument,
and then, the other side of that argument would be what I just described, it's like,
well I came and I subscribed to you for this and now you're just not doing that very much
so I don't wanna be here.
Um, when I started getting very um, serious about my publishing career, I made a separate
channel for that, 'cause I felt like most people who wanted to hear specifically about
that would go to that channel instead, and I only have two YouTube channels, they're
about those two main subjects, and most of the other stuff that I do, like art and stuff,
I'm not a professional at, at art or singing, so I upload my singing to a karaoke website,
I upload my art to one of my Tumblr blogs, it's like, it doesn't make a lot of sense
to me that um, you would expect all of the content that I produce or all of the stuff
that I do to be all in one place or else I must not be making it.
Um, on that note, I'll read the other one, which a lot of this is kinda ridiculous stuff,
but I'm gonna share it with you just to I dunno, let you go through what I go through
a little bit.
Um, so this person commented quite a while ago on uh, one of my YouTubes, and says, "Great
job!
I chance encountered your channel through means of subterfuge or something, and while
I don't agree with the content (it's a little too monomania for me), it's always good to
see someone succeeding in confronting the "problematic" (sociologically speaking) areas
of human sexuality.
Liked the shirt you wore at the end."
And I was wearing uh, my shirt that said, um, "When you say I'm confused about my sexuality,
you really mean YOU'RE confused about my sexuality."
He says, "Like the shirt you wore at the end.
Reminds me of the tagline from Dustin Hoffman's 'Confidence': 'It's not about the money.
It's about the money.'"
And I replied, "Hm, thanks for the apparently encouraging message, although 'I don't agree
with the content' usually suggests you have a problem with what I'm saying, so if you
have a question or are confused by some aspect of it, feel free to comment.
Regarding 'it's a little too monomania for me,' I'm assuming you mean the channel is
a theme channel and you prefer to look at stuff with more varied content?
(It does have some singing videos and some other personal content, but yes, it is primarily
a theme channel for asexuality.)
Personally I'm about as far from 'monomania' myself in my complete body of work as it's
possible to be, but yeah, if you look at the central hub of my content for one subject
and that subject doesn't interest you beyond a casual exploration, I suppose it makes sense
if you don't really have the patience for it."
And he says, "Iono to be honest I guess if we were to dig deep into my soul with a spade
in the dead of the night I would have to say what really struck me most--and it's real
petty and cheap to say it's affected me this way . . . but in the film 'Seeking Justice'
Nicolas Cage kills a rapist by buying two candy bars and gets off scot-free, so how's
that for cheap?
(In the film the camera lingers on each dollar bill as its sucked into the machine with a
schlorp, intercut with the gaze of the overweight security guard who is presumably contemplating
wangling one of the bars of chocolaty goodness into his mouth)--what concerns me is the agit-prop
nature of your project, and how you engage real people through the illusion of a screen,
i.e., I think it's abysmal that you set up messages you receive from a dating site as
the poor defenseless straw man to your asexual panegyrics.
I'm being completely honest here: these lonely men want nothing more than to find themselves
in the universe, their souls amidst an infinite sea of sand.
The waves crash against the breakers wistfully, the passion is in full force!.
Atop a grouping of craggy rocks in the distance sits a mermaid with a Friend or Match Percentage
significantly reaching perfection!
BUT AVAST!
It was all for naught!
It was a siren's call!
An invitation to deconstruct their ship into bitty pieces!
A real cheap move!
Whyfors and whatnots!
Et cetera et cetera!
Lament for an over-active libido!
I don't know, all I'm saying is, I mean, outside of all that, I do appreciate the normalization
of non-normal sexualities (speaking strictly in terms of standard deviation).
Variety is the spice of life!
Sprinkle some more on, is all I'm saying!
Hashtag forgive this poor soul."
And I say, "I think it's misleading to suggest I'm basically hurting people through the act
of meeting my OWN needs on a so-called 'dating site.'
But my hurt is never as important when people talk about this.
It's always the poor poor men I've hurt so heartlessly being in a public space where
they can be aware of me to want me.
I find that description really irritating, especially since I have been clear--over and
over again--that OKCupid has non-dating preferences BUILT RIGHT INTO IT and that I not only ONLY
check those non-dating boxes but repeat in my profile that I am only there for friendships
and pen pals.
So defending the people who are upset that they can't have me for THEIR purposes as if
they're innocent and have every right to expect to only encounter girls who want what they
want is pretty specious I'd say.
The real problem is that for them it doesn't matter what I want.
They want ME.
And the world tells them they shouldn't HAVE to pay any attention whatsoever to what I
want (or to what I make available VERY VERY publicly so they won't make that mistake).
The world tells them their desires are to be prioritized, and that women are actually
the real enemies here if they are not graciously accepting of (or at least polite about) every
half-assed impersonal request they receive.
We're supposed to mollify these "poor souls" and make sure they never have to take responsibility
for tossing their fishing line out there without regard for who nibbles as long as it's pretty.
We're supposed to just nod and smile and accept that this is our lot in life, and take it
as a compliment even if they put no thought and no work into picking us as a potential
partner.
In other words, their loneliness of a certain sort is not my responsibility, and I'm pretty
tired of being told that it's their desires, not mine, that are the important considerations
in our interactions.
I don't make it difficult at all to see that I am there for conversations of a friendly
sort.
The site has those options built into it, and I'm using them, and I have every right
to be there without being considered a 'siren,' as you put it.
I have my own purposes in being there, and those purposes do not include trying to generate
material for videos (as I certainly have more than enough).
And considering that the site has been working for me to make exactly those friendships I'm
there for, I don't appreciate people telling me I've got no business being there because
some dudes who can't even bother to read my profile might mistake me for someone they
can pick out of a catalog and order for the packaging without regard for the personality.
And for the record, only four out of the seventeen videos I've made for 'Letters to an Asexual'
have source material from OKCupid," obviously that's been updated, 'cause I have far more
than seventeen Letters to an Asexual videos now--"And most of the conversations I've read
have been from YouTube--which I don't think anyone would argue is 'a dating site.'
You're basically telling me that these men are the real victims even though my videos
showcase how their shitty comments are examples of a widespread problem centering around compulsory
sexuality and pointless pathologization of people who are less sexual and asexual.
So . . . who knows if you made a generalization about 'my project' based on a few videos or
whether you just walked away with those particular videos 'speaking' louder in your mind because
you believe men on a dating site have no obligation to treat me how I ask to be treated, but I
think it's a pretty poor analysis.
It's not something I care about, though--I'm 100% okay with anyone having any reason to
not watch my videos, and I don't begrudge you that.
But since you shared with me what your problem is with my supposed mission and it seems to
be pretty divorced from what I think I presented, I figured I'd let you know.
I agree with you about the need for non-normative sexualities to be showcased more readily and
with more sensitivity."
And he replies: "I don't know.
'Real victims' implies that there are fake victims which we are contrasting against.
I think we are all real victims, deep down, honestly.
I know at this point it's gotten really intense, and perhaps I've hashtag engaged with less
than noble motivations--I am a troll, in the most real sense of the word: short in stature,
living under a bridge (the bridge between past and future, smart and stupid, saturated
and unsaturated fats--no trans fats, please, rich and poor--pock-marked, hairy, devoid
of compassion for passers--passer-bys.
More than anything else, this is the problem as I perceive it.
A lot of your work reminds me of, from what I've studied, the pre-Bolshevik Russian revolutionaries.
Filled with fervor, hope . . . self affirming above all else.
And yet trammeled by the machinations of state, thrown aside as scrap unworthy of even the
proles.
I mean this in the most affectionate way.
And yet tinged with sadness.
Agit-prop, for me, is important.
It's fireworks.
And is never quite appreciated as it's exploding in all colors of flame, bringing life to the
obsidian sky.
I think the key question, above all else, is why can't we be happy?
And after that, the second key question is, what are we doing?
And perhaps, if we were really to get deep, another worthy question is: How many keys
are there, that this lunatic asylum we know as Earth should be howling with noise through
the padding at all hours?
Misanthrope.
Philanthrope.
Cantaloupe. People say that as a species we are coming close together, but I think
there's an even deeper alienation burrowing its way into the heart of hashtag wo-man.
Your work is a testament to the digital age.
'This insidious asexual agenda is putting itself out there in a way that is both aided
and abetted by the godless New World Order websites.
Sickening and appalling!'
Pull and tug.
I don't know.
Honestly (what an overused word), as a voracious omni-sexual outsider, a lot of what you say
strikes the resounding tintinnabuli of church bells 'NO!'
A lot of people are sexual.
Most people are sexual.
Most people are motivated by ghastly biologic reproductive urges to litter the earth with
irremovable progeny.
Perhaps for a moment, we can contemplate, the nightmare of 'NO'?
I don't know.
There's a LOT going on, is all I'm saying, and I'm a bit of the old guard, but I would
sacrifice my urges if it could help the new, even in buffoonery.
BUT first, to deconstruct."
That was where I stopped replying because that was a lot of, uh, irrelevant weird stuff
where it mostly just sounded like he was trying to sound really smart, but you know, I understand
what he's saying, it's just not relevant.
Um.
Although that last part about how I should really be thinking about how awful it is to
um, hear "NO" or to have to accept that there are people out there who do not have the urges
that he has, or don't wanna prioritize those urges or make room for them, it's like, I
didn't say anything like that.
I haven't asked people who are omni-sexual or hypersexual to you know, stop being the
way that they are.
I've had, I've mostly just asked people to um, educate themselves about asexuality, and
kinda, do the live and let live thing like I'm doing with them, ya know, but there are
a lot of people who seem to think that our very existence is a challenge to theirs, and
ya know, I guess that's just how some people think.
Um, so, the, I guess relevant part of that is where referred to my channel as "monomania."
Um, and like I said in the aside between these two, um, it's kind of on purpose that I'm
putting most of my asexual content that I think is appropriate for a conversational,
uh, tone, here.
And I'm not using it for most of my other stuff.
I have specialized places for those things that are geared toward that type of content.
Um, so, I always think it's very peculiar and very suspicious when people say that the
fact that this channel has a bunch of videos about asexuality means that that's all I am
or that is all I care about, and um, I just wanna generalize that a little bit to you
know, everybody who feels like asexual activism is an important part of their lives or that
it's important to them but maybe they're not making it an important part of their personal
lives, um,
I think it's important to respect that sometimes we need to talk about these things.
We need to have a place to do that.
But the fact that we wanna talk about it at all is not proof that this is all we do or
all we care about.
Um, like I said in one of the comments, if you come to a place where I've carved out
a ni--a niche to talk about this and then you say that that's all I'm talking about
because that's all you've seen, ey, I mean you're being willfully ignorant of everything
else that I've made, and it's not so much a personal insult as it is um, a recognition
that that's what they wanna do, they wanna say "You're obsessed with this, you are messed
up if you're talking about this as much as you are or you care about this, that proves
that there's something wrong with you, that you're more obsessed with sex than we are."
None of that is true.
Anything that exists should have information out there, words to describe it, conversations
happening around it, and um, you know, if you're watching this as a person on the asexual
or aromantic spectrum, you know what's made things difficult for you in your life.
You know what's, um, been a hurdle for you, you know how that can get in the way of everyday
life in ways that are very hard to isolate and explain to people who don't experience
it.
And I think it's important for content to exist for those people to see we're out here,
we're talking about it, we're having the conversations, we have perspectives that may be useful, um,
you know, and as a person from my background, with my demographics, I'm obviously going
to experience some things that some of you won't, and vice versa, there'll be a lot of
things that I'll never have to deal with that I, I can't um, give you personal advice on
but I can acknowledge that they exist and some of the folks that are in the comments
that are having these conversations surrounding the subjects that I've put out there, are
able to find each other, get perspectives, see that someone else is having this issue,
and talk about it, feel validated, that's not a silly thing.
And people like these two commenters kinda seem like they're trying to make it ss, seem
like we should feel silly that we wanna talk about it.
That it, that we should really be uh, not focusing on it because they don't have to.
That their sexuality is um, never something that they have to fight with other people
about.
Um, sure they have problems that are associated with it, which in the case of the second one,
it sounded like he may have a lot of problems with getting laid or that he wants more um,
sexual attention than he could ever get, so it, it pains him to see people like us who
want recognition for those of us who don't want any sex at all, and that population includes
me, um.
So, I mean, I'm not saying they've never had any problems or any problems associated with
their sexuality, but I am saying they don't have our problems.
And trying to minimize and silence the you know, the conversations surrounding these
issues, is a really low thing to do.
Um, I don't really understand what the motivation is behind it unless they just feel attacked
by our existence.
And um, I've definitely seen that by a lot of majority populations on all kinds of subjects
where, um, they've been challenged so rarely that even seeing a dissenting position that
has nothing to do with them and isn't asking them to change anything, uh, they'll still
take it as if that's what it is, that the very existence of it means that they shouldn't
exist or that they shouldn't be able to talk about theirs.
Um, or else it's the opposite, where it's, it's so much the default that they don't even
see it as a, as a thing.
That, that it being the standard has just been a given for them for so much of their
life that they can't imagine this is something that even causes any anxiety for other people.
I mean y'all have seen me discuss in some other videos, "why don't you just focus on
being human?
why do you have to talk about this? we all love how we love! and just be yourself!"
It's much easier said than done, and we need to be able to have the conversations.
So I would appreciate it if people who wanna understand or at least pretend that they wanna
understand could realize that we do need to have spaces where we have those conversations,
where we show other people that we're having these experiences.
And um, I wish that they would realize the damage that it can do when they begrudge us
our own spaces or our own conversations.
Um, it's really sad that um, they would wanna wade into conversations that have nothing
to do with them and say "excuse me, I don't want you to be able to talk about this!
I want you to feel like talking about this is useless because I don't understand it."
So um, yeah, if any of you recognize this behavior in say, any other aspect of your
life, where you've ever been tempted to say "None of this matters," ya know, take a cue
from this and say ya know what, I probably don't have to go into this conversation to
tell them that it shouldn't be happening.
Ya know?
Things that people are concerned about are things that they talk about, and um, minimizing
their concern or their desire to talk about it is really just kind of a shitty thing to
do.
Personal update.
I got cool new shoes.
I got these at the Skechers store.
Size six in kids.
And they were 70% off!
And I strongly suspect that uh, they were low price because they're large for kids'
shoes, and uh, people who usually fit in this shoe size probably don't want cool light-up
shoes, but uh, I guess that's one really awesome benefit of um, having feet that are on the
large size of kids' size.
They're very cool.
I love them.
Um, I've never had shoes that I have to charge before.
It's really funny.
So I can choose different patterns by pushing this.
I can turn 'em off.
I can turn 'em on just one color.
It's really neato.
I'm not gonna go through all of 'em though because one of 'em is a strobe, and I don't
like that for um, ya know, the possibility of setting off, uh, you know, photo-sensitive
epileptic uh, seizures and stuff.
Let's see.
What else we got?
Um, I got this cool poster.
And um, I've really wanted this art for a while, and I couldn't find it, it's from the
2016 San Diego Comic Con Steven Universe um, signing sheet, and I really just wanted the
art, 'cause I've got the ones from previous years, like that's 2015, that's 2017, that's
2018, but I couldn't find 2016!
And finally I found this one but it was signed by a bunch of people, so it was more expensive.
And uh, I just went ahead and got it 'cause I like it, and that's pretty neat.
Got a lot of signatures on there, eight different people, four voice actors, two kinda creators,
one writer, one artist, um, and of course the creators are uh, Ian and Rebecca, and
they're artists too.
So let's see.
What else is cool?
Um, did some more art like usual.
I've been doing little promo poster type things when new episodes came out for Steven Universe
'cause I really love the show, and uh, some of you who watch it probably know that a season
finale just aired, and that is awesome.
It was really really good.
And um, you know.
I might as well say like, um, I was actually looking for um, someone to watch it with me
now that it's come to kind of a really good stopping point and we're gonna be on hiatus
for a while, I've been toying with the idea of making either like a podcast type thing
on a different YouTube channel or a liveblog where you know, I could watch episodes with
someone and uh, kinda discuss it with them, you know, so if anybody watches my YouTube
channel and is interested in maybe asking me about um, whether they could partner with
me and do that, I would really love to do something like that.
Um, it's kind of a cool way for me to get to re-experience the show while showing it
to someone else, 'cause that's really rewarding, and um, I um, I would prefer to do that with
someone who is mostly unspoiled on the show but is maybe intrigued by my passion for it.
Um, so let me know or s--send me either a comment or a direct message through YouTube
and see if maybe if you're interested we could talk about what format you like for um, for
if you wanted to do that, and um, I would let the person pick what they wanna do, and
I could show you an example or two of uh, either liveblogs or podcasts where people
talk about it, um, this is uh, getting to be a slightly more common format where somebody
who has seen the show shows it to someone who has not seen the show and then like sort
of, I won't say "guides them through it" 'cause they really try to avoid spoiling or putting
anything into perspective 'cause everybody has their own experience, but they kind of
protect them from spoilers and um, are able to put the content in a space where fans of
the show can experience it without that person uh, possibly encountering spoilers from jerks
who wanna tell them what's gonna happen.
Let's see.
Um, stuff in non-cartoon news, um, I had my 41st birthday earlier this month, and um,
my friend Meghan who you may have met in a previous video came to visit for like the
entire week.
She stayed with me, we went to Disney, um, for a day, we went to a history museum in
Orlando, had a good time, um, unfortunately her uh, her birthday is cursed or something
so we got really bad news on her birthday which was two days after mine.
But ya know, I'm not gonna talk about that too much in a video, 'cause it's kinda personal
business I guess, um, but someone we know died so that's really sad.
Um.
Hhhh.
Ya know.
Um, what else, uh, let's see.
Um, I am going to um, have an interview on a comics website, which is kinda cool, um,
that's not like really huge news or anything, but I guess it's unusual for people to wanna
interview me about something that's not related to asexuality, so that's kinda nice.
Um, so I'll have that probably next month I think.
Um, I'm going to be on an asexualities panel.
Uh, I believe I'm going to attend it by Skype.
It's like, for asexual authors, and um, that will be in Canada, but I'm gonna attend by
Skype, so um, that'll be in April, I believe.
So I'm planning to be part of that.
Um, I may have mentioned in my last video that uh, I participated in National Novel
Writing Month, and I was writing uh, a young adult fantasy kind of thing with a main character
that's uh, a lesbian, which is cool, and I think I unintentionally made one of the secondary
characters asexual, I'm not sure, kinda more asexual and questioning, it's uh, it's--was
a surprise to me.
I, I have another novel in development that's a little older that has an asexual protagonist,
and I'm still working on both of those, but um, my uh, my literary agent recently reached
out to me and told me, like, "Hey I'm having a baby, so send me anything that you have
that you want me to read before that, because I'm, my reading's gonna slow down."
And I'm like, oh, well this is a good opportunity to send one of my novels, so I, I'm gonna
be trying to pitch one of those to her, and she said she'd take a look at it, so we'll
see, maybe I'll get fiction out there.
Some of the other efforts that I had for my fantasy novel trilogy, um, if, some of y'all
might've known that I, um, was trying to get fiction published as well and I did get a
literary agent, and I got a lot of nibbles from mainstream publishers, but I didn't get
an offer on, on the book trilogy, and um, it's difficult to um, figure out what to do
with a picture that has kind of gotten some nibbles but hasn't gotten anywhere with like,
you know, a mainstream contract, and my agent didn't wanna go down to very small publishers,
she really was convinced that it deserved a bigger contract, so um, we kept trying and
then she had some health problems and now seems to have kind of disappeared.
So I'm going, I'm going to offer some unrelated fiction to the literary, the separate literary
agent I had um, who sold my, my nonfiction book, 'cause she also represents fiction.
So we'll see, I mean, there's a lot of fish in the sea and I keep writing books, so um,
I have some New Year's Resolutions, which you know, some of them are related to writing,
I wanna finish both of those books that I started, I wanna, um, one of 'em was getting
some of my older stuff to my literary agent, uh, I'd like to start submitting some more
short stories, um, I'm uh, uh, hopefully this is not weird to anybody to talk about this,
but I'm on um, a slightly modified eating plan to try to lose a little bit of weight
because I have gained some weight and I think that my choices at this point are either buy
a new wardrobe or um, drop a few points.
I mean, for someone who's as small as me, it's kinda like I don't have to lose very
much to go down a size, because a pound is more on a very short person, but you know,
it's still like I need to lose about 10 more pounds.
So we'll see.
It's going well though.
Um, I'm doing kind of a group thing, where we try to keep each other accountable, it's
a little cheesy, but it's a thing, ya know, I'm just not really used to it.
So I'm trying to play more Dance Dance Revolution, you've seen my pad over there.
My dancing pad.
I have an old video where I did that.
I still do it.
I still do it.
Ahhh.
What else.
Um.
I mentioned last time that my family from California came to visit, and so did my, um,
my other sister from North Carolina, we saw each other around Christmas time, had a good
time, um, got to see my little nephew who's now five, and he's adorable.
And uh, what else can I tell you?
Mmm, I lost both my grandparents last year.
Um, my grandmother finally passed in December, so that was really sad.
Um, lot of uh, I dunno, this is awkward, but like, I'm starting to realize I have a lot
of dead people in my phone.
It's really depressing.
So um, I guess uh, once you get to a certain age and you're lucky enough to be one of the
people who's still here, you're gonna lose some people you know, so um, that's really
sad.
Uh, what else.
Work is still going well.
It's about the same as the last time that I talked about work.
Um, and uh, I guess I don't really have too many other things to update you on right now.
But feel free to ask if there's something that you wanted to know about.
Um, I'll talk to y'all next time!
Thanks for watching!
Bye!
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