Have you ever wondered why we are all so obsessed with technology?
Look around you right now, everyone is on a laptop, a mobile, a tablet.
They are immersed in their own little world, oblivious to all than transpires around them.
It's like an addiction, a disease, and I need to cure myself.
I am a technology addict.
I desire it, I obsesses over it.
I have gone days without sleeping or eating when I am gaming.
I lose whole weekends watching YouTube videos.
My every thought and action are visible to the whole world on a dozen social media applications
that I update endlessly.
I lost my girlfriend to my addiction a few months ago and I am determined to win her back.
She told me that if I can go 8 weeks without technology she will think about getting back
together with me.
I've made the decision to try an intensive, cold turkey style, technology detox.
I thought it would be cool to keep a diary of it and share it here with my NoSleep buddies.
Come on my NoSleep brothers and sisters, help out one of your biggest fans and support me
on my technology detox.
OK, let me start with the 'rules'.
1 - I can work on my laptop for up to 8 hours a day, no more.
I don't want to be unemployed as well as single do I!
2 – I can use my mobile for phone calls and important texts only.
At 7:00PM it gets locked away until 7:00 the next morning.
3 – I am replacing technology with wholesome, healthy activities.
I'm going to exercise for at least an hour a day, read instead of watching YouTube fail vids, and
I'm even going to try meditation to replace the hours I waste on Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram.
Wish me luck!
This is HAAAARD!
I have been so twitchy.
I have been walking to work and back which has been quite nice, apart from Wednesday
when it rained.
I'm so desperate to go online, I keep reaching for my phone but I've pretty much stayed
on the wagon, just one minor blip--
on Thursday when I jumped on NoSleep on my mobile and
read a couple of stories (they were amazing by the way) and it was 8:45 before I locked
away my mobile.
I've started reading a paperback called Dune by Frank Herbert.
Guys, if you haven't read this book it's amazing, you have to check it out.
I'm finding meditating tough.
My mind wanders so easily, but I'm determined to keep going.
I rang my ex to tell her, she seemed pleased I was giving it a go so that's given me
a lot of hope.
I'm calling week 1 a success.
I went for a run this week, twice!
Not too far, just 3 miles but I'm suitably smug about it.
I listened to Spotify on my first run then realized that was tech.
I'm getting much better at meditating.
I can go for about 7 minutes at a time now.
That doesn't sound like much, but try it;
it feels like an awfully long time when all you are doing is sitting and breathing.
I look like a different person already.
My complexion is not as sallow and pale.
I'm out in the sun 3-4 hours a week now, with walking and running.
I've started to lose a bit of weight, but there's this weird red dot on the tip of
my right thumb?
Sleep was always a problem for me.
I used to wake several times a night and jump straight on my phone, often spending hours
on social media.
My sleep is already getting better but I've started to dream.
I never used to, I don't think I was ever asleep unbroken long enough to.
It's a vivid recurring scene, I'm sitting in a room with my friends and we're all talking.
Slowly the conversation drifts away from me, my friends stop hearing then seeing me.
I shout and scream and shake them but it's like I've stopped existing to them.
Freudian huh?
No blips this week but serious cravings and my resolve has been tested many times.
On a couple of mornings when I woke up my mobile was next to my bed instead of downstairs.
I must have forgotten to lock it away at night.
I think the honeymoon is over.
I REALLY want to go online, I'm obsessing about it.
Everything was going so well for the first two weeks.
Week three has not been pleasant.
It started with the headache on Monday, dull at first but ever present.
The stomach cramps and nausea are worse than the headaches.
They seem to subside when I am at work on my laptop but the rest of the time I feel rotten.
I still managed to get out for a run but just the one.
I was hoping to build on last week, not go backwards.
The healthy glow I was starting to see in the mirror last week is less evident now.
I have the mother of all zits forming just above my left eyebrow.
What am I, a teenager?
Maybe I'm getting ill?
On Thursday morning I woke up on my sofa instead of my bed; the TV was on in the background.
I must have crashed out after work.
I turned the TV off as soon as I woke up but ended up flicking back on.
My headache is crippling now and the TV took my mind off it for a while.
I called in sick to work on Friday.
I've caught myself on a couple of occasions just staring at my phone.
I have to leave it out of reach at work otherwise I keep finding it in my hand.
It's getting harder and harder not to just jump online and check Facebook.
The weird red dots are on the tips of most of my fingers now.
I started to feel a little better after Friday of last week, maybe the illness has passed?
I'm back on with the meditation but when I'm just sitting with my own thoughts, it just
draws my attention to my headache and turns it from a dull background pain to a sharp,
blinding agony.
My zit is growing, it's going to be a monster.
I tried squeezing it but it's bloody painful.
I think I'll leave it until it forms a proper head before popping it.
As the week has gone on the nausea and cramps have come back.
When I started this process, I called it a detox, but it really is starting to feel like
I'm coming off heroin or something.
I'm sweating then shivering and I have cravings.
I'm desperate to look at my phone and check in on social media.
My dream is really getting to me, it's like my subconscious is talking to me.
Not interacting with people on social media has made me realize how I don't have
any real-world friends.
I woke up on Saturday morning and my bed was covered in blood.
When I tried to get out of bed a burning pain flared up on the soles of my feet.
They're shredded and filled with tiny shards of glass.
I think I've pieced together what must have happened.
I obviously got up in the middle of the night to get myself a glass of water from
the kitchen and dropped the glass, smashing it on the wooden floor and lacerating my feet.
It's odd, though.
There was no spilt water, just broken glass, and looking at the trail of bloody footprints, it almost
looks like I walked repeatedly back and forth through the shards.
I don't think I could have damaged my feet more if I'd deliberately tried to.
That's unfortunately put the walking and running on hold.
One other weird thing.
I keep finding tiny, shriveled black hairs all over the house.
They aren't mine.
It's getting tough NoSleep, please keep sending me your positive thoughts.
The cravings are unbearable.
I haven't been able to go into work all week.
I mostly lie on the sofa shaking.
My every thought is consumed by technology.
My skull is itching on the inside and it feels like my brain is burning.
I so desperately want to go online, I know it would make the pain and the aching, desire go away.
When I read, my eyes stream and the words are blurred.
Meditation is agony, it seems to focus the pain around my eyes, they feel like they are
going to burst.
My zit is the size of a grape,.
In a desperate attempt to relieve the brutal pain in my forehead, I squeeze and squeeze, screaming in pain
until it bursts.
A hard-black ball the size of a pea fires out, bouncing off my bathroom mirror and rolling
down the sink before I can catch it.
The black hairs are all over the house now.
The tiny red sores are all around the edges of my eyes, on my fingertips and even on my tongue now.
They look like infected hair follicles and in my dreams the black hairs sprout from them
like questing antenna while my conscious mind takes refuge from the constant blinding
pain I'm in.
Three nights in a row, I wake up at my kitchen table.
My laptop is on and my phone is in my hand.
I don't remember any of it, but I've made hundreds of posts in the night all on my social
media accounts.
They are bizarre, insane things.
Vile insults to some of my closest online friends and colleagues, and outlandish lies.
As a result, my accounts have gone into meltdown with the amount of furious and worried replies
I receive.
I revel in how good it feels; at least my dreams about being invisible to my friends
aren't likely to come true now.
My headaches lessen a little.
I get a letter from work telling me my contract has been terminated.
It hardly seems to matter.
I've come so far on this detox that I can't stop now, despite everything that is happening to me.
If only I could remember why I started doing this in the first place?
I'm lying curled up in a ball shaking.
I have no idea how long I have been like this.
The universe has contracted to be nothing more than two opposing forces.
My burning, insatiable desire to go online and my resolute will to see this thing through
to the end.
I can no longer trust my body or my senses, so I take matters into my own hands.
I take a hammer to my laptop and phone and smash them to pieces.
It's the only way to guarantee I won't succumb to the cravings.
I'm vomiting now, blood and bile and a cloudy grey fluid filled with tiny black hairs.
I'm so weak I could scarcely move even if my feet weren't covered in agonizing infected cuts.
I think my addiction is going to kill me.
I would welcome death.
The spot over my left eye is swollen and engorged.
It bursts, spilling forth a foul smelling yellow puss and dozens of tiny black balls.
In my fever dream they unfurl, tiny black filament hairs dragging them out of a primordial
soup of my blood and puss.
They skitter away, heading for the nearest darkness.
I spend the rest of the week weeping.
I'm staring in the mirror, scalpel in hand.
The pain behind my left eye so crippling that the cold kiss of the razor sharp steel will
be a welcome relief.
As I raise the blade I see the skin around my forehead, cheek and eyesocket pulse and shift.
My tear duct suddenly sprouts a thousand black filament hairs.
They stretch and probe, reaching out to grip my face, the basin taps anything they can find.
I'm paralyzed with fear as something begins to pull itself through my eyesocket.
A flash of pain then a wet, red explosion as my eyeball pops.
I scream.
Its path suddenly frees as the horror drags itself out of my skull, a ball-like body and
a monstrous tail adorned with a cruel needle with sharp hooks trailing a ruin of gore, and gray
brain matter behind it.
I lose consciousness and perhaps my mind.
My ex-girlfriend comes to see me in the secure psychiatric ward.
Speech is difficult for me and my brain works slower now, making it hard to find the words.
I told her that we can get back together now.
I beat my addiction.
She cries and strokes my hair when I tell her she looks just as pretty through one eye.
I think her tears are of pity, not love.
No one seems to believe me about what happened.
About the creature living in my brain, the real source of my addiction.
How it made me crave the constant stream of data, fed on it.
How it bred in my brain and multiplied sending out its young to enslave more minds.
I shudder when I think about my old commute to work, surrounded by strangers with their
heads down, each a slave to the tiny electrical device in their hand and the monster it is feeding.
I no longer care.
I'm free of my addiction, and my mind is at peace.
Thank you for your help NoSleep, I couldn't have done it without you.
I'm glad you read my diary but please take care.
Stop now If you feel the urge, the craving, the obsessive desire for just
one more story.
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Hello youtube friends welcome to the channel Johny Bala Games
let's go to another gameplay here of heroes mobile world war z
guys, I'm asking you guys to leave your like in the video and if you are not registered
here on the channel Join in the beauty
Good, I'm already completing the daily missions
I almost already closed all only missing these two here that are 5 victories
no raid already completed these from here
first I'm going to do team raid here We are at this level here and there are 3
levels to close I'll try to close this one and start
the other there the penultimate my heroes most are in the 50
only the top 3 I use are in 60 here I usually attack like this
I put the terrestrials first for them to start taking damage there
I'll put the aerial ones later. Let's see if I can at least ... close
here 100% Look, I already lost 1 there .. 2
with another attack I can close only with this one I find it difficult
give 100% here although they had already attacked, they had already
given 17% damage but I still have enough living heroes maybe
I can complete yes I got close here 100%
I'm going to open the other one right now, start the other
this one I'll start with the sides I see
and I'll start right here if I can get 50% damage here I already have it
with the other attack Beauty I got 50%
I'll let it roll until my heroes die.
I got to destroy the cv there my heroes in the next attack no longer will
lose time in cv good I already made my 2 attacks now I'm going to buy
More 1 I thought someone was attacking but not
had not start here in the same scheme
Beauty, I could close now I will start here the last level, right?
because I still have 1 attack left left over is not an attack that I can buy
Let's buy 2 chances. This one is already more difficult, right?
I'll start here in the same scheme
good if I could buy here 2 more attacks I think I closed this level here.
unfortunately I did not but I did a score good
I made 37.50% good now and only the guys attack to close
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Hello everyone! Welcome to email pace. Say, have you entertained someone already
this year. I mean, have you taken a client or business partner out for lunch or
dinner. Maybe not yet. Well I have a chance to entertain someone early next
month. But this would be a little bit of a challenge for me, because he is a
Mormon. I have never worked with a Mormon before. Mormonism is a branch of
Christianity in the US, and Mormons have a special lifestyle. They don't drink
coffee or tea or alcohol, so no beer no wine for them. It's like Hindu people not
eating beef. It's the religious rule or guideline. But this is knowledge I got
from the internet, and I would like to know more details before I have dinner
with this guy. For example, would it be okay for me to order alcohol or tea
while we have dinner together. Wouldn't that be offensive? So today, I'm
going to write an email to my colleague Miriam. She used to live in the state of
Utah, and Utah is the home ground of Mormons. So I'm pretty sure she can give
me some advice on how to have a happy dinner with this Mormon guy. Okay, so here it goes:
Hi Miriam. How are things going? I wanted to ask for your advice on
something I'm not familiar with. I'm entertaining guests from Salt Lake City
next month and he is a Mormon. I've heard that they don't drink alcohol
or coffee, so I was wondering, for example, what kind of drinks would be preferable
to order for my guests and myself. The last thing I want to do is offend him. I
need your wisdom on this matter quite desperately! It would be great if you
could give me some tips. Thank you! Kyota. - Okay, so I started the email with a
little greeting and then explained the purpose. In the second paragraph,
I explained my problem and gave a specific example of the kind of advice
I'm looking for. You use this phrase - the last thing I want to do - when you want to
talk about the worst case. Now okay, the worst case scenario. So the worst case
scenario for me would be, to offend my guest. And in the last paragraph, I am
communicating how much I need her help. I hope she gets my desperateness. So okay,
so there you go. An email to ask a colleague for cultural tips. I'm pretty
nervous, but it's not like I'm gonna die, so I should be okay. All right, so thank
you for watching! I'll see you next week!
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Como decorar tus lápices con Búhos en Foami - Duration: 18:46.
Hello Art Friends in Your Hands, for today we are going to make these owls
for girls as for children we create one of each color so they also have
options to give them or to work and sell, I hope you join me in everything
step by step, that they give us their "Me Like "to subscribe to the channel, it's already
few days we share a project similar but it was with rabbits today we wanted
make another reason, then I hope that Join us here on your channel Arte en Tus Manos
and these are the materials that
we need then to perform the decoration of these pencils with shapes
of owl then we have foamy (rubber eva) in several presentations there are in frost the
traditional if they do not get the frosty we can also use
paintings then we can simulate texture to the pieces
here as you can see I have advanced a little and I have already cut the pieces
remember that we share the molds on the facebook page of Art
in Your Hands with Lili and Sam and also in the blog with the same name what
find the same in the lower part (description) of here the video is the link also the
list of materials so that then the take into account
we have taken then the foami (gum eva) frosted, the traditional,
acrylic paints, scissors, silicone hot
we have a blue pencil in this brushes case
# 000 number or can also use the one that only from # 0
It also helps us a lot, optional rule we can also use silicone
liquid for this project if they do not want use silicones can get
glue for foami, rubber eva they also find it in the market but
that I am going to use in this case the silicone, also siliconized cotton that
I do not have it here but remember that the list of materials we leave
here then we start
each piece was transferred by foami (rubber eva)
remember that normally I do not use pencil but an orangewood or a
skewer stick this end we mark and it gives us better carving in the foami
we cut and so we do not get stained by pencil, so now what I did was
thermos to form a little the foami, as well as I did with the rabbits I put the iron
I put a few seconds to give us like a little curve like it looks
this and I'm going to use hot silicone to paste here I'm going to take the pieces
will apply only a little
I wait for it to dry well and thick to paste on the other ends
As I am putting together owl boy and owl girl well also so that it serves us to
school season for children but also how they approach san date
valentine in some countries because in Colombia is not celebrated in this
date February 14, no, but it's September, the same then so that
make details and decorate them cute to put some chocolates and so
gift them for this date then here I already have the head or the head
body so to speak of the owl girl I'm going to take some cotton
silicone and leaving a hole when finish pasting leaving a hole in
the lower part of about two centimeters I'm going to start
introduce a little siliconized cotton so that we stay a little longer
Fill us in how you want to look
filling and it is not so flat we are going to start introducing cotton into your
inside we do the same with the body of the blue owl
when we are already well filled without let's go to damage the work of
all the contour then we seal the piece
now we are going to use this piece there
between the molds I leave you, that is the part that decorates like the chest, the
front of the owl's body then like this let's apply silicone
all around
and we will also locate it here
as it is hot then that too allows us to put pressure on the fund and that
that thermos forms and sticks perfect in the frosty foami
I already have an advance here
what would be the girl owl, which was already totally stuck here we do pressure
remember that usually there is always that holding it is a while for the
pieces stick well and more with this one that is frosty then you have to have more
patience with him is now this and now what we are going to do is start to paste
the wings that are two pieces we are going to put here aside and here is another
end like this so we do with both
now after having stuck the wings
in each of the owls can paste also what are the legs of the part
lower I'm going to apply a little bit of silicone
and located the what to paste to join or assemble is
the simplest thing now let's start when we have finished putting each one
of the pieces we started to decorate and You will see how beautiful it looks
here it is now I am going to put the ears in the back like that too
you will stick with little silicone the located in the back
A) Yes
or on the edge so they do not go to Be very saturated with silicone
in the back, so it's going to be in the back
and so we have the ears of the owl
now we will also locate the peak, before hitting the peak if the
owl what we're going to do is locate the piece, which is also found in the
molds that make up the eyes, if the we hit what the peak does,
and sticking our eyes this is going to be like with a kind of bagging, because they are
and many pieces of foami then what what we are going to do is locate them
approximately we can do it until outside, to locate how we would stay
the eyes and either with the stick of skewer or with a pencil we are going to mark
where we would be approximately, at mark
They know that I do not like it very much because I'm always going to do it here so that
see a little we mark it with a little pencil and let's remove what we're going to cut
that piece so that we will not be left
bulging the peak piece that way we would have the owl if this will be
the shape of the peak and when we put the eye will then be stuck here to a
side will not remain on the post on the frosty orange color but
that is going to be set aside so we do not it is so bulky and looks more beautiful and
better presented the project the same I'm going to do with the pink owl
I'll do the same the piece placed the eyes approximately
where are I going to put them and what little mark either with the pencil or with the stick but
like this is frost then we It makes it a bit difficult
track and successfully
and so then we paste it here Now we place the peak then
I'm going to take the two pieces that I cut in white oval shape and I'm going to apply too
all around the silicone, always taking care not to burn
around the contour applied the silicone here look how it is located
gives us the shape of the eye is much more cute
the other
I have them so I wanted to
and so we would all be left in the owl, in it the paste see how they are
ready now I will proceed then they can do it in black foami the part
internal I'm going to do in the eye but I will paint it with paintings
acrylic black and brush I'm going to start with this process
I'm going to paint then the inner part of the eye I am
using a triple zero brush are # 000 followed
can use thicker brushes or Thinner is your decision
I'm going to make them like the internal ovals in black
one here
we try to stay as the same size
and that they also have approximately same way
and now I give him some touches so that improve the size project here
I'm going to show the one of the owl and also what what can we do
As it is a girl we can also make her some eyelashes I take the brush
this truth is a triple zero also but we removed many hairs and
he was thin he was very thin then I'm going to make you some eyelashes too if
they want to do it or if it is not there they can leave like this
always try to leave as the same area to make the eyelashes not
I will do many already recharge it the truth she's already going with her
pink, lilac tone to all this we the they make it look very cute
that's fine and we improve the eyes of the blue owl
now let's give them some highlights let's use that pint tool
points if they do not have can also use the end of the brushes or tools that
have a tip that serves them well be round you can use it
you can with any of the extremes to make the decoration will take
then and I make the point almost finishing a little
the same in the other
we let it dry and we continue decorating then the other owl and also the
other details that we are going to do in they
now let's start making details so
in the yellow part all this part yellow of the wings let's start
make some short intermediate lines with a turquoise blue
you see if they want to do it black or another color I'm going to do here
this matter that I know that gives you a tone and highlights in this frosty blue that
we use to make the body, so all around
so then the points around of the wings and legs of the owl and let's go
to do the same in her what is I'm not going to make lines but points
who will use the orange stick (skewer) of the end and I will make are points
ready the points, then now what we are going to do is with a blue pencil in
all the outline of the eye here we go to start
to make him shade this we can also do it with blue paint we put it gouache
delineate all around the contour of this color of the same appearance
the same effect then we can do it like that
gives more expression
all right and you can see then how are the
eyes of this owl I will also do what same with the blue I'm going to do
exactly the same thing I teach you then how is it for now I'm also going to
start making the rolls that you put in the back to be able
introduce the pencil, I will take a piece that is already in the molds
which is 3 centimeters by 5 I'm going to take a pencil as a tool
support can start to roll it up like this as you can see
and I'm going to take hot silicone and I'm going to apply at the end
subject very well being careful not to burn suddenly
and wait for it to dry very well and it's already piece then we put it, the
we add in the back in the owls body
Now what we are going to do is paste the piece
in the body, we apply silicone hot we place it in the center,
we look well for the center
and we wait for it to dry and already with the supports that we have stuck
in the back we have finished the project since it is very easy to do it
simple and economical also in many can be made with scraps or remnants
that we have foami we take out the pieces and we can create these animals and
I hope you like the project already as I told them at the beginning how we are
also close to valentine's party in some countries they can perform
these dolls decorate then in a chocolate some detail that they want a
bouquet of flowers put it like a pin there additional and sure that you will love them
or so on these pencils and suddenly They want to share it with their children in the
schools, in schools so that they are also starting classes because
They know that they can do this for the children and so for girls I hope that
they like the project that they put it in practice
remember that we read all your comments, that we are creating ideas
for you and we want you to accompany each video here on your channel
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"My Intensive Technology Detox Diary" -- A NoSleep Read - Duration: 21:23.
Have you ever wondered why we are all so obsessed with technology?
Look around you right now, everyone is on a laptop, a mobile, a tablet.
They are immersed in their own little world, oblivious to all than transpires around them.
It's like an addiction, a disease, and I need to cure myself.
I am a technology addict.
I desire it, I obsesses over it.
I have gone days without sleeping or eating when I am gaming.
I lose whole weekends watching YouTube videos.
My every thought and action are visible to the whole world on a dozen social media applications
that I update endlessly.
I lost my girlfriend to my addiction a few months ago and I am determined to win her back.
She told me that if I can go 8 weeks without technology she will think about getting back
together with me.
I've made the decision to try an intensive, cold turkey style, technology detox.
I thought it would be cool to keep a diary of it and share it here with my NoSleep buddies.
Come on my NoSleep brothers and sisters, help out one of your biggest fans and support me
on my technology detox.
OK, let me start with the 'rules'.
1 - I can work on my laptop for up to 8 hours a day, no more.
I don't want to be unemployed as well as single do I!
2 – I can use my mobile for phone calls and important texts only.
At 7:00PM it gets locked away until 7:00 the next morning.
3 – I am replacing technology with wholesome, healthy activities.
I'm going to exercise for at least an hour a day, read instead of watching YouTube fail vids, and
I'm even going to try meditation to replace the hours I waste on Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram.
Wish me luck!
This is HAAAARD!
I have been so twitchy.
I have been walking to work and back which has been quite nice, apart from Wednesday
when it rained.
I'm so desperate to go online, I keep reaching for my phone but I've pretty much stayed
on the wagon, just one minor blip--
on Thursday when I jumped on NoSleep on my mobile and
read a couple of stories (they were amazing by the way) and it was 8:45 before I locked
away my mobile.
I've started reading a paperback called Dune by Frank Herbert.
Guys, if you haven't read this book it's amazing, you have to check it out.
I'm finding meditating tough.
My mind wanders so easily, but I'm determined to keep going.
I rang my ex to tell her, she seemed pleased I was giving it a go so that's given me
a lot of hope.
I'm calling week 1 a success.
I went for a run this week, twice!
Not too far, just 3 miles but I'm suitably smug about it.
I listened to Spotify on my first run then realized that was tech.
I'm getting much better at meditating.
I can go for about 7 minutes at a time now.
That doesn't sound like much, but try it;
it feels like an awfully long time when all you are doing is sitting and breathing.
I look like a different person already.
My complexion is not as sallow and pale.
I'm out in the sun 3-4 hours a week now, with walking and running.
I've started to lose a bit of weight, but there's this weird red dot on the tip of
my right thumb?
Sleep was always a problem for me.
I used to wake several times a night and jump straight on my phone, often spending hours
on social media.
My sleep is already getting better but I've started to dream.
I never used to, I don't think I was ever asleep unbroken long enough to.
It's a vivid recurring scene, I'm sitting in a room with my friends and we're all talking.
Slowly the conversation drifts away from me, my friends stop hearing then seeing me.
I shout and scream and shake them but it's like I've stopped existing to them.
Freudian huh?
No blips this week but serious cravings and my resolve has been tested many times.
On a couple of mornings when I woke up my mobile was next to my bed instead of downstairs.
I must have forgotten to lock it away at night.
I think the honeymoon is over.
I REALLY want to go online, I'm obsessing about it.
Everything was going so well for the first two weeks.
Week three has not been pleasant.
It started with the headache on Monday, dull at first but ever present.
The stomach cramps and nausea are worse than the headaches.
They seem to subside when I am at work on my laptop but the rest of the time I feel rotten.
I still managed to get out for a run but just the one.
I was hoping to build on last week, not go backwards.
The healthy glow I was starting to see in the mirror last week is less evident now.
I have the mother of all zits forming just above my left eyebrow.
What am I, a teenager?
Maybe I'm getting ill?
On Thursday morning I woke up on my sofa instead of my bed; the TV was on in the background.
I must have crashed out after work.
I turned the TV off as soon as I woke up but ended up flicking back on.
My headache is crippling now and the TV took my mind off it for a while.
I called in sick to work on Friday.
I've caught myself on a couple of occasions just staring at my phone.
I have to leave it out of reach at work otherwise I keep finding it in my hand.
It's getting harder and harder not to just jump online and check Facebook.
The weird red dots are on the tips of most of my fingers now.
I started to feel a little better after Friday of last week, maybe the illness has passed?
I'm back on with the meditation but when I'm just sitting with my own thoughts, it just
draws my attention to my headache and turns it from a dull background pain to a sharp,
blinding agony.
My zit is growing, it's going to be a monster.
I tried squeezing it but it's bloody painful.
I think I'll leave it until it forms a proper head before popping it.
As the week has gone on the nausea and cramps have come back.
When I started this process, I called it a detox, but it really is starting to feel like
I'm coming off heroin or something.
I'm sweating then shivering and I have cravings.
I'm desperate to look at my phone and check in on social media.
My dream is really getting to me, it's like my subconscious is talking to me.
Not interacting with people on social media has made me realize how I don't have
any real-world friends.
I woke up on Saturday morning and my bed was covered in blood.
When I tried to get out of bed a burning pain flared up on the soles of my feet.
They're shredded and filled with tiny shards of glass.
I think I've pieced together what must have happened.
I obviously got up in the middle of the night to get myself a glass of water from
the kitchen and dropped the glass, smashing it on the wooden floor and lacerating my feet.
It's odd, though.
There was no spilt water, just broken glass, and looking at the trail of bloody footprints, it almost
looks like I walked repeatedly back and forth through the shards.
I don't think I could have damaged my feet more if I'd deliberately tried to.
That's unfortunately put the walking and running on hold.
One other weird thing.
I keep finding tiny, shriveled black hairs all over the house.
They aren't mine.
It's getting tough NoSleep, please keep sending me your positive thoughts.
The cravings are unbearable.
I haven't been able to go into work all week.
I mostly lie on the sofa shaking.
My every thought is consumed by technology.
My skull is itching on the inside and it feels like my brain is burning.
I so desperately want to go online, I know it would make the pain and the aching, desire go away.
When I read, my eyes stream and the words are blurred.
Meditation is agony, it seems to focus the pain around my eyes, they feel like they are
going to burst.
My zit is the size of a grape,.
In a desperate attempt to relieve the brutal pain in my forehead, I squeeze and squeeze, screaming in pain
until it bursts.
A hard-black ball the size of a pea fires out, bouncing off my bathroom mirror and rolling
down the sink before I can catch it.
The black hairs are all over the house now.
The tiny red sores are all around the edges of my eyes, on my fingertips and even on my tongue now.
They look like infected hair follicles and in my dreams the black hairs sprout from them
like questing antenna while my conscious mind takes refuge from the constant blinding
pain I'm in.
Three nights in a row, I wake up at my kitchen table.
My laptop is on and my phone is in my hand.
I don't remember any of it, but I've made hundreds of posts in the night all on my social
media accounts.
They are bizarre, insane things.
Vile insults to some of my closest online friends and colleagues, and outlandish lies.
As a result, my accounts have gone into meltdown with the amount of furious and worried replies
I receive.
I revel in how good it feels; at least my dreams about being invisible to my friends
aren't likely to come true now.
My headaches lessen a little.
I get a letter from work telling me my contract has been terminated.
It hardly seems to matter.
I've come so far on this detox that I can't stop now, despite everything that is happening to me.
If only I could remember why I started doing this in the first place?
I'm lying curled up in a ball shaking.
I have no idea how long I have been like this.
The universe has contracted to be nothing more than two opposing forces.
My burning, insatiable desire to go online and my resolute will to see this thing through
to the end.
I can no longer trust my body or my senses, so I take matters into my own hands.
I take a hammer to my laptop and phone and smash them to pieces.
It's the only way to guarantee I won't succumb to the cravings.
I'm vomiting now, blood and bile and a cloudy grey fluid filled with tiny black hairs.
I'm so weak I could scarcely move even if my feet weren't covered in agonizing infected cuts.
I think my addiction is going to kill me.
I would welcome death.
The spot over my left eye is swollen and engorged.
It bursts, spilling forth a foul smelling yellow puss and dozens of tiny black balls.
In my fever dream they unfurl, tiny black filament hairs dragging them out of a primordial
soup of my blood and puss.
They skitter away, heading for the nearest darkness.
I spend the rest of the week weeping.
I'm staring in the mirror, scalpel in hand.
The pain behind my left eye so crippling that the cold kiss of the razor sharp steel will
be a welcome relief.
As I raise the blade I see the skin around my forehead, cheek and eyesocket pulse and shift.
My tear duct suddenly sprouts a thousand black filament hairs.
They stretch and probe, reaching out to grip my face, the basin taps anything they can find.
I'm paralyzed with fear as something begins to pull itself through my eyesocket.
A flash of pain then a wet, red explosion as my eyeball pops.
I scream.
Its path suddenly frees as the horror drags itself out of my skull, a ball-like body and
a monstrous tail adorned with a cruel needle with sharp hooks trailing a ruin of gore, and gray
brain matter behind it.
I lose consciousness and perhaps my mind.
My ex-girlfriend comes to see me in the secure psychiatric ward.
Speech is difficult for me and my brain works slower now, making it hard to find the words.
I told her that we can get back together now.
I beat my addiction.
She cries and strokes my hair when I tell her she looks just as pretty through one eye.
I think her tears are of pity, not love.
No one seems to believe me about what happened.
About the creature living in my brain, the real source of my addiction.
How it made me crave the constant stream of data, fed on it.
How it bred in my brain and multiplied sending out its young to enslave more minds.
I shudder when I think about my old commute to work, surrounded by strangers with their
heads down, each a slave to the tiny electrical device in their hand and the monster it is feeding.
I no longer care.
I'm free of my addiction, and my mind is at peace.
Thank you for your help NoSleep, I couldn't have done it without you.
I'm glad you read my diary but please take care.
Stop now If you feel the urge, the craving, the obsessive desire for just
one more story.
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hey guys welcome back to my channel and you can go to my channel go ahead and
hit the subscribe button to see more home holiday eat bent wedding and DIY
the core today I'm gonna show you how to make a sleep over frame tent for your
kids mixed lumber party birthday celebration here we go I've been seeing
these adorable teepee tanks or frame tents everywhere
kids are not used in it for slumber party birthday parties and oh my gosh
they look very easy to make and guess what they were so let's get started with
the video alright guys so this is what you're going to need to make your frame
tent I'm you're gonna need four pieces of wood this our cold wood strips and
they were very inexpensive they were only a dollar ninety seven for one and
over here this are wood dowels and they were a little over two dollars and I'm
going to be using three of them I also purchased this um that even Cola hold on
I forgot a spade bit so I've never used one before this one is a 7/16 so I'm
very excited to do something different because as I said before I get bored
very easily and so that's why I'm always with all these things so yeah so I'm
very excited to get started and this is going to be pretty easy guys so let's
just do it wait wait I
almost forgot let me give you some details because as you know I never
write you know the supplies and things like that in the description box I do
write it right after my intro but most people say it goes too fast I get it I
understand but I'm always like running behind and late guys so I kind of like
don't really have time and really like never have time
never so these are from Home Depot and this right here are wood strips and they
are 63 by half an inch and this over here are with dolls and they are 48 by
7/16 okay so you're going to need four of these and three of these and the
actual size of the tent the height of the tent is going to be less because I'm
taking away six inches once I put everything together so it's going to be
57 by 48 all right so now let's get started for sure I'm going to start with
the top of the tent so I am going to be marking six inches in from all of them
now I'm going to turn these over and I'm going to drill the holes for the bottom
and I'm going to make those two inches in now I'm gonna go ahead and start
drilling and again this is a 7/16 spade bit okay I'm gonna have to change drills
I don't think this one is strong enough so I gotta give my husband's drill this
is kind of like a I don't like to say girl you wanna because we girls are
strong so but I need a more heavy-duty one so I'll be right back
and there it is now I'm going to go ahead and do the other side now I'm
going to get the measurements I'm going to need to make the tip for my frame so
what I'm going to do is bring it in an inch and a half so here is an inch and a
half all right and I already marked it let me make it a
little darker so you can see and I'm going to do the same on the other side
now once you mark them half an inch on each side you are going to measure
within those lines because that's going to be the size that you're going to need
width wise for your fabric so the width of my dowel where the fabric needs to be
is 45 inches so I'm going to make my tenth 45 inches by a hundred and
fourteen inches Y 814 inches because the length where the other hole is at the
top is 55 inches the height so I'm gonna have to double that up to bring it down
and then I'm giving myself too and extra inches on each side so I'm able to fold
it into the dowel okay so you can hold it there and make the tent nice and
tight alright so I'm just gonna show you to make my tent I'm using this beautiful
cotton material from Jones fabric this is like a cream color we go polkadot
they're like tiny metallic go walkabout I love polka dots guys it's my favorite
thing even to where I wear all the time anyway this is four yards and for a yard
it was $5 because it's actually $9.99 but I had a 50% coupon so the entire
thing was 20 bucks you can definitely get cheaper material at Walmart and even
there Jones fabric I just you know fell in love with this one
go ahead and cut it now I'm going to be folding a pocket at the end of both ends
actually okay as so which is where my doll is going to go through okay and
it's going to be about an inch and I'm only going to go ahead and go it down
with hot glue so no sewing involved and you should be able to pull the dowel in
and out but if you happen to get stuck somewhere along the line just wiggle it
around you know come undone okay and you can just glue the piece back on and
that's it I'm going to do the same on the other side next I'm going to be
putting the top of the tent up
with the material I have left over I ended up cutting a few strips there are
six here which I am going to use to secure the tent okay I'm going to have
three going down this way and three going down that way and all I'm going to
do is poke a hole through the material and tie the strip's to the wood I'm
making the distance between strips 16 inches apart
it's open you know someone to stay I either think I'll make the hole here too
big it's nice nug enough to hold it there or
either it's too heavy but there's a solution for this okay so if you run
into this problem you can do two things you can grab an additional piece of wood
another strip and hammer it to the back okay that will give you support or you
can be like me because I don't like the extra labor and
you can get extra material and you can tie it to the back okay so you can just
grab this extra material what I did was just grab two strips together because it
wasn't long enough so I'm going to tie these to the back of it to the back legs
and technically you can hide these underneath the sleeping bag or whatever
blankets you are going to use to decorate and make things comfortable the
one of the back doesn't bother me but the one in the front can totally be
hidden okay guys this is it this is my frame sleepover camping tent and it is
absolutely adorable it is very easy to make very affordable and like I said
earlier making it a little smaller wouldn't hurt if you have smaller
children but if you have preteen or kids over six years old this is a perfect
size and yeah they are going to love it boys and girls so life I love it I hope
you guys to enjoy this video if you did please give me a thumbs up and if you
haven't subscribe yet you can do so right here right now also leave me a
comment let me know what you thought of my
teepee aka frame tent let me know to be making one for you know what you don't
even have to have one for birthday parties you can just have them in your
living room for your kids to enjoy make sure you stretch your share sharing is
caring if you know of a friend or family member that will enjoy this make sure to
share with them at the end of this video alright guys until next time bye
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"My Intensive Technology Detox Diary" -- A NoSleep Read - Duration: 21:23.Have you ever wondered why we are all so obsessed with technology?
Look around you right now, everyone is on a laptop, a mobile, a tablet.
They are immersed in their own little world, oblivious to all than transpires around them.
It's like an addiction, a disease, and I need to cure myself.
I am a technology addict.
I desire it, I obsesses over it.
I have gone days without sleeping or eating when I am gaming.
I lose whole weekends watching YouTube videos.
My every thought and action are visible to the whole world on a dozen social media applications
that I update endlessly.
I lost my girlfriend to my addiction a few months ago and I am determined to win her back.
She told me that if I can go 8 weeks without technology she will think about getting back
together with me.
I've made the decision to try an intensive, cold turkey style, technology detox.
I thought it would be cool to keep a diary of it and share it here with my NoSleep buddies.
Come on my NoSleep brothers and sisters, help out one of your biggest fans and support me
on my technology detox.
OK, let me start with the 'rules'.
1 - I can work on my laptop for up to 8 hours a day, no more.
I don't want to be unemployed as well as single do I!
2 – I can use my mobile for phone calls and important texts only.
At 7:00PM it gets locked away until 7:00 the next morning.
3 – I am replacing technology with wholesome, healthy activities.
I'm going to exercise for at least an hour a day, read instead of watching YouTube fail vids, and
I'm even going to try meditation to replace the hours I waste on Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram.
Wish me luck!
This is HAAAARD!
I have been so twitchy.
I have been walking to work and back which has been quite nice, apart from Wednesday
when it rained.
I'm so desperate to go online, I keep reaching for my phone but I've pretty much stayed
on the wagon, just one minor blip--
on Thursday when I jumped on NoSleep on my mobile and
read a couple of stories (they were amazing by the way) and it was 8:45 before I locked
away my mobile.
I've started reading a paperback called Dune by Frank Herbert.
Guys, if you haven't read this book it's amazing, you have to check it out.
I'm finding meditating tough.
My mind wanders so easily, but I'm determined to keep going.
I rang my ex to tell her, she seemed pleased I was giving it a go so that's given me
a lot of hope.
I'm calling week 1 a success.
I went for a run this week, twice!
Not too far, just 3 miles but I'm suitably smug about it.
I listened to Spotify on my first run then realized that was tech.
I'm getting much better at meditating.
I can go for about 7 minutes at a time now.
That doesn't sound like much, but try it;
it feels like an awfully long time when all you are doing is sitting and breathing.
I look like a different person already.
My complexion is not as sallow and pale.
I'm out in the sun 3-4 hours a week now, with walking and running.
I've started to lose a bit of weight, but there's this weird red dot on the tip of
my right thumb?
Sleep was always a problem for me.
I used to wake several times a night and jump straight on my phone, often spending hours
on social media.
My sleep is already getting better but I've started to dream.
I never used to, I don't think I was ever asleep unbroken long enough to.
It's a vivid recurring scene, I'm sitting in a room with my friends and we're all talking.
Slowly the conversation drifts away from me, my friends stop hearing then seeing me.
I shout and scream and shake them but it's like I've stopped existing to them.
Freudian huh?
No blips this week but serious cravings and my resolve has been tested many times.
On a couple of mornings when I woke up my mobile was next to my bed instead of downstairs.
I must have forgotten to lock it away at night.
I think the honeymoon is over.
I REALLY want to go online, I'm obsessing about it.
Everything was going so well for the first two weeks.
Week three has not been pleasant.
It started with the headache on Monday, dull at first but ever present.
The stomach cramps and nausea are worse than the headaches.
They seem to subside when I am at work on my laptop but the rest of the time I feel rotten.
I still managed to get out for a run but just the one.
I was hoping to build on last week, not go backwards.
The healthy glow I was starting to see in the mirror last week is less evident now.
I have the mother of all zits forming just above my left eyebrow.
What am I, a teenager?
Maybe I'm getting ill?
On Thursday morning I woke up on my sofa instead of my bed; the TV was on in the background.
I must have crashed out after work.
I turned the TV off as soon as I woke up but ended up flicking back on.
My headache is crippling now and the TV took my mind off it for a while.
I called in sick to work on Friday.
I've caught myself on a couple of occasions just staring at my phone.
I have to leave it out of reach at work otherwise I keep finding it in my hand.
It's getting harder and harder not to just jump online and check Facebook.
The weird red dots are on the tips of most of my fingers now.
I started to feel a little better after Friday of last week, maybe the illness has passed?
I'm back on with the meditation but when I'm just sitting with my own thoughts, it just
draws my attention to my headache and turns it from a dull background pain to a sharp,
blinding agony.
My zit is growing, it's going to be a monster.
I tried squeezing it but it's bloody painful.
I think I'll leave it until it forms a proper head before popping it.
As the week has gone on the nausea and cramps have come back.
When I started this process, I called it a detox, but it really is starting to feel like
I'm coming off heroin or something.
I'm sweating then shivering and I have cravings.
I'm desperate to look at my phone and check in on social media.
My dream is really getting to me, it's like my subconscious is talking to me.
Not interacting with people on social media has made me realize how I don't have
any real-world friends.
I woke up on Saturday morning and my bed was covered in blood.
When I tried to get out of bed a burning pain flared up on the soles of my feet.
They're shredded and filled with tiny shards of glass.
I think I've pieced together what must have happened.
I obviously got up in the middle of the night to get myself a glass of water from
the kitchen and dropped the glass, smashing it on the wooden floor and lacerating my feet.
It's odd, though.
There was no spilt water, just broken glass, and looking at the trail of bloody footprints, it almost
looks like I walked repeatedly back and forth through the shards.
I don't think I could have damaged my feet more if I'd deliberately tried to.
That's unfortunately put the walking and running on hold.
One other weird thing.
I keep finding tiny, shriveled black hairs all over the house.
They aren't mine.
It's getting tough NoSleep, please keep sending me your positive thoughts.
The cravings are unbearable.
I haven't been able to go into work all week.
I mostly lie on the sofa shaking.
My every thought is consumed by technology.
My skull is itching on the inside and it feels like my brain is burning.
I so desperately want to go online, I know it would make the pain and the aching, desire go away.
When I read, my eyes stream and the words are blurred.
Meditation is agony, it seems to focus the pain around my eyes, they feel like they are
going to burst.
My zit is the size of a grape,.
In a desperate attempt to relieve the brutal pain in my forehead, I squeeze and squeeze, screaming in pain
until it bursts.
A hard-black ball the size of a pea fires out, bouncing off my bathroom mirror and rolling
down the sink before I can catch it.
The black hairs are all over the house now.
The tiny red sores are all around the edges of my eyes, on my fingertips and even on my tongue now.
They look like infected hair follicles and in my dreams the black hairs sprout from them
like questing antenna while my conscious mind takes refuge from the constant blinding
pain I'm in.
Three nights in a row, I wake up at my kitchen table.
My laptop is on and my phone is in my hand.
I don't remember any of it, but I've made hundreds of posts in the night all on my social
media accounts.
They are bizarre, insane things.
Vile insults to some of my closest online friends and colleagues, and outlandish lies.
As a result, my accounts have gone into meltdown with the amount of furious and worried replies
I receive.
I revel in how good it feels; at least my dreams about being invisible to my friends
aren't likely to come true now.
My headaches lessen a little.
I get a letter from work telling me my contract has been terminated.
It hardly seems to matter.
I've come so far on this detox that I can't stop now, despite everything that is happening to me.
If only I could remember why I started doing this in the first place?
I'm lying curled up in a ball shaking.
I have no idea how long I have been like this.
The universe has contracted to be nothing more than two opposing forces.
My burning, insatiable desire to go online and my resolute will to see this thing through
to the end.
I can no longer trust my body or my senses, so I take matters into my own hands.
I take a hammer to my laptop and phone and smash them to pieces.
It's the only way to guarantee I won't succumb to the cravings.
I'm vomiting now, blood and bile and a cloudy grey fluid filled with tiny black hairs.
I'm so weak I could scarcely move even if my feet weren't covered in agonizing infected cuts.
I think my addiction is going to kill me.
I would welcome death.
The spot over my left eye is swollen and engorged.
It bursts, spilling forth a foul smelling yellow puss and dozens of tiny black balls.
In my fever dream they unfurl, tiny black filament hairs dragging them out of a primordial
soup of my blood and puss.
They skitter away, heading for the nearest darkness.
I spend the rest of the week weeping.
I'm staring in the mirror, scalpel in hand.
The pain behind my left eye so crippling that the cold kiss of the razor sharp steel will
be a welcome relief.
As I raise the blade I see the skin around my forehead, cheek and eyesocket pulse and shift.
My tear duct suddenly sprouts a thousand black filament hairs.
They stretch and probe, reaching out to grip my face, the basin taps anything they can find.
I'm paralyzed with fear as something begins to pull itself through my eyesocket.
A flash of pain then a wet, red explosion as my eyeball pops.
I scream.
Its path suddenly frees as the horror drags itself out of my skull, a ball-like body and
a monstrous tail adorned with a cruel needle with sharp hooks trailing a ruin of gore, and gray
brain matter behind it.
I lose consciousness and perhaps my mind.
My ex-girlfriend comes to see me in the secure psychiatric ward.
Speech is difficult for me and my brain works slower now, making it hard to find the words.
I told her that we can get back together now.
I beat my addiction.
She cries and strokes my hair when I tell her she looks just as pretty through one eye.
I think her tears are of pity, not love.
No one seems to believe me about what happened.
About the creature living in my brain, the real source of my addiction.
How it made me crave the constant stream of data, fed on it.
How it bred in my brain and multiplied sending out its young to enslave more minds.
I shudder when I think about my old commute to work, surrounded by strangers with their
heads down, each a slave to the tiny electrical device in their hand and the monster it is feeding.
I no longer care.
I'm free of my addiction, and my mind is at peace.
Thank you for your help NoSleep, I couldn't have done it without you.
I'm glad you read my diary but please take care.
Stop now If you feel the urge, the craving, the obsessive desire for just
one more story.
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30th January 1933: Adolf Hitler appointed Chancellor of Germany - Duration: 2:51.
Hello, and welcome to HistoryPod.
On 30 January 1933 Adolf Hitler was appointed Chancellor of Germany
by President Paul von Hindenburg.
Hitler's rise to power was neither immediate nor particularly expected, especially as he
had been imprisoned for a treasonous attempt to overthrow the Weimar Government in 1923.
His incarceration in Landsberg Prison gave him the opportunity to redraw his blueprint
for seizing power and, on his release, he set about rebuilding the Nazi Party as a legitimate
political organisation.
It wasn't until the Great Depression that the Nazis truly emerged as a mainstream force.
Germany faced a particularly dire economic situation which the Weimar government, under
Chancellor Brüning, responded to by cutting government spending and benefits.
Rather than solving the problem this actually made the situation worse and seriously damaged
the public's trust in the government.
By 1932 six million Germans were out of work.
This desperate situation saw a dramatic increase in support for the Nazis.
In 1932 Hitler capitalised on this growing national appeal to stand in the Presidential
election against Hindenburg.
Although Hitler lost the election with 13 million votes to Hindenburg's 19 million,
the election campaign had secured the Nazis enormous publicity.
Meanwhile the beleaguered government struggled on.
By the end of 1932, ex-Chancellor Franz von Papen began arguing that Hitler and the 196
Nazis in the Reichstag could form a majority and get government moving again.
Hindenburg reluctantly agreed to make Hitler the Chancellor based on the assumption that,
by ensuring only a few Nazis were in the Cabinet and von Papen himself was Vice Chancellor,
the Nazis could be controlled.
Hitler was formally appointed German Chancellor on 30th January 1933.
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Empire star Jussie Smollett suffers homophobic attack in Chicago - Duration: 14:06.
'Empire' star Jussie Smollett has been violently attacked in an apparent homophobic and racist hate crime that left him hospitalized
The 35-year-old, who came out as gay to Ellen in 2015, was set upon by two men in ski masks at 2am on Tuesday in Chicago, ThatGrapeJuice
Net reports. A photo of Smollett, which showed him still in his hospital bed, reveals the actor's bruised and swollen face
The picture, taken from a FaceTime conversation between Smollett and 'Empire' creator Lee Daniels, also showed a cut under his right eye
Sources familiar with the show's production told TMZ that Smollett and the rest of the cast will have armed security in the duration of their time in Chicago
Police reports state that Smollett was walking from a local Subway sandwich shop when the two men started yelling homophobic and racial slurs, including: 'Aren't you that f***ot 'Empire' n*****?' The two then started beating on the actor while pouring bleach on him
A noose was said to have been tied around his neck during the attack.Sources close to the singer told TMZ that both of the men were white and yelled that 'this is MAGA country
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Roger Stone pleads not guilty to lying to Congress and. Share this article Share Smollett was admitted to the Northwestern Memorial Hospital but has since been released
He suffered a fractured rib, during the attack, and is said to have put up a fight when he was beaten
The attacks are believed to be premeditated as Smollett received a cut out letter, date stamped from January 18, stating that 'You will die black f*g
' . He posted a series of videos to his Insta-Story showing the weather in Chicago and his annoyance with waiting on the flight
Various celebrities and fans took to social media to lend their support for the actor and to call out racism and homophobia
This is heartbreaking and terrifying.please pay attention to what's happening here
Sending all my love to @JussieSmollett Reverend Al Sharpton added: 'The reported hate attack on my friend and brother, actor Jussie Smollett is despicable and outrageous
The guilty must face the maximum.' . Empire follows the Lyon family as they try to maintain their dominance in the music industry
Taraji P Henson and Terrance Howard star as the main powerhouse couple in the series
Smollett has played Jamal Lyon - an openly gay singer - for five seasons on the hit FOX series
'We send our love to Jussie, who is resilient and strong, and we will work with law enforcement to bring these perpetrators to justice,' 20th Century Fox said in a statement
'The entire studio, network and production stands united in the face of any despicable act of violence and hate — and especially against one of our own
' Celebrities including Janet Jackson, John Legend and Lee Daniels have all rushed to offer their support in the wake of the horrifying attack
He is additionally known for playing Terry Hall in 1992's 'The Mighty Ducks'. The singer and actor is also related to actress Jurnee Smollett-Bell
Smollett has used his profile to work heavily with Little Miss Flint and getting clean water to the predominantly black Michigan town
He is also an advocate for LGBTQIA rights and is considered a close friend of the Human Rights Campaign 'This shocking attack on our friend and tremendous advocate Jussie Smollett is, unfortunately, not an isolated incident
There is an alarming epidemic of hate violence in our country that disproportionately targets Black people, LGBTQ people, and religious minorities -- and particularly those living at the intersections of multiple identities,' said HRC President Chad Griffin
'Last year alone, at least 26 transgender people, mostly transgender women of color, were brutally murdered
This is an unacceptable crisis, and HRC continues to press for improved reporting, passage of state laws that protect LGBTQ individuals from hate crimes, and expanded education and training initiatives
' Derrick Johnson, NAACP President and CEO, added: 'The recent racist and homophobic attack on acclaimed actor and activist Jussie Smollett is troubling
'The rise in hate crimes is directly linked to President Donald J. Trump's racist and xenophobic rhetoric
It is dangerous for any society to allow a tone of divisiveness and hatred to dominate the political discourse
'As this rhetoric continues to bleed into our everyday lives, dangerous behavior will continue to place many law-abiding individuals at risk
We pray for a full physical and mental recovery Jussie Smollett and many unnamed victims of this forum of hate based terrorism
'Celebrities rally behind Empire's Jussie Smollett after he is brutally attack in ChicagoCelebrities and fans alike have rallied to lend their support to Jussie Smollett after the 35-year-old actor was attacked in what is being investigated as a hate crime
Janet Jackson took to her Twitter to share a special message for the actor, along with a photo of the two of them together
'Sending so much luv and healing energy your way @jussiesmollett. we know that you'll continue to change the world,' added Fergie
The sentiment was shared by Shonda Rhimes, who said: 'Sending love, healing, and support to @jussiesmollett
We ALL have a responsibility to rise up against the ignorance and hate out there
If you know who did this, REPORT THEM TO THE POLICE.' Naomi Campbell posted a impassioned plea to Chicago Mayor Rahm Emanuel to find the people responsible for the attack
Sending love to Jussie and the Smollett family after this horrific attack. We support you and pray that you find peace and justice,' said John Legend
'This is heartbreaking and terrifying.please pay attention to what's happening here,' said Zendaya
'Sending all my love to @JussieSmollett.' 'No words. Love to you @JussieSmollett,' added Margaret Cho
'This is horrifying,' said Jamilah Lemieux. 'We love you @JussieSmollett. May justice be swift and unflinching
''@JussieSmollett I love you,' said Tika Sumpter '@JussieSmollett praying you have a full and speedy recovery
So sorry this happened to you, added Raegan Gomez. Many condemned the racist and homophobic behavior and demanded justice
Ana Navarro said: 'I saw Jussie Smollett in Miami last week. I can't believe this happened
It is sad and disgusting and and deplorable.'The sentiment was shared by Reverend Al Sharpton, who added: 'The reported hate attack on my friend and brother, actor Jussie Smollett is despicable and outrageous
The guilty must face the maximum.''Sending so much love and prayers to you, @jussiesmollett
I'm in disbelief of what happened to you,' added Eva Longoria. 'It's a senseless act that shall be met with justice! I can't believe this is happening in 2019
This world has no room for hate. #AwaitingJustice' Others took the moment to throw criticism at 'gay jokes' and Kevin Hart's recent appearance on Ellen where he addressed the controversy surrounding his hosting the Oscars
Actor Ryan Jamaal Swain stated: 'This is why holding "a little homophobic joke'"accountable is taken so FREAKING SERIOUSLY
To quote @amandaseales, you have to be overly confident.black gay men have to deal w/ not only racism but homophobia
' It is always abt duality and a form of respect. @JussieSmollett'Given what we've seen so far, I fully expect the men who attacked Jussie Smollett to score a sit-down interview with Ellen at some point in the next few weeks,' said Saeed Jones
'Maybe it will be a roundtable discussion with Kevin Hart.'
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SPEAKING ONLY FRENCH FOR 24 HOURS *he doesn't know french" - Duration: 5:41.
Today we are Monday
And we will begin
To speak
In French
For
24 Hours
you stink?
you stink?
Did you take a shower?
Did you take a shower?
What are the words you already know?
its your choice
its your choice
The bag is open
The bag is open
its your choice
What do they have?
But what do they have?
No, what do they have?
yes
Ella Rose, what are we going to eat?
What did you get as beverage?
It's good?
No, but it's good?
After we eat, what are we doing?
Try, to under stand what I'm saying
AFTER
AFTER
WE EAT
WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO?
WHAT DO YOU THINK I'M SAYING
WHAT DO YOU THINK IM SAYING?
one
two
But after this, what are we going to do?
What are you eating?
EAT
E-A-T-I-N-G
What??
What are you eating?
What?
What
Quack
I want bracelets
No, bracelets
Did you find something?
Did.. You.. Find.. Something?
Shirts
You need shirts
Here
What did you buy?
What did you buy?
We are at home
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You cannot succeed alone - Duration: 1:04.
You cannot succeed in business alone
Business is a team sport. The only way to scale your business is by expanding and
having other people to help you. One of the biggest challenges I see creatives
facing is they think that nobody can do it the way they want it done or they
can't do it the standard they want. And that may be true perhaps you're an
editor who shoots and edits not a particular way. The fact is maybe nobody else can
edit exactly like you want. But that doesn't mean that you can edit very
close to what you're looking for. And what you've got to ask yourself,
what do you want? You want to be a perfectionist editor who controls
everything or do you want to be someone who runs a business where your clients
get great-looking products. Just because someone doesn't do something the way you
do it, doesn't mean it's wrong. And if you want to scale your business, you have to
let go. You have to delegate, you have to put systems and process in place and you
have to trust your team to deliver the outcomes for you. It's the only way to scale
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Anthem VIP Demo Impressions | Previews | Backlog Battle - Duration: 6:17.
What's up everyone?
Alex here!
I had the privilege to be part of last weekend's Anthem VIP Demo, and with the Open Demo coming
this weekend, I thought I'd share some of the things people can expect when trying this
out for free!
And before anyone asks, the release of this video doesn't mean that i'm going to begin
focusing on Western games!
It just so happens that the reason why I like japanese games so much is because of their
strong character driven storytelling and, in my opinion, BioWare happens to blend the
best aspects of said storytelling style with the richness of Western plot-based storytelling.
Sure, they've been a fallible company as of late, making games like Sonic Chronicles:
The Dark Brotherhood, Dragon Age 2, and the much maligned Mass Effect Andromeda, but I
have high hopes for Anthem.
Did the demo prove that my hopes were in the right place?
Stay tuned and find out!
To address the elephant in the room: yes, I was one of the many people who attempted
to log into Anthem multiple times, only to encounter infinite loading screens that stopped
at 95%, forcing me to close the game, restart it, and rejoin my expedition.
As the first day of the demo progressed, the game got noticeably better and I was able
to focus on playing the demo more than dealing with a lot of its issues… though workarounds
were still a very real thing!
For starters, keep in mind that the demo is unoptimized and, most likely, several months
old.
What this means is that the game is at a playable state, though its frame rate and performance
will be unstable.
This is very typical of demos and betas, as I worked on several games whose demos were,
in fact, based on versions that were several months old.
Generally speaking, optimization occurs during the last months of a game's development.
I won't go into the details of why old versions of games tend to be turned into demos, so
let's just say that it's like building another video game on top of the actual game
they're trying to finish!
Fort Tarsis, where you begin the demo, hides very few interactable spots that show off
the game's dialogue system.
Before you embark on your expedition, I highly recommend speaking with a spry sounding bartender,
who seems to be voiced by Jack McBrayer (Fix it Felix in Ralph Breaks the Internet), and
his girl problems.
You're only given two choices to reply to his inquiry, which is a bit disappointing
given how spoiled we've become when it comes to BioWare dialogue systems.
Be sure to come back to him after an expedition, as he's got lots more to say!
The next thing I went and checked out was the Forge, which is located near your javelin.
Javelins are suits that you literally climb into when embarking on expeditions, and the
Forge helps you change your loadout as well as customize your character's appearance.
You're given some currency to spend if you wish to buy more shaders and colors to outfit
your javelin, but I found that most of the colors provided sufficed.
It was actually nice to be able to change my appearance from the default colors to something
more space-y, as I easily stood out during expeditions!
By now, you've probably heard me talk about expeditions a ton and wonder what they are.
Simply put, expedition is the collective term that describes gameplay sessions in Anthem.
You can set your expedition to public or private, if you wish, which would enable and disable
matchmaking respectively.
Expeditions can be one of three mission types in the demo: Free play, which allows free
exploration of the world, Strongholds, the dungeon/raid type content in the game, and
Story Missions, which progresses the main story.
Each mission type's difficulty can be altered.
The biggest curiosity for me coming into the demo was how the game handles flight and hovering,
so the first thing I did when my expedition finally loaded was to try this out!
On the PS4, you can either engage flight by pressing the L3 button or hover by pressing
R3 after jumping.
This feature takes a little bit of explanation - if you're already flying, pressing L3
will disengage flight and you'll drop down to the ground.
However, if you're already flying, pressing R3 will make you hover.
In other words, you can go from flight to hover just by clicking L3 and R3 respectively,
and clicking the button you just pressed again will turn off either.
This took a fair bit of getting used to, but it becomes intuitive the more you play.
The flying part is a bit tricky as well.
The Left Analog stick is used to just slightly move your javelin onscreen in different directions,
but forward movement is automatic.
You use the Right Analog stick to move a large reticle onscreen, which actually controls
where your javelin will fly towards.
While flying or hovering, you can press the Circle button to dodge in different directions,
and whenever you aim your gun or start shooting from the hip, your javelin will automatically
go into hover mode.
Given that most players checking out Anthem will be used to Destiny, try to approach encounters
from the sky and practice going in and out of flight and hover.
A lot of encounters will punish you if you don't utilize flight and hover well, and
always look for water to cool off your jets from time to time!
Lastly, the combat in Anthem feels very intuitive!
Along with your requisite aim and shoot buttons are abilities that you can activate by pressing
L1, R1, or both buttons together.
You get an ultimate that you can trigger using the Triangle button and, as far as the default
javelin goes, seeing this ultimate in action was quite satisfying!
You have the option to select a new javelin upon reaching level 12, after which that selection
is locked for the rest of the demo.
I selected the Storm javelin, which is reminiscent of mages in online RPGs, who have the ability
to freeze enemies and even use lightning to damage incoming enemies.
Overall, I think there are a lot of fun things you can do in Anthem that makes it worth checking
out during this Open Demo weekend, and I urge anyone who even has a passing interest in
the game to give it a go.
I actually enjoyed what I played of the demo, though I'm still very iffy about the story.
We'll see if the full game eases my worries!
For the rest of you who still have questions about the demo and my experiences, or if you've
played the demo, post your questions and thoughts on the comments below!
If you liked this video, please consider Liking, Sharing, or Subscribing to the channel - and
hit that Bell icon to be notified of my latest videos!
Lastly, follow me on Twitter @mybacklogbattle for the latest updates on upcoming videos
or to just chat about video games!
Thanks for watching and let's have fun playing video games!
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How do you deal with pending doom? - Duration: 1:54.
So.. it is January 29th and today the weather man here in Atlanta predicted that we were going to have a blizzard...
it's going to be a catastrophe and everything is going to be shut down... So I wanted to show you guys this....
It is so bright you cant even see out my window.. NO snow what so ever! And yes.. I have palm trees outside my window.
But it got me thinking
How many times have you guys...
been told about bad news or you have tried to predict that bad things were going to happen to you in the future
and all this other stuff and it never happens?
And what I wanted to leave you guys with is...
Don't always listen to the worst things that are going to happen if they have not happened yet...
There are a lot of people out there predicting things out there about the stock market and the economy and all this other stuff....
If you are fearful of the future... ultimately you are going to hold yourself back in the present.
My father used to talk about... don't look back in regret don't look forward in fear but look around in awareness.
And I think the most important thing for you guys in getting bad predictions is...
Don't focus so heavily on the negative future.. you can only do what you can do and sometimes.....
Like outside... sometimes those bad things never happen. So stay positive and do great. God bless!
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