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Hello, so I had this really cool idea for a video
as my boyfriend and I were driving around,
and I was talking to him.
For the record, our communication is a bit of
a mixture of English and ASL,
just in case you're wondering,
but I was thinking about what I sound like to myself
when I speak out loud, like right now,
and when I listen back to myself when I'm editing a video.
In case you missed it, I'll have the video
posted up here in the "I".
I can hear myself.
I have enough residual hearing to hear myself,
and I am the easiest person to hear and understand
because it's coming out of my own body, right,
but everybody else is more difficult,
but I can understand myself.
Except for in video all of the time,
which is why I don't caption my videos anymore
because my hearing went (blowing),
just (high pitched blowing).
So I don't...
Most of the time, I don't caption my own videos
unless it's a very short video
or if it's already scripted,
or if it's in ASL because I have eyeballs that work, right?
So anyway, I was thinking about this today,
and I was thinking back to the video
that I actually did with Nicola
two years ago, put in the "I",
and to me, in person, when I hear myself as a deaf person,
I hear a much more high-pitched voice.
It sounds more southern because I grew up in the south,
and with the occasion of a little bit of a German accent
because I grew up with hearing the German accent
all the time and the German language, right?
So there is that, and everything obviously sounds
a little more clear most of the time, most words.
There are some, not so much.
However, when I film a video, put it into the computer,
play it back with earphones,
because I definitely can't hear myself
or anything without them,
and even then, I can't hear everything, just so you know.
My voice sounds very deep.
It sounds
more of a "deaf" accent
and possibly even more of a German-y accent.
German hyphen -y, not the country,
when I play it back.
When I was talking with Nicola about it
because it came up in our video,
in person, he hears the more southern accent, right?
And so do I in person, but in video, I don't hear that.
I hear the exact opposite.
My friend, Matt Watts, told me,
"You know how I know when you have just come back here
"from North Carolina or even when you've
"gone back to see your family members for one week
"and then you come back here, you know how I know that?
"Because your voice starts sounding less Canadian
"all of a sudden and starts sounding
"a hell of a lot more country all over again."
So apparently, the more I stay in Toronto,
the more "Canadian", sort of, my voice sounds.
Not like a true Canadian or anything,
but some of my words end up sounding different,
like 'bag' ends up sounding different and 'about' sometimes.
Probably not now, but,
but when I'm not thinking about it,
if I think about it, then I kind of just end up
going back to the way that I've said it all these years,
but when I'm not thinking about it and I'm here long enough,
it just sounds more "Canadian" or whatever.
So yeah, right now, I sound like a high-pitched whatever
in person, it sounds a hell of a lot deeper,
and you know, that's when the comments,
"Why does she sound like a man?" come through.
That sounded southern to me.
In case you wanted to know why I sound like this,
video in the "I" of my demon Bob, you know.
He's a part of it, you know,
possessing me and all.
Okay, no, but in all seriousness, it's interesting how
that works out, but I think this is something
that apparently all people go through.
I think that's probably what all people go through, I think.
Some people have told me that, even just hearing people,
they sound different to themselves
when they listen to a recording of themselves.
I'm not really sure why that is.
I don't know the science behind that,
but I do think it's really, really interesting.
But I guess I kinda get it because when I listen to my,
when I listen to my boyfriend, right,
and we talk online, his voice sounds
deeper in earphones.
That may just be my hearing and lack thereof
and the way that I hear things now.
And he sounds higher-pitched in person.
I don't know, it's so weird,
and I think the same goes for a few other people.
They just sound different, it's weird.
Some people sound the same to me.
Some of them, I can't hear them at all in person,
but I can hear them when I watch their videos
because earphones, you know, it's not like I can take them,
take their body and like,
that would be effing weird, right?
And like, put them like right here
and have them talk to me.
Although sometimes, they shout in my ears,
but that's like at parties, you know.
It's interesting, and if anybody knows the science behind
that because I'm too lazy to Google it myself right now.
I'm filming, I can't look it up myself right now.
Maybe after I'm done, but not right now.
So if you know the science, just
the comments section.
That's what the comments section is made for, right?
Let me know, do you, do you sound different
when you talk out loud even to yourself to other people?
And if you are like a YouTuber, if you sound different
on video when you play back the audio or you know, whatever.
So now you know what I sound like to myself
as a deaf lady, yeah.
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