Welcome to Everydayidraw. And this is
really scary video, where I will show you
my First sketch book Ever. And inside I'm
cringing and dying. So let's roll
backwards in time to year 2002. And as for
my paper choice, I decided to use this
amazing squared textbook, which I believe,
a lot of you guys did. So don't feel bad
about that. I feel like, this is a certain
level of drawing, that you have to
accomplish at some point in your life.
So better sooner than later. As you can
clearly tell from my pictures, I was a
very sad, saaad teenager, with a very strong
feeling towards Harry Potter. Because
this is apparently a Draco Malfoy, or so
I thought..
Also angels, because when you are 12, you
are supposed to love angels. Also another
side note. Remember, how I was mocking
squared text books couple of minutes ago?
Well here I have a ruled one,
glued to the squared textbook, because.. of..
reasons.. obviously. Another side note, that
I want to share, apart from that, that I would
give a very weird names to my pictures.
I was making them in gel pens, because only
suckers do the sketches by pencil. I mean
hello! You are supposed to do a perfect
drawing the first time you try to
accomplish that. So, I mean, you probably
know that already. A very important side
note, is that every picture with face,
that you see here, is something, that I've
copied of Deviantart. Faces were and
still are a huge mystery to me.
I would copy full pictures of other
artists and make them look really bad, give
them non-existent name, I guess. And that
would be my art. It was pretty popular
among my friends. And this is why those
sketches carry names of my
friends around that, because they would
get pretty excited, that I would drew
them in the form of some kind of
character. Even though, deep in my heart,
I still know, that being such a copycat is
no good. Again this is just a stage, that
we all have to accomplish, as well as the
stage, where your composition inside of
your format is completely freaking off.
You can see here, that I was just.. I was
not sure about my life decisions, and my
drawing decisions. And here we have a
drawing without a face, which means it's
mine. Oh that's sad. So let's let's not
stop on that. I was pretty much into goth
things, and into vampires. And I've shared
that on Instagram the other day. I would
contour my eyes with my mom's red
lipstick, to make it look more vampirish,
I guess. It definitely made me
look like drug addict. But at that time
I thought, it was cool. So I guess, life
decisions are still hard. Also in 2002 we
did not have Twilight yet, thanks God,
because I feel like I was that kind of a
teenager, that would definitely fell into
the trap of Twilight and enjoy it so
freakin much. Internet did save me,
because Facebook was not around, and
Instagram was not around. It was pretty
solid ten years, before it would appear.
So I was safe. And that makeup look with
the lipstick on my eyes, that I was
wearing at that time,.. you will never
see it. You can clearly see in this
sketchbook, that everything, that I would
copy, would look significantly better,
than something, I would draw myself.
Because by that time anatomy was not my
cup of tea. Why would anyone want to
learn anatomy? So I would try to draw
everything from imagination, except for
those pictures, that I've copied. Since
I had zero knowledge in my head about the
way human bodies work. It was just bad.
Why I would glue pages from other text
books and notebooks - that's still a
mystery to me. And as you can see, I would
mix them with
not glued one. But I guess, this was my
idea of what an artsy sketchbook should
look like. Oh well.. But I'm actually glad,
that I did found that, because I wanted
to show you, that everybody.. We all start
at the same position. I bet everybody
have this kind of square textbook with
lousy sketches hidden somewhere. And I'm
just glad, that my mom never did threw
mine away. Ooh... well this is an interesting
one. I assume, this is one of my first fan arts
ever. Do you remember the McGee's Alice or
something? I drew this picture, because
i've played the game. it's about an Alice
in Wonderland, but on crack and lots of
blood and gore. My teacher saw it during the
break, because my sketchbook would go
around the class, my friends would take a
look at it. So my teacher was really
interested and he asked me: "did you
draw this?" And by that time I was really
proud. I thought like: "Woow! Even the
teacher now know, that I'm so skilled!
Hello, success!". But now I think, he was
asking, because this picture is kind of
weird to be produced by 12 years old
girl, who is supposed to be happy, but
draws this amount of blood. So maybe he
was thinking about putting me into a school
council or school psychologist. Here you
can see, that I've started to make
sketches. But it didn't really help me.
Also this picture is so sexy. Like what
was I thinking?
Again, you can clearly see, how sad I was
And remembering those days, I feel like,
when you go through puberty, it's just
this hormonal kick and the change in
your brain, and everything, and you are so
confused. And I remember, I was so sad,
because almost all of the girls in my
class would have boobs. But mine were
like: "No, girl, sorry, but we are not waking
up until your late twenties". And I was so,
so uncomfortable about my body, about my
appearance, about everything. And now, when
I look back at the school pictures, I was
kind of okay. I mean, I had friends, I was
doing okay in my classes. So there were
no visible reason to be so sad.
But I remember thinking, even thinking
about suicide at some point. Gladly, that
thought never really came through. So..
Oh,.. the anime. Yeah it started pretty late
with me. But it really changed my life.
Because before that, I would be sad,
because nobody really shared the same
interest, that I had. But once I've
discovered anime, and I've discovered
forums online, I finally got to talk to
people, who were interested in the same
stuff. And this was amazing, because I was
probably like one of the two people at
school, who knew, what anime was. What even
worse for me, I've started to be
interested in yaoi and this kind of
stuff pretty early, so yeah.. Nobody
really shared this passion of mine. And
now, for the fun part. I chose 3
pictures for you. And I will redraw one
of them as a tribute to my old
sketchbook. So please choose which one
you like. And let me know in the comments
below or in social media anywhere, where
you can leave a comment. In one of my
next videos I will do a speedpaint. And
I will redraw this picture. Oh I also had
this small pocket in the back side of my
sketchbook, where I would carry, you know,
this lousy sketches, that I did. And
as you can see, I did do some hand
practice. And again,.. copied picture with
no face. Oh, well, that's a gun. I mean, why
wouldn't I be interested in guns?.. Oooh! Limp bizkit.
Well that just brings back all
the old memories. If you guys have filmed
your sketch book tours, your first sketch
book tours, please leave a link down in
the comments below.
I would be really excited to take a look
at your early years of fame. Like this
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today. I'll see you next time.
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