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Bicycle Accident, drunk Colombian in Brazil. Idiot to the steering wheel. - Duration: 2:23.
I'm very drunk
and I'm going
I left Kennedy at his home
and I'm going home now
a little bit drunk.
Let's go
Good morning.
"Good morning"
I'm a little bit drunk and
Greetings for Mariana
Kennedy is know looking for
the bed to sleep
I'm...
travelling...
a little bit drunk
to my home.
A little bit drunk, isn't it?
A little bit. Not too much.
Very good.
It's coming a car!
It's coming a car!!
It passed.
I'm very drunk
and I don't know certainly what I'm doing
I don't... I don't know what I'm doing
But, I'm going to stop now because
I can
I'm so fast
and...
Oh fuck!
Oh fuck!
Oh my God
It couldn't happen what happened
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MALAYSIA: CHILLING OUT IN THE JUNGLE IN MERAPOH! - Duration: 3:57.
Hi sweeties!
Malaysia: Chilling out in the jungle in Merapoh!
We arrived in Merapoh 2 days ago
It's a village in the west of Taman Negara
Taman Negara is one of the biggest national parks of Malaysia
It hosts one of the oldest rainforests of the world
We are currently right in this forest
We had two lovely days so far
It started well yesterday We were invited by our neighbors for dinner
They cooked for us We could also help them to prepare the dinner
It was a great experience! We played with the kids too... It was really funny!
After what they invited us to join the village party this morning
They celebrated the end of Ramadan
So we were lucky to be here at the right time and to be invited for lunch!
It think that it's the first time ever that we're invited as VIPs to some event!
And we came here in the jungle to rest for the afternoon
We were looking for a place with water where we could bathe and chill out together
Let me introduce you the team!
Solenne is of course behind the camera! You cannot see her but you know her well!
We are with Ain and Odile
Odile is French and Ain is Malaysian Both of them work for Fuze Ecoteer
It is an ecotourism and volunteering company
We'll spend a few days with them So we'll tell you more about it later
They mainly care about wildlife conservation
Animals geolocation and footprints measurements, snares removal...
But they also defend and protect the Batek
They are aboriginal people living in this forest
And here is Gilb But you can call him Gili-Gili
He is from England and Helen's boyfriend
She also works for Fuze Ecoteer She's a bit sick today
He says that because he won at the "President" card game before!
But he is like us... He's not the boss ;-)
So we have been walking in the jungle and decided to stay here
We'll play cards or solve some crosswords or sudoku a bit longer...
I'm not sure of what we'll do But it seems like we will have some more fun!
It looks solid... We've already tested it before!
Bye bye!
Your grandmother follows us on evasy.fr !
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Baby I Love You - Tiffany Alvord - Duration: 4:00.
There are three words, that I've been dying to say to you
Burns in my heart, like a fire that ain't goin' out
There are three words, & I want you to know they are true...
I need to let you know
I wanna say I love you, I wanna hold you tight
I want your arms around me & I, want your lips on mine
I wanna say I love you, but, babe I'm terrified
My hands are shaking, my heart is racing
Cause it's something I can't hide, it's something I can't deny
So here I go...
Baby I lo-o-o-ve you
I've never said, these words to anyone, anyone at all
Never got this close, cause I was always afraid I would falll
But now i know, that I'll fall right in-to your arms...
Don't ever let me go
I wanna say I love you, I wanna hold you tight
I want your arms around me & I, want your lips on mine
I wanna say I love you, but, babe I'm terrified
My hands are shaking, my heart is racing
Cause it's something I can't hide, it's something I can't deny
So here I go...
Baby I lo-o-o-ve you
Take it in, breathe the air
What is there to really fear
I can't contain, what my heart's sayin'
I gotta say it out loud...
I wanna say I love you, I wanna hold you tight
I want your arms around me & I, want your lips on mine
I wanna say I love you, but, babe I'm terrified
My hands are shaking, my heart is racing
Cause it's something I can't hide, it's something I can't deny
So here I go...
Baby I lo-o-o-o-ve you
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QUEEN I PRIMI ANNI - EARLY YEARS BOOK REVIEW (ENG.SUBS) - Duration: 3:15.
Welcome back to QUEEN RECENSIONI FAN
Today I would like to review a book written in 1995 by Mark Hodkinson (a British journalist) and translated by queenitalia in 2013 I'm talking about QUEEN EARLY YEARS.
This book as the title speaks of the first queen of the early training, their first band the way they approach to the music.
We are in the 60's where you have seen the birth and melt many bands of the era. It presented the priorities of the individual components of the band at the beginning as far as deacon john and brian may have believed this training slightly later than the other, with special emphasis on their academic life.
The book is divided into 12 chapters, of which the first seven chapters the debuts with various bands until the smile band and expulsion of tim staffel.
the first 4 chapters are dedicated to each individual component of the queen and then from eighth Chapter twelfth addressing the formation of Queen, the statement period in the music world, the first difficulty, their musical growth, problems with brothers Sheffield trident studios in the book is defined
as a period of maturation for the band were even help from the queen to succeed, catches the eye an anecdote, that the brothers sheffield to further affirm the queen in the world of paid music a substantial figure for that time to be sent out on tour as the opening act of mott the Hoople.
in the book are shown All knowledge to Which the Queen turned to be able to establish itself in the book IS Also said That for Having a record contract at the time it was necessary To Have Shoulder A Person Possesse rates from business card. Up to the publication of Bohemian Rhapsody and the album a night at the opera.
My personal considerations
a book that I recommend to learn more about the queen, useful to those who want to understand how they entered the world of music. They are well described the various periods of training with a few grains of each component inherent to childhood. what about a book to read, this was my review with regard to the book Queen of the early years.
let me know below in the comments your considerations about this book.
See you in the next video you soon BYEEEEEE
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We are spiritual beings I Gunagriha - Duration: 1:58:42.
Remotex presents
a film by Parimal P. Repka
GUNAGRIHA
We are Spiritual Beings
Teilhard de Chardin, French Jesuit priest said
that we are not human beings having spiritual experiences,
but spiritual beings experiencing human life.
Yet, to realise this,
spiritual experiences are of paramount importance.
I was lucky enough to have had dozens of this kind of experiences,
and after on 27 December of 1987
when I had the experience of the unbelievable state
where I was one with the cosmos,
so after that I reached a state, where in my meditations,
I always expanded.
I sat down to meditate and
as I started to meditate, my whole body expanded.
I was not actually beyond my body
but my body itself grew bigger.
This growing always started with my hands.
In my hands or in my fingers I felt
that they were swelling, growing
they were literally swelling to three,
five, ten times their size
and my body followed through.
And in this state I had many interesting spiritual experiences,
even adventures I would say,
that has changed my entire consciousness,
and my conception of the world as I had imagined it before.
Once as I was sitting meditating like that,
and this expansion, this swelling came, and my hands grew,
my whole body, my head and everything grew,
and while I was sitting there in this state
there came a pressure.
Something began to press me.
And this pressure became harder and harder and harder.
I should repeat this word a thousand times
or a hundred thousand or a million times, to express in human words
the feeling of pressure that inundated me.
It turned out, that when I could still move my fingers
I had the feeling that entire mountain ranges moved
in one single finger of mine.
There was such pressure on my eyelashes
that I could not even open or move them,
as if there was a whole Everest on them.
And this pressure was awfully uncomfortable.
I was trapped, locked up in something,
and it was a horrible state.
At that point I knew it very well,
that I was actually in the consciousness of a planet,
a stone, and I wished to get out.
It was early morning, and I heard my wife getting up
moving around in the kitchen, preparing things
for breakfast for the kids and so on,
and I prayed and prayed that she would come into the room,
maybe she could get me out of this state,
as it had already lasted so long and was so horrible
that I wished to break free of it by all means.
But she never disturbed me when I was meditating,
nor did she now.
Then, after all,
this pressure slowly started to ease,
but the whole state lasted for at least half an hour if not more.
And than I realised, that once I was even in the stone.
My Lord! I am so grateful that I do not have to be a rock,
How is this whole thing?
And then I realised that the consciousness of a human being
and the consciousness of a stone in fact convene,
they are somehow one.
If we think of it, once there were just rocks on this planet,
without any living creatures,
but then we had to potentially be in that rock,
however huge mental beings we consider ourselves.
And this was such a high realisation for me that,
that it was astounding.
But the liberation, the relief
when this thing ceased and I could move again
and I had to deal with my own body only,
instead of billions of tons,
was an inexpressibly huge freedom and feeling of liberty.
I recall an other occasion,
I was meditating again,
and while expanding again, my body had swollen
so to say my hands were overflowing,
my whole body just swell,
and I could feel something on my back
hardening and rounding, as if I was developing a hump
and I curved as I was sitting in the armchair,
and my head grew together with my back,
the two united and encrusted and thickened.
As I was curving I felt my hands transforming too,
into something thin, and my entire body became the body of a beetle.
And it was so huge as to fill a physical human body.
And I was a beetle.
And being a beetle you cannot think a lot,
so I endured this state, and actually these were all wonderful
and interesting experiences.
Except of course the stone state,
which was a torture. That pressure,
that unspeakable pressure.
But the beetle state was not so bad, on the other hand,
I was a beetle.
And when it ceased, I returned to my normal state,
again I realised,
that once, I lived as a beetle, or was beetle.
And it is fine and well
that this human existence is now here in the body,
and the being who I am
is now inside this physical body,
but it also used to be in an animal body,
and that the creatures are actually joined together
by the thing carrying life in them, abiding once here then there.
These realisations were very important and interesting for me,
as I discovered that there was a kind of opening in me.
My conception of me as being this body,
that I am Alexander Fulop and
that's where my existence ends, just ceased.
This pretty glaze crackled and peeled.
And then came a new conception of the world, of everything.
Everything I looked at was completely different.
And in the creatures, and most of all, in people I started to feel,
although it was not a perfect feeling yet,
but I started to feel that after all: all this is really me.
I was born in Transylvania in 1949,
when communism was already widespread.
And there all things happened,
the agriculture was collectivized.
I experienced all this as a child.
People were beaten up,
thrown out on the banks in the morning all bloody,
the family carried them home in the morning
and all the while nice things were just preached about.
And right from my early childhood
I used to have a stomach ache whenever I heard a lie,
so I had a stomach ache all the time.
Then I was taught to lie - by my mother
to say that I did not go to Sunday school,
at school that I should not go to Sunday school
but should lie at home that I had been there.
And it went on like a ping-pong match.
And I suffered from telling lies.
But just as with eating meat,
which in my childhood I could not bear either,
but later I learned and did not eat anything else,
I also learned telling lies, so I was lying all the time.
So as a teenager I was continuously telling lies.
And my mum knew I was lying, as it was clear for her,
but I adhered to my lie.
I was smart and I memorized to whom, what and how much I lied.
And I lived by these lies and never got mixed up.
My mother was desperate to know how I became such a liar,
and God be gracious, not even on her deathbed did she figure it out,
that it was her, who taught me how to lie, she and others.
All and all, I despised the world I was living in,
and at the age of about 15 I took a blood oath with a friend of mine
that I would not die in this country.
That I would leave it behind. And I would go to the West.
Of course the West was Heaven, and Hell was where we lived.
So from then on I arranged everything to the effect,
that I would be able to leave for the West.
And before I was 30,
a week before my 30th birthday
I managed to come to Heaven
where I've been living ever since,
so I am in this heavenly life.
And I thought that now the lies would end,
no-one ever would lie again,
and we have reached the world of truth,
and here in the West everything is perfect,
and even the fences are made of sausage.
And so I believed everyone and everything,
and I also signed everything.
And then I was cheated once,
and then I was cheated twice.
And it went on until I found that I had a debt of a few million schillings.
Oy, it wont work out like this, and it was not about this,
and I thought that I must change
and have to become like the other people.
Communism could not force me to give up my principles,
I rather left communism behind,
but now capitalism was convincing me to give up my principles
as there was nowhere to escape.
So I said, that since the world was like this,
I also have to live by this way,
and so I adopted the tactic that no-one can cheat me any more.
And how was that?
It went like this:
before anyone ever thought of cheating Alex Fulop,
I had long before cheated them.
Or made out the most I could of my relation with them.
So I augmented the group of people I did not like,
and I reacted to the world the way the world is.
And it is a great mistake in our life, as everybody does what others do,
and as the others are bad, we respond badly.
After all we should not be more stupid than they are, we say,
and slowly our whole culture is made up of people
who grab what they can, just careful not to be noticed.
So I also scraped along like this, but only scraped along.
Because there is a part in me called: the conscience,
and ever since my birth it has been excessively well developed.
And so it did not let me live happily this way.
So I had to realize that I was not meant for this world.
Cause if I am what I am, then I am being taken advantage of,
and if I am like the others, I am not happy.
So anyway: I am a monster.
This is not the right way, or rather this is not the right kind of person,
the one I am, for this world.
And wallowing in this sadness I was going dawn deeper and deeper in depression,
and then at one point I came across the book of my Master.
Sri Chinmoy's book: "Meditation" came to me,
or rather I went to the book,
and then I started to read it.
The message of this book was:
Just be what you are and be true to yourself,
and no matter what the world does to you,
whether it squelches you or not,
just be consistently yourself.
This is what I felt from this book,
from the whole of it.
Therefore it was a godsend for me, as somehow it fitted me well,
since I wished to become a child again.
I was such a happy child, before I discovered that I was living in falsehood.
I loved everybody and everybody loved me,
and it was incredibly superb to be a child,
carefree, not thinking, when it does not matter
what to pay for electricity and all the rest,
when you just "live".
And as a child, you make your decisions according to what makes you happy.
Then one becomes a grown-up, and the grown-up begins to calculate.
And the grown-up says: it does not matter that this would give me more happiness,
as the other will earn me more.
So one leaves the world which is the basis of happiness for the child.
But I wanted to be a child again.
I started to meditate.
And then I got to my Master
and learned to shut off my thoughts,
to challenge my rational mind,
to deny my thoughts but not myself.
And I started to live in my heart.
As you can be a spiritual being only,
if you live here, not here.
And I follow this path, as I have been following it ever since
and will follow as long as I live.
And it is a wonderful state that once again you dare
and can decide according to what your heart says.
And your heart tells you, that he is foul, he is hideous,
he is hostile and everything toward you,
but the heart in him is just like me,
and there is no difference between us,
and you should not love the hideousness,
the hostility in him, but you should love his heart.
And there is not a single human being without a heart.
Not even one.
And everyone's heart is accessible.
Because human nature,
even wild human nature, has a tender spot: its heart.
And when you get there, you won.
The problem actually is
that in our everyday life
we do not respond to the negative things consciously.
Certainly we do not respond to the positive either,
but because to the negative we do not respond consciously,
we make many mistakes,
or rather just do the same as the negative does to us.
What is it I want to say?
Let me tell you a story.
I went into an office to get my driving license back.
It was taken from me, because my car is very fast.
So I went in.
The office building was empty, there were that many people in it.
I went to the room where I was supposed to get back my licence.
I knocked at the door and there was a lady inside.
She said: what do you want?
I told her: Good afternoon!
I came so that I can get my licence back.
Oh, that's not possible right now,
since I do not have time
and I am not in the mood of dealing with you,
also my computer is not working the way it should,
so when it comes to that, I will call you.
Now go out and sit down.
Well, if she is not in the mood, what could I do?
You can decide, if you have the time,
but in cases like this, if you think too fast,
you respond, and it will not bring about a positive result.
So I obeyed and withdraw from the office,
from the presence of the least kind lady.
I sat down in the lobby on a chair,
where I was entirely on my own,
and I started to meditate peacefully.
I closed my eyes concentrated and went in here.
And when my feeling is in here,
then in my head everything calms down.
Here in my heart I imagined the face of the lady.
I recalled it, kind of saw it in me,
as she was telling me she is not in the mood to deal with me,
and I should go out.
And there was her face.
And thus letting her in my heart I started to love her.
And not just to love her,
but imagined that the woman's face grew larger.
It filled my entire chest.
And I imagined that the lady is smiling and kind.
And then I felt how many problems she has,
how she grumbles with everyone,
family troubles, and all kind of problems.
I started to say: my dear God,
give her a bit of peace, love,
let her have some rest and be happy.
And thus I was affectionate with her,
cherished her in my bosom,
and expanded her even more.
At the end it was me sitting in her image,
in her face, and there the two of us sat in great love and amicability.
Suddenly the door opens and the lady calls out:
Would you please come in.
Oy, I go in, she takes my name and says:
look here, when you are done with your business, upstairs at the cash desk,
you know, paying the fine,
than come back, and you don't have to stand in line,
even if there is someone here, please come in right away,
no problem, and this and this and that and that...
So I paid, went back, went in,
she was very kind, handed back my driving licence,
stood up, showed me to the entrance,
smiled, wished me a nice day,
I also wished her a nice day, and we parted in peace.
Now, the question is what does this cost us,
and what does it cost us if we respond differently:
stand up for our own truth and all, and start arguing.
We can actually always choose the way we want to live,
as this choice is given to everyone of us.
I have some stories about when I always felt my Guru saving me,
like when I fell asleep in the car,
I was passing through a tunnel, and fell asleep.
I was heading towards the wall
when I received an enormous slap.
I was alone in the car
but I received a slap that really snapped,
my head wobbled and I awoke,
snatched at the wheel so that I will not collide.
And with the slap there appeared my Guru's face.
So he woke me up so that I won't injure myself.
And I had some cases like this, when he always saved me from killing myself.
But I was not especially concerned or worried about death as
...I have lost my fear of death.
And that was a very interesting situation,
as it all happened in the twinkling of an eye.
It was sometime in the late 90's,
as I was driving to work
and had a horrible accident.
That time I used to drive a Volkswagen Golf,
and a Mercedes just jumped against me
and we collided head on, full force.
I was caught by the safety belt,
my sternum broke, it fissured,
and I also felt my eyeballs bulging out of my skull.
And then I was inundated by tranquillity,
a quiet, peaceful meditation.
As I was sitting in the smoking junk,
I just started to meditate.
And it was so wonderful,
and at that moment I felt that in me there is no more
the feeling: 'my God what will happen if I die'.
Of course as I was meditating, people were running to me, screaming:
He is unconscious!
Must get him out!
Then, so that they would not take me out
I got out of the car.
I was all right.
But now an interesting thing happened on 8 June 2012.
I was driving to Szolnok,
well I was actually going to Transylvania,
but I was driving towards Szolnok on road no.4
and it was getting late
and I just thought I was not going much longer
but sleep somewhere in Szolnok or its vicinity.
Road no.4 toward Szolnok is constructed in a way
that sometimes there are two lanes and sometimes four.
Unfortunately I do not think even when driving,
and it seems I should change that,
as a horrible thing happened.
I was driving on the two lane road,
on the inner lane, the fast lane, that is the opposite lane.
It was a dark night, no cars coming,
and I was not paying attention,
but switching something on the radio or the navigation system
when my wife cried out:
You! Car coming!
I raised my eyes glimpsing there,
and the car was pretty close.
Well, I was not driving slowly,
unfortunately, the car was doing some 140-150 Km/hour
but in my case it is quite slow,
so what could I do.
I did not have time to think
so I just jerked the wheel to the side and back.
The car swerved nicely and I drove on.
Marami was still crying: 'oh, not so abruptly!'
as I was jerking the car,
but by the time she finished: 'abruptly'
the other car had already passed us,
with two more cars following right behind.
So there were three cars that would have run me over,
or rather that I would have run over the unfortunate ones.
Then came the feeling,
that I should be scared thoroughly with my heart throbbing.
So I listened: no throbbing,
any other problem? No.
I started to tell my wife, Marami:
You know, I feel so calm,
and everything is all right with me,
but I feel so sorry for that man I was driving against,
as probably he is not in this state of consciousness
that he could take it so lightly.
And I just went on telling how sorry I was.
In life, I don't think that challenging attitude towards things is the best,
not even towards those that are negative for us.
Something happened to me recently,
in the early months of 2012,
in February or March maybe,
oh no, it was still in autumn,
in the cold autumn, so probably November.
For some reason I started to shiver with cold.
I thought I had caught a cold,
and that's the reason for my trouble,
but when I got home I had to go to pee urgently,
and I urinated pure blood.
And the shivers got worse and I urinated clots of blood
and had all kinds of troubles.
And it all led to a frightening situation
as it was a kind of prostate problem.
Then I called a doctor friend, since it was a weekend, as usual in these cases,
and discussed with him what medicines I should take, and so on,
and that I should see a doctor on Monday.
It was a Friday afternoon,
and I got very angry.
I have no need at all for this part of my body,
this is a wicked, foul thing,
and I must have it cut out of me,
and I do not deal with such things,
and so and so, and if I have some malady,
I am sure I do not want to put up with it,
and a huge fight sprang up within me.
And that is how Friday passed,
and the whole of Saturday.
And then, by Saturday evening I felt rather down,
but I felt down inwardly,
because I can accept everything in the world,
people, problems, every kind of thing,
and I do not fight against people,
and since I do not fight them,
I live such a nice peaceful life.
And now I just started to fight with myself.
My problem, as I realised, was actually not my prostate,
but that I was fighting against it, against the thing in me that was amiss.
So Saturday evening, when I realised this,
around eight, eight or nine,
I sat down and began to meditate.
But at that time I was still urinating blood.
I started to meditate powerfully, and began to accept my prostrate
and accept my illness.
And I said:
OK, I will not cut you out,
you are part of my body,
you are mine, and thus we shall live or die together,
but I will not fight against you.
I said everything is all right,
and there is the greatest peace within me,
and I am very grateful simply to exist,
and it is well as it is.
So I began to meditate on this part of my body.
And I began to love and accept it,
and just the way it was, ill, and together with this illness I loved it.
The interesting thing was,
well I was meditating on this for two hours, two and a half hours,
and by then my pain has ceased completely.
And by next morning I had no problem whatsoever with urination,
while before you know, I could hardly do it, to pee the blood.
Bleeding ceased, and every other thing ceased as well.
So by Sunday evening I felt perfectly well,
and on Monday I went to a famous professor,
who is a urologist, and reported to him,
and he examined me and said, well,
there is no problem whatsoever here.
Than I told him, what had happened and how it happened,
and he confirmed, yes, it was the malady, a tumor of the prostrate,
this and that, and there is nothing now.
And I say, how is that?
He says it is, that you were lucky.
Well then, I say, thank you, it is great.
Then he told me not to take the medicines any longer,
but have myself examined after three month again
and then after seven month or something like that.
Than I had myself examined once again and checked the results,
and everything was fine.
And now me and my prostate care not a pin about the world for the time being.
So this was the story,
and what is interesting about it,
is that, it made me realize: that negativity and rejection towards a thing,
that is bad for us, in our body, in our surroundings,
in our soul or psyche, or anywhere,
but also in our body,
so this negative rejection is such a bad energy,
by which we just enhance the fight.
It is exactly as if you were standing opposite
and poking at it just to tease it even more,
thus worsening the situation.
I do not think, that by fighting,
by rejecting and by insisting or getting rid of the thing,
being against this thing,
we can get a positive result.
And if it does happen,
it is only to strengthen the rule,
that even with our ill body, our ill surroundings
we can re-establish or establish
a healthy relationship only
if we accept it the way it is,
and if we try most sincerely, and from within, to offer love.
Meditation changes our thinking,
it changes very simply but inevitably our whole attitude
towards our activities and everything.
And mainly it dissolves stress.
Long ago I used to be tired all the time,
it was especially so on Friday evenings,
when all week long I was thinking my head off,
and pursuing every kind of thing,
then by Friday evening there was a buzzing in my head.
It was as if a bunch of beasts were locked up in a cage,
and they were growling constantly.
So my head was buzzing and everything annoyed me,
no matter what it was, I was off my hinge.
And every time I was going home on Friday
it was the same situation with my head.
Then when I got home, there were the kids banging the doors
and being merry, shouting, and then I was fagged out,
why one cannot have a bit of rest at home.
Then my wife went: oh kids, keep quite,
your father works so much, and this and that...
Then I drank a few bottles of beer
and after about the fourth my head began to calm down.
And thus during the weekend I could have a good night rest,
so this was the "beer meditation".
So at this time I did not yet meditate
but led this kind of life.
Now here came meditation,
and when meditation started, well,
it did not even take too long,
as I was not yet meditating for that long
I cant remember, maybe a year or so,
I noticed once on my way home on Friday
that the tiredness, that buzzing
and dinging in my head and murmuring,
is not in my head anymore, but beside it.
And I told it to my wife:
Look, how interesting it is,
that the stress, the noise
and the tiredness is not in my head anymore,
but beside my head.
It comes beside me home.
She said: look here,
you would better not tell such things to other people,
or they will have their opinion
and diagnosis of what it is about you.
So the buzzing thing came home with me beside my head,
and for a few more Fridays it went like this,
and then it disappeared.
It did not come even beside my head,
and ever since I have never felt mental tiredness,
and that was twenty something years ago,
so my head is calm even without beers.
When I started meditation
I read the book "Meditation" by my Master, Sri Chinmoy,
and there it was written,
how important vegetarian diet is regarding consciousness,
that we should not introduce animal food,
animal consciousness into our system.
So he considered this topic from a spiritual point of view.
And of course I read this,
but I was unwilling to take steps in this direction,
because I thought that Sri Chinmoy was an Indian,
so let him eat grass and vegetables,
but I am a Szekler man,
I eat meat, as Szeklers always eat meat whenever possible.
My favorite food was some slices of salami between two Wiener schnitzels,
this was my sandwich,
so bread was not really necessary to complement it.
Of course it had its effect on my hands, my joints
they hurt so much that I dropped my instruments
and then I was only thirty something years old.
So I did not want to give up meat,
as that would mean a very serious issue for me.
But, as it happened one day, it was a weekend,
my wife was making a roast,
it was a nice big peace of roast,
and she cut it and put it on my plate,
and I told her, that today I don't want meat.
So I ate the mashed potatoes and the pickles,
and said that somehow today I don't feel like eating meat.
I said: later, in the evening,
as it is better when cold anyway,
I like meat better cold.
Then in the evening, again I could not eat the meat.
It went on for three days.
Than it became clear to me what had happened to me,
that rejecting meat and being unable to eat it
can only result from my stomach being sick,
that it is one of the symptoms of stomach cancer,
and one having learned medicine can easily find out the cause.
So I told my wife: we have to plan for your future since I do not have one.
And I told her, that, you see, I must have stomach cancer,
so and so, and then we mourned for me.
In the evening I sat down to meditate,
and in my meditation, from within, a voice said to me:
You do not have cancer, there is nothing wrong with you.
That is not why you do not eat meat.
You do not eat meat because I do not want you to eat meat.
I say to him: and who are you?
I am your soul.
Well, I say, you have quite a stupid hobby.
But the fact was that I could not eat meat.
And so I kept a meatless diet,
and I lost some weight and my hands healed too,
still I felt really sorry for myself and kept on hoping it would get over.
So once I again tried some Wiener schnitzel
when my wife made it for the kids,
but as I chewed it, I could not swallow,
I had to go out to brush my teeth and spit and had all trouble.
So I became a vegetarian upon compulsion.
But now I have a different view of the thing
and I consider vegetarian lifestyle as one of the bases of spirituality.
When I became the disciple of Sri Chinmoy,
very proudly I went to the Centre here in Vienna,
where there were seven disciples or so,
and presented myself to them:
hi guys, I am a disciple too.
It was a few months after I had that great experience
and the heap of expansions that have changed me,
opened me up completely, and so I finally felt that come what may,
I will not feel ashamed to meditate with others.
So I went to see people through which I can get to the master,
as I was curious of the master's physical presence as well.
So, as I entered, I told them,
hey guys: I am a Sri Chinmoy disciple too.
They looked at me with surprise, and asked where, which Centre?
I say where else, of course from here, Vienna, just like you.
But we do not know about it, they said.
That is of no importance for you to know it,
what is of importance is that I know I am a disciple.
They said: oy, it does not work like that,
for if you want to be a disciple of Sri Chinmoy you have to ask for it.
And you have to give a photo for the master to meditate on,
and then he either accepts you as a disciple or not.
I said there is no such thing,
as it is already settled that I am his disciple, and that's it.
Well, to be short, they did not argue much,
probably they had been meditating for several years,
so they left the thing at that.
Then I bought a couple of books and music recordings,
that time it was cassettes,
and equipped with shopping bags I was to start for home,
when one of them says to me:
You there, if you are a disciple,
what kind of sport do you practice?
Well, I say, why should I practice any sport?
Well, on Sri Chinmoy's path it is like this,
we are not exercising the soul only, but the body as well.
What? Well, yes, if you do not have a sport of your own,
then you take up running.
Running? Yes running.
Well, I say to myself, it is a pretty awkward business.
And you all run?
He says, oh yes, we all run.
I say, I do not run even to catch the tram,
the next one will come, and anyway,
running is dangerous for the heart,
and I also don't feel like getting stinky because of running.
But I was shocked.
Well I am cheated again!
This Sri Chinmoy has cheated me,
as he wrote so many nice things in his book,
but there was not a single word about practicing sports
or doing anything.
And you know, I had sworn to live for a year the way this master teaches,
and now it turns out that it is all about sport, running, oy.
Well, I said, I am sure not to do it.
That time we used to go walking with the children to Wiener Wald,
and there I saw people running.
Even old people like me,
as then I was still old.
And I saw people running there even uphill.
Oh, I say, it is better not ask them for advice,
there must be something amiss with them.
And I always got stuck at the beer stalls,
while the children were playing around,
as those benches in Weiner Wald,
around the beer mugs, have a magnetic power,
that gets your butts to stick there.
You cannot budge an inch from there.
My guess is that the catering industry of Vienna
takes care of that with some electromagnets.
To cut a long story short,
I went home all sad,
just like a scalded poodle, and said,
this is the end.
It was a beautiful dream,
but it did not work out.
But next morning as I awoke I said:
a promise is a promise,
I said I will live for a year like that,
and now, just because it is hard I give up.
I cannot give up on a promise.
And next day I went to a sports store where I did some shopping,
I bought good sturdy shoes for me to support my ankles since I had flat feet too,
that's also not meant for running,
and with these shoes, professional shorts
and T-shirt, I went to run by the Danube, where we lived.
There were two big trees about forty meters apart,
and I started from one and hugged the other to catch my breath.
I was in a horrible state.
I was eighty-five kilos at that time with a huge belly,
a beer belly, but I felt as if I was pregnant,
every time I jogged my belly wobbled independently,
and I was cursing the world like anything,
but mainly Sri Chinmoy, and everybody,
that they have landed me in this situation
that I have to suffer like this.
Then my dream was, to be able to run 10 kilometres,
as I thought that was decent enough for a Sri Chinmoy disciple,
and an old man cannot be expected to run more than ten kilometers,
and wonderfully I accomplished that goal in three or four months unbelievably.
From then on I was very careful not to go even a single step further,
as after all I had two children, as householder, I cannot leave them orphaned.
Then every morning I put on my running gear, and kept looking at the window,
if only a few drops would fall from the sky, so that I do not have to go running,
as one cannot expose himself to pneumonia.
So that is how my aspiration life for sports began,
and finally I got that far that it became many marathons
and hundred Kilometers and so on.
So if every time you do a bit more
than you did the day before,
you will get there.
And for me the greatest thing was when at the age of forty
on the occasion of my birthday
I went down to the park and ran 40 km.
I felt I had given a slap to impossibility,
and there is no such thing as impossible.
And Impossibility is nothing but
the aggregate of unrealized possibilities,
as anyone can run forty meters,
then he can run two-hundred,
and then one kilometer and so on.
It is like a thick rope,
try as you may, you cannot break it,
but if you tear every single thread separately
the rope is finished.
I lost a huge amount of money.
And all this money I lost
because I was cherishing some kind of desire.
Because I wanted to accomplish something that I needed not to accomplish.
And it is a mistake
if you trie to achieve something, that is not your way,
that you don't need to have.
These occasions, I always asked my Master:
Guru, I would do this, and then this and that would happen.
How should it be?
Guru said: Listen to your intuition.
Hoho, the Master was clever,
he did not say do it or don't do it.
Listen to your intuition.
But then, instead of sitting inside here, calmly,
listening to my intuition I let that desire or idea become my intuition.
Being a beginner it was difficult to transcend this,
but if my Master had saved me from all this,
I would never have learned.
Well, now, the price was painful,
I lost a lot of money this way,
and as I listened to my own intuition
there was no such thing as blaming the Master,
as after all I was doing according to my intuition.
Then came a time when Guru said:
OK do it.
And I did it and still suffered a loss,
and then I said how could this Guru be so cruel.
Then I realised, that here again it was I who was stupid,
ok not stupid, but I dodged myself again,
because putting the question in a way, that my wishful thinking,
the desire I wanted, was already in it
and the Master saw that I was burning with this desire,
so he just said, if you wish so, jump in it and burn yourself,
so he said OK.
So this way I also lost money.
And every time I lost money
because I was not listening to here,
and it is so interesting,
as I realise it only now,
much afterwards, that my inner being
never in fact wanted me to loose money,
yet I always consoled myself that
this was the way it was meant to be.
But by now I know that it was not meant to be that way,
it was my fault.
One always ruins the game
or makes his life worse than it should be.
Even if you are already with such a great spiritual master.
The learning process speeds up with the master,
but it does not come to an end.
So the master knows the right thing,
but for you to learn what he knows somehow you have to pay a tuition fee.
Whether it is several lifetimes
or a sudden ten- twenty years,
the faster way is still better.
At the beginning of my spiritual journey
I was very determined that I will do this thing.
And I will do it the fastest possible way,
to reach the goal.
For this I was ready to make all kind of compromises,
and I thought that the only way to establish silence in my mind
is if I cut off all kinds of incoming stimuli.
Overnight I stopped watching TV, reading the papers, everything,
I did not even read any technical literature.
And I tried always to meditate only.
So I created a kind of pull,
an inner tension in me for the sake of the goal.
This however is violence.
And that does not work.
Violence does not work in spirituality
whether it is against yourself or against the world,
it is not the answer.
Anyway, I did it very proudly,
and for years I did not read anything.
I kept to the principle:
I don't write, I don't read,
I am spiritual.
Then after a few years
I got the announcement of a conference,
and the topic was one of interest for me:
implantology.
And I thought, well after so many years
let me this once go there and see how it works.
As for so many years I had not been,
now I went there and got a notepad
and all kinds of brochures
and sit in the hall, and people started to come and speak,
and I took notes and listened to what they were telling about,
what is good, and it all disturbed me.
And I realized, that I cannot really any more think
the way I used to.
And as I was taking notes in my mind,
and working in my mind I realized how a dreadfully tight place I was living in.
And I did not like it.
But as it is, I have already come here,
so I will sit through the conference anyway,
but I pushed aside paper and all,
and just looked at the people,
I sat here, in my heart and started to meditate,
and I was listening to what was happening but tried to listen
from the heart, all the time.
And as I was listening from inhere,
two and a half days went by.
Of the three days of the congress
after the first half day I gave up learning
and started to do this.
When the congress was over,
oh what a nice feeling I have had.
I would have never had this much time to meditate,
if I did not come,
I will come again, it was so good.
And as I thought of something professional
that was among other things mentioned
I realized, hey, I know this!
This guy said this and this.
I even knew who it was who said it.
I was quite astonished.
When I came back to work, I knew everything
and I could apply it.
And I knew why it was said
what were the source statistics
and every kind of details.
Then I started to think:
Wait a moment!
Storing information can happen not only through the mind,
and our memory: is it in our head at all?
If you do not pay attention,
and then you still know it anyway.
And that's when I discovered this thing,
that it is the spiritual heart
through which you can also learn.
When we are kindergarten kids
and learn the nursery rhymes
our mind is somewhere else.
We do not yet know how to think,
we don't have an organized mind,
nothing of that kind small children have.
And they recite the poems so joyfully.
I remember my older brother was memorizing poems
and I was playing with toys,
I did not yet have to go to school,
I was so lucky,
and this long poem he was learning,
how he struggled with it my mother helping along,
and when he was reciting the poem I chimed in,
how it went.
My mother says: you keep quiet,
you do not know it anyway,
I say: I know it.
Then said it all the way.
I was through the whole poem.
And it was this way in school too,
I always knew everything.
But if the teacher was angry,
or scolded me, which happened quite frequently,
then I knew nothing, I was a total zero.
And that is how it is with children.
If you frighten them, their heart closes,
and then they know nothing.
Here they have nothing,
all they have is from here.
Only I would not have thought,
that with an adult mind,
in adult state this can be done.
So this was the experience I had then.
So knowledge can come from a different place.
After all, real knowledge is not in the head.
My spiritual experiences always happened to my body.
Of course there were some exceptions.
In my consciousness either I slipped with my entire body
into the consciousness of an other being or something,
or I leave the body.
Leaving the body is also interesting,
but it is not so exciting as
when one follows the process along with his entire body
and becomes or embodies the thing with his body.
Once it happened,
it was also in the beginning years of my meditation life,
maybe in the very beginning,
in the first year,
that on a Sunday afternoon I lay down,
the kids were playing,
my wife was with them,
they were small,
and as I lay down on the sofa watching the kids I fell asleep.
I was snoring all right.
But the next moment from the ceiling
I saw my body as it was snoring there,
and saw the kids playing,
and I listened to what they say.
It was so interesting,
but it was not special enough for me.
But then I said:
I will memorize everything they say,
and when I wake up, they will not believe that I know it.
So I listened carefully,
I even moved along the ceiling to and fro,
to watch from different angles what was happening.
Then this way or that, abruptly my body awoke,
and then I was back into it.
Then I told the children about it to.
They said: you were sleeping.
I said: no, I know everything,
and I actually told them what they had said while I was sleeping.
But where is the mind?
The mind is really asleep,
so how can you memorize things?
So it is not at all sure that it is the mind
where we store our memories,
and as I have heard it from brain scientists
who are researching these things,
it has not always been like that.
Now, this leaving the body
or transformation, gliding consciouswise
is a process, that now started in me.
The very first time when it happened I can still recall
because it seemed to be such an unbelievable thing.
We were in Switzerland at a disciple meeting,
and there was a brake after meditation.
I came out for the brake,
we were upstairs in a hall of the lobby,
and I started to go downstairs.
I looked back and saw an old disciple,
his name is Kailash, he was the first disciple in Europe,
first disciple of Sri Chinmoy,
and as I saw him,
my body changed right away.
My body started to grow,
all my features changed,
and I felt that I was him,
but completely.
And it is not just like
I was Alexander Fulop being in a Kailash body,
but I changed completely, and everything was only Kailash.
And then I was looking at him,
and also feeling him inside me,
and I said, how is it, that there is two of him?
One standing there, talking to some people,
one going down on the stairs.
And all the time I was going down the stairs,
all along I was him.
And there my mind stopped,
I say, wait man, where am I then?
As there used to be something called I,
and what has happened to it?
So this identification can work so perfectly,
that one can forget about himself completely,
It happened to me once,
or even more than once within the family as well,
when the family was sitting in the kitchen,
they were having breakfast,
I came later, and as I was sitting down,
I felt that I was these three people.
But then, I say, where is the fourth one?
As there used to be one, that was I.
And there again there was yesterday,
we went on a hike somewhere,
and we just meditated, and in my meditation
I felt I was my dog, Beauty.
I became our dog, Beauty, and as I was being Beauty,
it was very interesting, as I was there on the ground,
with my four feet, and from there I was looking around,
and I saw Marami, my wife, at that moment she was not my wife but my mistress.
And at that point I started to feel: wait man, where is my master?
But my master was me, and then who is I now?
So it is so unbelievable, as you forget this thing: I,
because you become something else.
So by these series of experiences that I went through,
by these spiritual experiences, I began to be able to identify with people.
Then it went to the extent that I saw someone,
looked at him and I start to feel him.
And then I could adopt his face,
and I could do it with everybody,
except my Master.
And this annoyed me a lot,
as I rather wanted it with him,
and as the years passed, that also worked out.
Finally I always,
in every single meditation,
as I meditated I actually felt my body transform,
my face transform, and my all,and I am the Master.
So this identification, that is the freedom of the consciousness,
that is how I would define identification,
it can be so real,
that you feel,
that it is just as much a reality as I am now,
in this body, playing the role of Alexander Fulop.
The same way I can be anybody,
I can be any other body or anyone else.
Even more, not only a human being, but a beetle,
as experience shows it, or a dog, or anyone.
People have quite a bit of interest and curiosity
in what they were in a previous life,
at least those who believe in rebirth, in reincarnation.
I was also dealing with this subject back at the very beginning of my spiritual life.
In autohypnosis, I could enter,
and then I entered in to a deep channel,
it was like a sewer that goes underground,
and as you were going back in it,
everywhere there were holes going down to it.
Though these holes light was shining in,
and I could go up through the holes,
and see anytime, where, when and what had happened to me,
who I used to be.
And I was much interested in it up to that moment.
Then I emerged at a certain place and I saw all sad people around,
because where I emerged, I was in a bed,
and as I looked around, I saw a dead body, who was me.
And beside the body I looked at the sad people,
who were present at this body at the time of death.
So I say, let me see who this dead man has been,
so I dived back into the sewer and went backward one more hole,
but it was very interesting, as I could go out anywhere.
So I went out there, and saw a guy coming towards me,
dressed in long robes, he also had a special headgear,
and he was coming down on a set of marble stairs
in something like a palace, and I knew that it was me.
And I started towards him,
to see who I was, and then I had this feeling:
that I am not interested in it.
I cannot be interested, as it cannot change my present,
by this I will not be more,
and the past is dust,
and it can never have an effect on what you are today,
at least not in a positive way.
Or that must be a very rare case.
So I turned around and dived back and never,
never again have I had an interest in who I was and who I was not.
Since at the beginning of my spiritual journey
I was granted the great experience of growing into
and becoming the cosmos with my body,
I became incredibly pretentious and demanding towards my master.
I was always demanding almost aggressively,
or maybe inwardly aggressively
I was demanding something of him,
that he should give me something,
that he should notice me and give me again,
more and even more.
I spent a lot of time together with my master,
and I always entered his eyes,
and he tolerated it patiently.
These times his eyes became vacant,
I entered them, and in there I felt as if I were in a room
lined with soft cotton wool,
where I am watched over so that I wont get hurt,
but I am also not allowed to move forward.
However much I pushed,
there was always an answer:
"Why do you want to take away a part of me,
when you could get me all?"
But I did not understand it.
Although he said it inwardly,
and I acknowledged it,
at that time I could never accept it,
and I could not understand what was meant by: "you could get all".
My master, you see, was a man who went through all this,
and the states I had a fleeting spiritual experience of,
he lived for twenty four hours and for all his life.
Now, it was he who gave me these experiences,
I got them with his help,
and he knew the way very well, how to take me there.
But I wanted to grab it,
to realize it with my ego,
but from here, with our head
we cannot acknowledge the fact that we are spiritual beings.
We can acknowledge, realize and live it only
if we live not from our head, from our ego,
but leave it behind to live in the heart.
So breaking down the ego was a process,
in which my master, if needed
could seriously work on his disciples.
I remember an occasion, we were somewhere in Germany,
I don't know where exactly, but it was a kind of meeting.
The master was sitting in his armchair,
and then it was a time when everybody could chat informally,
we were not meditating, and no program was going on.
And I was sitting in the back, acting very cool
towards the people standing around.
Because I was a very interesting guy,
babbling out everything that happened to me spiritually.
So I was babbling away,
being over wise, probably that day Guru had smiled at me
or said something nice or praised me,
so my ego was swollen, nice, big,
and then came the walking meditation.
Walking meditation meant,
that we walked past in front of the master,
and meditated while walking,
and looking into his eyes he gave us something.
Whether we knew it or not,
but he gave something to everybody,
each what he had to receive.
So people were queuing, moving on,
but I did not care too much.
Now as I saw that the line was about to come to an end,
just to be among the last I also queued up,
to get through this walking meditation quickly,
as this chat in the back was so interesting,
and then the master did something interesting to me.
As I was walking in the line,
approaching him,
I felt I was getting smaller and smaller,
all my body!
Here and now, as in all my spiritual experiences
everything happened to my body as well.
So, I got smaller, reaching only up
to the shoulder of the person in front of me.
Then as I moved forward I got smaller and yet smaller,
now only as high as his waist.
I was the size of an eight or ten year old child
by the time I was standing in front of him,
a huge man sitting in the armchair,
his feet in front were so big,
and all was so big, and I say,
my Lord God, I was looking around,
have I become a dwarf or what?
I was just looking at the people:
Do they see that I am so little?
And as I was returning to my place,
going to the back, my size was also returning,
but on the other hand,
what was interesting,
my pride and my show off wisdom stayed the same, shrunken.
So he gave these interesting experiences.
He did not say it, he did not speak,
he tried to teach from within.
He did not say: look, Gunagriha,
it is not proper that you are chatting
while I am meditating on you,
but showed me: hey, boy,
you, your place is here and not there!
So, many such experiences came,
and there were wonderful things too.
Now, my Guru Sri Chinmoy, being a spiritual master,
for him there were no boundaries.
He used to say: you believe you are a free man,
while you cannot enter into another person,
and feel, see through him,
or know what he is thinking
and project yourself into him.
And of course we did not quite understand it,
since we did not have this kind of experience.
I had an interesting experience with my master once,
we were sitting together, well,
a hundred, hundred and fifty people or more
and he was sitting opposite in an armchair,
and performances were going on.
Disciples had practised for some short plays,
or they sang something or whatever,
and these went on, the performances.
And some joyful humorous performance started
that made everybody laugh so much that they were falling off the benches,
but I was sitting in the front,
in the second or third raw, very close to Guru.
I was looking at his eyes,
I was not interested in the play,
only looking at his eyes.
And as I was looking into his eyes
I saw that he also started to look at me.
So we were staring at one an other and quite some time went by
fifteen or twenty minutes,
everyone was just laughing,
it was a long funny thing,
I don't know what,
as I could not pay attention to it at all,
and also I did not want to,
as I was just looking into his eyes.
Then an interesting thing happened.
Suddenly I had to turn away,
and I started watching the play,
but then I felt that it was not me
but he was watching it through my eyes,
which became his eyes.
My entire face became his,
so, through my eyes it was actually he, looking.
I glimpsed back at him,
and saw that his eyes were closed.
Although I could not look into his eyes,
I felt that I must watch the play,
since the master wants to see the play.
And if he wants to see it, now he is using my eyes for it.
And so somehow it became so interesting
that I had become the master,
but at the same time the 'I' also remained in me.
And I experienced it that in and through him,
as I had entered into other beings,
he can play the same at his free will, as he wishes.
And I also felt that the message was:
"You see: I am you.
And what you see, I see, what you think, I know,
and what you are, I am all that.
And all you have just give to me,
as all I have I will give to you."
And then I was inundated with a feeling of gratitude for this experience,
it was a wonderful thing,
and all this gratitude I was pouring into him.
The whole thing was about to end,
I think the play was over,
people were clapping,
and I was just offering gratitude to him,
and out of gratitude a bliss inundated me,
and I was looking at him,
he glimpsed at me with his eyes and said:
"Gunagriha: Beautiful "
And I say: yes it is.
It was such a great experience for me that time I remember,
I am telling this because of the identification,
that all we beings are not separated beings.
Then, for the whole night I did not sleep,
as in vain I closed my eyes,
it was all light.
In vain I tried to close my eyes and fall asleep,
since I did not have to sleep.
In such a state you do not in fact need darkness.
As you will not get the darkness, this time there is only light.
And in my progress these were
- as always the ones that happened with my master -
the biggest and most important.
With the master, my master
you could have an intimate relationship.
The main point was that you do not try do it from without,
but the key was inner devotion to reach him.
Once you had that, than virtually everything worked.
And he always said: I am here for you.
And all you have, just give it to me.
So it meant if you have bad things in your life,
give them all to me.
Every bad thought, every bad feeling,
every problem of yours, throw it into me.
He also put it like:
I am the garbage can for you where you can throw the bad drafts.
Everything you do not need, you have to throw somewhere.
Now, in the inner life it is I where you can throw everything.
And I had an interesting experience with him,
once we were together again,
and he was receiving massage while I was meditating.
I always sat there as much as possible in his presence,
and we were only a few people there,
and as I was meditating, it did not want to work.
It could not work, as I could not stop my mind.
At that time it was not yet like
I could make immediate silence,
instead my head started off bringing in worse then the worst
and horrible thoughts,
and ugly and disgusting and all kinds of things,
and it just grew stronger and stronger.
And I did not know what to do with it.
Then I remembered what he used to say.
And I thought, looking at him with great love
but also with regret, I say,
now this will be yours,
and with all my inner power, as hard as I could
these thoughts when they next appeared I pushed
or I might say pierced into his body.
And his body as he was sitting there, squirmed all over
as if struck by electricity.
He did not even open his eyes or anything,
but from those thoughts,
because of all the evil things he had this physical reaction.
So this thing worked, and it still works today.
I can give to my master my problems,
I can give my bad thoughts and all kind of problems
that are obstacles in my way.
In spiritual life the goal is:
to get the answer to this question: "Who am I"
And the way to there is happiness.
In the beginning when I launched in to the spiritual life,
a few times a joy inexpressible and unaccounted, appeared in me,
a feeling of happiness.
But it was a feeling beyond human measures,
and from time to time it came,
and than I did not really know what to do with myself,
I was just grinning without any reason,
if I was at my surgery I put on a mask so that people would not see
that I am guffawing but I could not contain myself.
In the beginning I was always afraid
that I had meditated to much and was going mad,
but then this state settled and lead to great spiritual experiences.
I remember once we were in Singapore as we had flight connections there.
But we spent some time there,
we had to wait several hours, six-eight hours or so,
and thus we got on a tourist bus
that took people waiting at the airport for a bit of sightseeing.
And for this in my memories Singapore will always remain a wonder place,
although I had been there before,
in fact I wrote my first book,
'The Third Wish' there,
most of it, in ten days
or two weeks,
but this state that was now,
we were walking,
looking at the streets of Singapore,
and we also got on a boat,
and I was sized by this feeling.
It expanded, it grew,
it went beyond all human measures, an unexpressible,
unbelievable joy, that I would actually put as 'delight',
whether and how much it really was divine delight or not,
I cannot tell, but it is not like when you are
so overjoyed that you even get goose bumps,
well, here all parts of your body,
every single cell of yours is involved in this vibration.
Your body becomes lighter as if it did not even exist,
if there were no such thing as matter,
there is only light-delight flowing up and down in you,
and you cannot breath as each breath heightens
the intensity of delight to such an extent that you simply cannot contain yourself.
And I was in this state for hours in Singapore.
I did not even tell my wife,
the two of us were together,
because I felt that you simply cannot express it with words,
as no human language has the terminology for what I am experiencing now.
By the time we got back to the airport
this state had gradually ceased and ended.
I had this same state, this intense and this long,
well not quite as long,
once more in New York.
We were in New York at the tennis court,
that is the place we had celebrations together with Guru,
many times he was playing tennis,
or we meditated together, and once as I went down
and took prashad, this joy, this delight swept over me,
and there too it got me with such incredible intensity.
And then you don't need water even,
you don't need food, you don't need anything,
the body has no needs for anything at all, as the body
is in a state of,
or rather it is in such a state,
that the body has no importance.
It is as if you actually were the vibration of the soul,
and you acknowledge, that there is this body,
it carries you, but it is unimportant.
It was lunch time, so I took my portions,
but I could not eat,
as in this state you simply cannot swallow a thing and you don't need it,
it is unnecessary.
And in this state I was going home,
I felt that my tears were welling up,
they were streaming unceasingly with joy, with delight
and then a dog came opposite me.
It was an unfortunate dog,
a kind of homeless dog so to say,
it was sick, it had wounds and everything.
I stopped, started to look at the dog,
and in the dog I saw the source of my delight.
I said to the dog: You, you are God.
What are you doing in this dog? And then I gave him my lunch.
But everything I touched, a fence, a solid object,
everything was soft, everything was full of joy,
everything was delight,
there was no physical body,
no living creature, nothing existed.
There was only delight, a globe of delight,
or a globe of light, that actually,
my body carried.
And finally I could not have enough of all this great delight,
and my mind got a shock and stopped completely,
and when it was for an hour or so,
or I don't know how long, but for a very very long time,
maybe even more, then I said:
but this cannot be, how have I actually deserved it
that I can live in this state, this divine delight,
that I can be in it?
And it was so interesting,
it did not happen all at once,
but slowly I felt it dissolve.
And from this I learned that we are just what we think of ourselves.
We get what we feel worthy of
and I did not feel worthy,
so this state did not become a daily occurrence in my life,
not yet at least,
but it is a wonderful thing.
And as I actually see it,
this is the goal of man,
that he can feel his soul,
the rapture of his soul
as it is such a great thing.
When I was in New York for the first time,
where my master lived,
I went there because when he was in Europe he said,
he read out a list of some disciples,
persons, that if they went to New York in December
he would lift them, physically push them up.
And so of course I went too as I was on the list.
And it was an interesting experience to be first time in New York,
first time at Guru's place.
I am telling this,
because that night at the accommodation I was at,
I laid down, closed my eyes and tried to sleep.
It was the same day when Guru lifted me,
and as I closed my eyes someone turned on the light.
I said, why did these guys turned on the light,
when everybody here is already sleeping, and anyway,
it is not so dark that he could not see where his bed is, to go to sleep.
I was a bit annoyed that now I have to get up to turn the light off,
but then I realised that what I see is not the room.
Its true enough that there is full light,
but what I see is not the room.
Then I reached for my eyes and touched them
to feel they were closed, yet I see.
And this was the first time,
and I can say this first occasion shocked me,
that I can see without my eyes.
And I just sat there for quite a long time in this light,
and than I fell asleep.
The third eye, as we may know from yoga is located here
between the two eyes,
and there are spiritual paths that aim at it,
they want to see, or something,
and you see, the third eye is also the place of omniscience,
so it is greatly interesting and exciting at least for curious people.
But I never really care much about it.
Years passed by when at bedtime there was light again,
but now it was not like a lit room, I just saw something.
I mean, what I am seeing now is not the wall of my room.
So these all happened in a wakeful state, only eyes closed, before sleeping.
And I see beautiful patterns, these patterns all moving,
and they are so beautiful, I always think if only I could draw them,
or take a photo of them, since for sure,
I can see them, but I cannot take them into the outer world,
with these patterns I could surely make such beautiful pictures
that it would be unbelievable,
and how everybody would love them,
as they are so fantastic.
So inwardly I see something, but it is all not clear.
Now again the forceful opening,
or too early opening of the third eye is a very bad thing.
For me this process is going on for a decade if not for decades,
so that the inner being would get you used to, seeing without eyes.
As it is not an easy thing.
I know someone who is suffering
because somebody opened his third eye too soon.
So meditation is by no means meant
for deliberately acquiring occult power or wonders,
or a knowledge that we should have nothing to do with,
and knowing it before we would have the capacity to bear it.
So I would discourage everybody do get mixed up with paths
that would lead to too early knowledge,
or just for curiosity,
as it might happen that you eventually acquire some occult powers,
some kind of knowledge,
but this would only swell your ego to such an extent,
it will become so powerful that you will never be able to expand,
to grow spiritually.
And finding your inner being is nothing else but expansion,
nothing else but leaving the ego behind,
growing out of this tight mental being,
becoming more, transform,
or rather truly become what we inwardly are.
So this is a process that you have to give time for.
The opening of the spiritual centers or so called Chakras,
should not be done forcefully.
It has to be controlled either by a master, a true master,
or it should be a spontaneous process settled by God,
but it must not be hurried or forced in any way.
The greatest spiritual experience of my life
I had not in meditation, but while working.
And it was an experience that virtually put a fullstop
to all kinds of things,
it explained everything.
And this whole thing was a realisation,
actually an explanation
for the meaning of life
for me.
It began while I was working as usual,
I was drilling a patient's tooth,
and quite suddenly I was seized by a dreadful feeling,
that I had lost something very important,
something vital, something on what my whole life depended.
I misplaced it.
And I forgot about it.
And how should I now find it?
And thus this feeling kind of swept me along,
and I was nothing but a huge big cry
to find what I had misplaced.
And I felt that this will bring about a seeking for eternity,
as I do not know where it is that which I have misplaced.
That I have forgotten where I put it.
Actually it was somehow that I have forgotten it.
And mentally I could not really make anything out of it,
or reply to myself:
but there, you always forget things, no wonder you also forgot such a thing.
But in this awful searching, desperate,
forgotten state of mind, something suddenly opened up in me inwardly.
And it was so interesting, as I realised,
oops-a-daisy, I got it!
I found everything.
I, this man am not I,
I am something much more than that,
and then inwardly I could see everything.
My inner mind, so to say, if it is a mind,
as it was beyond that,
became boundless.
And I saw myself in my previous lives.
I saw myriads of faces that were all me.
I could see all this at the same time,
while still drilling the tooth, working.
But unceasingly happiness, realisation,
delight flooded me,
and I was continuously saying:
My Lord God, how wonderful it is,
I am not this dentist,
I am only acting this dentist here.
Of cause all the time I was cautious:
look out, here you have to act the dentist!
It is very well that you know you are not that,
but these people here take it that way,
that you are the dentist, and they do not see what you see.
This realisation that I have found myself,
as I put it: "remembered myself",
as I have actually always known who I was.
And this joy!
I stopped dealing with the patient,
my wife was there working as well,
we worked at the same place,
I went over to her, I was giggling,
and said: you are my wife aren't you here in this life?
She just laughed, you are kidding, she said.
But I knew, that in reality,
in my real life, where I am of the infinite
she is not my wife, she is just my partner.
And it was so interesting as I was going back along my lives,
and there at the very beginning there was light,
and I saw I came from light.
And when I looked forward, I saw there is light.
And it all was like a big tunnel with many many people inside,
who are all me, and at one side of the tunnel there is light
and at the other side there is light.
And this realisation was a wonder.
But there in that state I did not actually know how it was,
that I can see into the infinite and I am the possessor of infinite knowledge.
I sent the patient away,
I was done with her,
and was working on the next one,
when the assistant girl asked me:
when shell we call the other patient back?
Well, I say, why should we call her back?
Oh, she says, but because you have not finished her,
the teeth are drilled but they are not filled.
I say: that cannot be,
let's bet on it, OK let's bet.
She brought the lady back,
and her teeth were really not filled.
I say, but this cannot be,
I saw as I was filling the teeth.
Well, whatever,
I sat down to it and did it.
When the last filling was ready,
and I could have a good look at it,
I said: but this is what I have already seen.
I saw it half an hour ago.
So sitting in this inner expanse and enjoying it,
this wonderful state,
I do not actually see the past only,
but I see the future as well,
only I mix them up.
Unfortunately I do not have the capacity to properly control it.
So I got a bit frightened,
that if these people notice what is happening with me,
they will take me to the doctor and get me doped,
so I started to pray:
My God, I am so extremely grateful for this state,
I do admire it immensely,
and I have realized that this is the essence and meaning of life,
to discover who I am.
But I am not yet ready to live with it through eternity,
I cannot control it,
I don't have enough strength or the capacity for it.
But I could experience this state,
and that is a wonderful thing, but God be so kind,
and please take it from me,
even if I am crying, I have to ask this.
An this state did not cease all at once,
but I could feel it was about to end.
And this boundlessness started to shrink,
until I was just a dentist,
again a dentist and thus only the husband of my wife
and nothing more.
I think that all this divine play we take part in,
we, spiritual beings
got playing this game for the joy of realisation,
the ecstasy of realisation,
to experience who we trully are.
And when you realise: who you are,
then you see that you are in infinity,
in boundlessness.
It is like the raindrops returning to the ocean
and becoming the ocean,
and we too, when we are able to grow beyond our separateness
and break away from it,
and divine grace carries us away from it,
then we are really the divine consciousness.
Nothing else, nothing more, nothing less,
that is everything.
And this has been the greatest experience in my life,
although in my life I could grow into the cosmic space with my body,
throbbing in infinity, and always wanting infinity and infinity,
and reach it,
although there is no such state as infinity.
But this state, this delight, the delight of realisation,
this is the "non plus ultra".
On December 27 I was up before 6 o'clock.
I took a shower,
put on comfortable clothes
and sat down at my desk to meditate.
I had cut out from the book a special picture of Sri Chinmoy
that I wanted to meditate on.
I did not have any expectations since I was to try something I knew nothing about.
I did not even know that one can have inner experiences in meditation.
It was a Sunday, after Christmas.
Silence in the city,
silence in the house, silence in the room.
I was shocked to feel someone standing behind me
and two soft, warm hands touching the nape of my neck and holding my head.
They were rather small, dry, warm hands.
I had my heart in my mouth out of fear.
The hands suddenly pulled my head upwards with a jerk.
That moment I felt my head growing,
it became twice, thrice as big as before,
and it was a good feeling.
I had hardly come to my senses when the hands jerked again.
Now my head became about a meter big.
With the third jerk my head filled the whole room,
and my body, hands and torso also expanded together with my head.
It was at about the fourth or fifth impulse
that I rose above our house.
Now I could see the entire city of Vienna
with the streets, churches sparkling with light.
At the next moment I experienced such a growth,
that I was now viewing Earth from outer space.
Amazingly, Earth was in my body.
My head was above so I could see the curve of the globe.
The expansion was breathtaking not only for its extent but also for its suddenness.
After each surge I had to take a deep breath,
and after each surge I felt that this was the end,
it is impossible to expand any more.
But the next surge convinced me of the opposite,
and then I again decided that this was the infinite
until the next impulse came.
I simply could not comprehend, that there is no end to the infinite.
There is no state that is the infinite,
as it is immeasurable.
You cannot delimit it with a feeling,
a thought or a sentence.
It was a wonderful feeling to exist freely in space,
with a boundless body.
Huge planets crossed my body
By now the periods between two surges had slowed.
Because of the endless expanse everything became tranquil,
while the extent of the expansion became incomprehensible.
But then I got scared that I would not find my way back to Earth,
I was afraid that in my consciousness I would never again be human
while I had two sons and I felt responsible for them.
One will inundated me:
back, to be back,
and it was granted.
I was falling from the infinite to my little desk.
From the window of my room as I looked up at the starry sky and down to earth,
the pang of separateness bit into me.
Oh my Lord, let me go back! - I implored.
As an answer I immediately knew that all that up there is my real world,
and I can have free access to it,
since somehow it is all inside me,
I only have to continue,
or rather walk along my path.
Then, one by one the experiences and realizations came in my meditation.
Sometimes I became the heavy mass of the planet,
then I was molded into the consciousness of an animal.
Sometimes I experienced other people in me,
or I saw myself in the eyes of strangers in the street.
I saw myself beyond time,
and I saw that there is light where I came from,
and there is also light where I go.
And between the two I saw many human faces that were all me.
It took me years and decades till I could give up the fight within me,
and realized that my real self is Him,
who is the Infinite,
and presently I - in my finite human personality - am only His actor
and in this cage of time and space I should play my role worthy of Him.
As Teilhardt de Chardin said:
We are not human beings having spiritual experiences
but spiritual beings having human experiences.
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- Hello everyone.
It's Barry here.
Welcome to My Virgin Kitchen.
I hope you are well.
Today, we're doing another taste test video.
Now this one is gonna be a vegan taste test, and it's something I've wanted to do for quite
a while, but I've managed to find a few quickie vegan foods.
So I found vegan steak, vegan cheese, vegan egg.
So, I'll get to all that in a bit.
I have nothing against veganism whatsoever.
I just really am intrigued to do this video to work out if this tastes remotely like what
it's supposed to.
Even got vegan wine gums for sweetsvideo.
So I think without further ado let's get going.
First up, not from a chicken's bum, potentially, this is vegan egg, 100% plant-based egg replacer.
It's made from algal, yes protein-based ingredients, and the thing that I had a chat with Mrs.
Barry about this last night, I was look, it's actually even in an egg carton.
I wonder if it's in an egg shell, but obviously like Mrs. Barry said, it's probably just a
marketing ploy.
So apparently you can make baked egg with this.
We can also scramble it, which is what we're gonna do.
Aw, that's a shame.
I was generally hoping they might put them in just like kinder egg style, little plastic
containers or something like that.
Wow.
So, it's just kind of like a drug, not that I know what that looks like.
Crikey, it's even got a recipe for quiche on here.
So that's pretty cool.
What we're gonna do is we need to mix this up.
So, I'll be right back.
The texture of it, if you're wondering, is like corn flour, and it does just smell like
corn flour.
There's nothing really there.
So, what we do is get two tablespoons of it, shove it in a bowl.
At least the colour resembles egg-yolky kind of stuff.
We then pour in 150 mils of water, nice.
Grab a whisk.
Where's my whisk?
Couldn't find my whisk, so I'm using the whisk from my stand mixer, and this really does
smell proper eggy, like proper farty, popping off smell, unless it's the dog.
I'm not sure.
So we just whisk it.
I've whisked it until it's smooth, and generally, it does smell like Trump in a bowl, which
is another name for farts in the UK, Trump.
You can take that any way you like.
So, now, we pass this into a lightly-oiled frying pan, and cook it up, scramble it up
baby.
Just gonna let that warm a teeny bit.
Whew, whew, whew, wheeeew.
Yes, they've done an excellent job of making that smell like egg.
Let's pour this in like so.
Oh yeah.
Looks more like pancake batter at the moment, and it does say to scramble it almost immediately.
So, spatula.
Hey, tell you what, that is looking scrambled.
You see that?
I think it said the cooking time is quite long.
Scramble frequently and evenly with a spatula until the eggs are firm.
Vegan egg takes longer than regular eggs.
So we recommend six to eight minutes until fully cooked.
Season to taste.
Oh yeah, I'll be seasoning, and enjoy, which I aim to do.
I'm not a massive fan of scrambled egg anyway.
So maybe I'll like this more.
The other thing I'm thinking is if I kind of left it and didn't beat it too much, maybe
it would be good for an omelette.
So, would that be called a vegomelet, a vegomelet?
That's only been two minutes and it is just congealing together like loads, like that.
So I'm gonna jump right forward to eight minutes' time.
So I'll see you in the future.
Alright, there we go.
That has been eight minutes.
Let's see what it tastes like.
Here we go then, on the plate, little bit of pepper.
It does just smell like omelette, so.
Uh, God, that's weird.
That just tastes like eating like rubber, like a rubber mask or something, just nothing,
there's nothing there.
It's kind of like, I feel like I might like it more than a scrambled egg 'cause I'm not
really a huge fan of it, like the taste of the egg.
If you even think about the texture of a marshmallow, it's kind of like that, but without like any
flavour whatsoever, like nothing.
It's just like eating chewable water.
So, not bad, not bad.
In this packet right here, I have some vegan steaks.
Now I'll just get on to that in a moment, but I'm just making a quick bowl of vegetable
stock.
Now that smells good.
Let's put that to one side.
This, my friends, is a vegan steak.
The texture, just feeling it is very light.
It feels like cod or a cracker actually, you know, one of those really healthy crackers
that people loads tonnes of Nutella on to make them feel like they're eating healthy,
but then they eat 20 billion of them or the Nutella as well.
So they're probably not doing too good, but what we do then, yeah, there is just no, actually
this kind of resembles dog food guys.
It does.
We're gonna just stick it in our bowl and let it soak for a half an hour while we continue
our vegan feast.
So, let's just submerge that in there.
Woo, okay, we'll do a couple, 'cause I might need a couple.
That one's a bit thinner, and I presume, I'm only going to turn it right after.
I'll just give it a little bit of loving now, a little bit of a dunk, and it should sort
of absorb some of it and soak it up and be a bit more meaty.
There's definitely something going on in there.
It's like coming back to life.
So I'm gonna put it out the back, out of the way.
So we're gonna use that with this cheese for the finale of our vegan steak and cheese,
but as you guys know, I'm not a massive fan of cheese, especially when it's cold.
So this is vegan cheese, and it's made with coconut oil.
So I'm wondering, I'm gonna try this now, just a bit cold, if I actually like vegan
cheese cold, and I wanted to give a shout out to the most unhelpful person in my local
supermarket.
We're in the cheese aisle, she was stacking the cheese, and I'm like, "Excuse me, do you
sell vegan cheese," and she said, "Yes," and walked off, and that was it.
I was like, can you show me where it is?
So yes, that delayed my arrival to make this video this morning, but here we go.
It does look like cheese, doesn't it?
They are just sheets of vegan, dairy-free, lactose, soy, gluten-free vegan cheese.
It's says water, coconut oil, modified starch, sea salt, and vegan flavour.
What's a vegan flavour?
Have you vegans got your own herb or spice or something?
That's cheeky.
So normally this would be extremely unappealing to me, entirely, but I'm not getting that
whiff that you get from cheese straight away.
The texture is there.
It looks like cheese, it feels like cheese.
Oh, it does smell like it too.
It does, it does, it does.
Ohh, that doesn't taste of cheese, otherwise, I would've spat it out by now.
It doesn't taste of coconut.
It tastes like milk, but we can't have milk, but again, absolutely no real major taste
to it, other than a very subtle milky vibe, maybe slightly creamy.
If anything, it tastes like eating a beermat.
Don't do that.
Do not eat a beermat in a pub, but actually for the first time ever, I have found a way
to enjoy eating cheese.
This is okay, this is okay.
So we'll come back to this cheese at the end.
You stay bland, cheese, okay, to make our vegan steak and cheese.
Alright, next up, by Primal Strips is some meatless vegan jerky soy, Texas barbecue style,
beef jerky, except there's no meat in it.
So, it should be called soy maybe.
It looks and feels, it's very squishy like jerky, but it could actually make better dog
food, and apparently this is suitable for dogs.
Definitely the smell of jerky straight away.
Uh, it's very slimy indeed.
Want to eat it?
They're not sure.
Want to try it?
I'm gonna wash my hands.
How was it, alright?
I think they liked it.
Let's try it now.
It does actually look a lot like jerky, but look at the ingredients, non-GMO isolated
soy protein, water, cane juice, soy sauce.
You can definitely smell the soy in it.
Let's have a try.
Umm, oh, wow.
That is basically like eating a bar of soy sauce, but the strange thing is, don't you
agree with me, it's like fibrous.
It's kind of like eating wet fibreglass or kind of like thatyou get.
You just imagine that but coat it in spices and mainly soy sauce, but it works.
It's weird, right?
I'm sure you guys have eaten worse, but it works.
I'm loving the sun today, folks.
It have given us some dramatic mood lighting.
I feel like I'm in a church right now.
Anyhow, next up is soybean vegan braised tofu.
Tofu being that well-known ingredient that you just can squeeze the living life out of
it, and you just do not get any flavour in it no matter what you do.
It does take a heck of a lot of work to get some flavour in there, but this is braised
tofu.
It's ready to eat, hot or cold.
So basically braised tends to mean we quickly fry something, that's optional, but then you
slow cook it or stew it.
So hopefully, flavour should be rammed into this.
I'm just gonna be proper like Crocodile Dundee style and eat it straight out of the tin.
Oh, wow.
Can you see that?
Yeah.
That looks like a tin of leftover kabob.
See that doesn't look like tofu to me.
I'm used to seeing them nice little white bulks, but you can see how they've squeezed
it and made it into these sort of like ribbony, it looks more like tuna, but the fact that
it's not white makes me think, okay, we could work with this, you know.
Why am I blowing it?
I was about to blow it.
It's not gonna be hot.
Here we go.
Oh my word, that's weird.
The texture, it feels a little bit like I'm eating an insect.
It just sort of slides down your mouth and tastes a little bit muddy as well.
I don't like it, I don't hate it.
There's just something very weird about it, and now my second bite just tastes like cold
coffee.
It's really addictive to eat, though.
I've had a few more mouthfuls.
I'm just still trying to understand what it tastes like.
I'm gonna, whoa, look at that.
Cold coffee.
It tastes like coffee.
Just turned the steaks over.
They've absorbed a bit more vegetable stock.
They've sort of like gone,bloated up a bit.
So, intrigued for those.
Next up, we're gonna try and do some fake duck, mock duck baby.
This is braised gluten in gravy.
So, it's wheat gluten.
It's slightly different to tofu.
I think it's quite similar.
It's also got water, again, and soybean extract.
So probably quite similar in taste, but it's supposed to resemble duck.
So what I thought we'd do, what I've been doing this fatboy-slimming month, I've been
avoiding bread.
I've had no bread for over nearly four weeks now.
So I can't wait to have a bit of pizza.
I'm being honest, just a little cheeky slice.
I haven't missed it that much though.
I'm feeling much lighter, but these are some sandwich wraps made out of carrots.
So they're kind of like nori, like sushi sheets but made of carrot instead.
So we're going to try and make a sort of vegan duck wrap.
I've got my cucumbers, spring onions, and a little bit of Hoisin plum sauce there.
So it's all vegan, it's all good.
I've checked the labels.
So let's see if we can do it, and hopefully by putting some flavour in it, it might be
pretty good, but of course, we need to see what the duck is like on its own first, don't
we?
Oh, uh, it's some sort of weird, I mean there is a gravy in it.
Oh, it looks like it has the texture of duck.
That one tastes a bit like cold backed beans, sort of.
Umm, oh dear.
In fact, what I want to quickly do is put a teeny bit of in a bowl and warm it up in
the microwave.
Ewww.
Right, nice and hot out the microwave.
Got myself a board and these are the carrot wraps.
Oh my gosh, it does just generally look like a sheet of orange paper that the kids would
bring home from school.
There is a backing on it.
I generally feel like we need to peel this off.
Yes we do.
Okay, so that is just like a sheet of seaweed nori thing but carrot.
That's really weird.
I hope there's not another sticker on it still because that really does still taste of plastic.
There is a sweetness coming through, but that tastes nothing like carrot.
So there's a rough edge, and a smooth edge.
So we'll put it smooth side up.
Let's sit some duck in it.
Strip of mock duck ready to roll, spring onions, aka scallions, sticks of cucumber, going all
out classic retro, and then some of this plum sauce on there.
Okay, roll it up.
Okay, oop, bit of duck has come out the side, trying to escape.
I love how I'm referring it as duck and it generally is nothing like duck at all.
So, here is my carrot cigar of duckness.
Oh, wow, I tell you what, that is blooming bizarre, but I think the cucumber, the spring
onions, and the sauce are marinating on that duck just kind of disguise it, and it does
feel like a genuine duck wrap.
To be fair, that is blooming I would actually eat that again, yep.
I think it's a little bit like that age-old thing.
If you put enough sauce on something to disguise the flavour, which is where I think this is
working, you can generally take anything and make it taste nice, which is why I think my
dad back in the day would put ketchup on literally everything.
I'm super excited because these have just this moment turned up.
The postman just knocked at the door.
I didn't think I'd get to show you them.
These are some vegan wraps again, but they're coconut ones.
So kind of like how we had carrot before, this is coconut.
So hopefully more of a sweeter vibe.
The only thing I've got at the moment I can put in it other than fruit is some almond
butter.
So we'll do that.
Oh yes, these actually smell really good from the off.
A little bit like a Bounty bar or Mounds in the US.
So, kind of like, just if I put chocolate on that, I'd be like,oh yeah.
In fact, nah, not so good, but it would make an amazing stamp to post a letter on it, wouldn't
it?
Alright, just cut up some chunks of apple there, and we're gonna grab our almond butter
as well.
Great.
Ah, this is pour on, oh yeah.
So we're gonna spread that over.
This would make amazing coconut carpet in your house, wouldn't it, and for this, I'm
just thinking like coconut, that's sweet, but on the serving suggestion on the front,
it was savoury.
So shoving some of the mock duck in there, would probably work a charm.
So here we go.
We're going for a coconut, almond butter, and apple wrap.
Crikey, that feels pretty tough and butch.
It feels like a parcel or something.
Yeah, eww, yeah.
I think You are getting a bit of that coconut vibe in there.
Well, there's definitely something in there, but it does feel like you could just have
the apples with the almond butter as snack, which I have been enjoying and loving loads
this month, but with the coconut on there, it does feel like you're eating a stamp.
So, not too bad.
The flavour is in there from the coconut.
It's just a bit too rough, We're going to come on to the steak and cheese finale in
just a moment, but just before we do that, these are some veggie wine gums.
So for fatboy-slimming month, I had no bread, no fizzy drinks, no chocolate and no sweets,
but I'm bending the rules slightly just so I could try one or two of these.
So, basically standard wine gums, sweets here in the UK.
They're kind of like chewy sweets that you get in most places around the world.
and they do have gelatin in it, which obviously is made from hooves.
So this gets around it.
They're veggie wine gums, also gluten free, and nut free as well.
It says made with natural colours, natural fruit juices and stuff like that.
So it's got sugar, glucose syrup, pea starch, corn starch, apple concentrate and all bits
and bobs like that in it.
So, let's see what they're like and they're very, very bendy.
Most wine gums are tough and they'll shatter your teeth.
So, let's try a green one.
I'm quite intrigued to try a green diamond one.
Um, okay.
For a minute there, I was worried.
There was no flavour coming through.
It felt like I was chewing on the tofu again, but there is a flavour, and now I'll try an
orange one now.
Wow, they really do wanna stick to your teeth.
I'm not sure if one of the other ingredients replacing the gelatin is glue because my gum
is now lined with these sweets.
They're hugging it going, hey, I love it here.
So yeah, they kind of work.
Steak and cheese time.
So here is our gorgeous vegan steak folks.
Check this out.
This water has fully absorbed it.
It's gone a little cooler.
So hopefully the flavouring of the stock is in there.
Tastes like mock duck, but on the packaging, there was no instructions whatsoever on how
to cook this.
So I'm gonna pan fry it to warm it and then shove our cheese on to give it a nice steaky-cheese
melt finish.
I'm feeling like these steaks need charring if we can because with charring, like any
food, comes flavour, okay.
So, let's just do our best.
Alrighty.
Loving that bit of colour on there, cool.
Let's do one with some cheese on top, and let that melt and cloak it.
I hope it melts, that cheese.
Yeah, just put a lid on that.
That way it's going to incinerate.
Come on cheese, melt for me baby.
Ah, that's blooming awesome.
It has melted, right.
Let's see what they're like.
Steak number one.
Ah yeah, and there's steak and cheese.
Let's try the steak first.
Medium rare.
It tastes more like chicken, not a very nice chicken at that either.
You can definitely taste the vegetable stock in there, how that soaked that up and it's
charred as well.
Oh dear, that's a struggle, that one.
Sorry to say, rubbery chicken that's been charred.
The charring has really helped get some flavour in there, so hopefully, with a bit of cheese
on top.
Oh my God.
That is great.
Um, I'm loving that melted cheese as well.
Umm, that is phenomenal.
I think that cheese is the one that's doing all the charm there, the fact that it's melted
and cling really well to it, and it's disguising that woody, cardboardy meat underneath.
That has worked an absolute charm.
I'm loving that.
I genuinely have to put that away 'cause I'm gonna gobble it all up.
Now, what I think I've learned from this video is with all these foods, my favourite ones
that I like the most are the ones where I put more effort into it, like the cheese steak
and like this carrot wrap, which is actually my favourite.
If I put in the sauce, the cucumber, and the spring onion with it, it really just drives
more flavour into it.
So most of you vegans watching, if you're going to try any of these things, you probably
know the rules, right.
Just put as much effort and flavour in as you can.
Things like the scrambled egg and the tofu was kind of bland because I didn't put anything
else with it, and that's the bottom line.
The more effort you put in, the better it's gonna taste, but there you go.
Hope you enjoyed the video.
I did find it quite intriguing myself, to be honest, and I found a cheese that I like.
So don't forget to subscribe for regular recipes and food fun.
Let me know down below, anything you want to see next, and I'll see you again next time.
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Our First Prank! IndianTv Gone Horribly Wrong ! - Duration: 4:39.
Why Did You Hit Me?
I Didn't
I Know You Hit me.
NO I Didn't
Did You Hit Me?
no no no I Didn't hit you?
Then Who did?
That Boy Who Went There
That boy who went there
come here?
should i come?
yeah come here
who hit me?
You might have seen how we did this prank
We will try the same prank on public let's see what reactions we get
So Come let's Start
Who Hit Me?
Why did you hit me?
HE hit you
who did?
He's going over there
Where is he
He didn't hit you boy that boy did.
You hit me right?
WHO HIT ME?
what are you asking him
he went there.
look over there
Are you with him?
NO !
why are you talking like that to him?
You didn't even saw who hit you how can punish him like that?
Look He's over there
Hit me the saw that you have if you want to hit me
He didn't hit you why are you harassing the poor fellow?
Do You know how much i got hurt?
if you got hurt then who hit you did you even saw it?
he hit me i know he was right behind me.
no he did not that guy went over there look
where is he?
That aunty?
what aunty?
no that guy who is running away
You hit me or not? Tell me the truth
no i did not hit you
tell me the truth
i swear i did not hit you
why did you hit me?
oye! I didn't he hit you
who hit me?
That guy hit you
why should i hit you?
who is he?
you hit me i know, wait where are you going?
who hit me?
h..h....h...he hh...hit you brother
you come here
i..i...i... ss..swear h...hit you
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Hello Rumberos!
I would like to share with you today an arpeggio exercise which is very very beautiful and
it is a combination of several different picking that I already did a lesson on.
And if you missed that, please click here, because then you can go to the videos because
in this video it is a very important to follow those advises.
Because your thumb always needs to end up on the next string and it needs to be ready
to start the next movement as well.
Anyway so lets see how this exercise look like and I will use my metronome on 80, 90
and 100 bpm.
So we will go faster and faster.
And hopefully it will help you to gain a better speed and be more punctual.
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100 ft Robot Golf Review - Duration: 2:07.
Today I'll be playing 100 ft Robot Golf.
Developed by No Goblin, 100 ft Robot Golf takes video golf in whole new direction.
When you boot up the game you can jump into quickplay or take a tour through the campaign.
Some events have you competing with other robots to see who can reach the hole in the
quickest amount of time.
Other rounds are stroke-based play.
And all of the Campaigns challenges have medals you can earn for strokes, time, and sometimes score
Each of the 11 characters has one of several various swings, and they are all very different.
I thought this was a really interesting.
Because if you don't like one technique you can try another.
Some of them I like more than others, different strokes for different folks.
Unfortunately bad camera angles and terrain get in the way.
And I found the game to be quite difficult to play in VR.
I like the flatter levels with building because you can just knock them out the of the way,
and the environment is easy to navigate.
The more mountainous ones lead to frustration because your balls always getting stuck, and
the there's an early campaign level with lots of islands where it's hard to keep the ball in play
The game features 36 holes, and they can be played alone or competitively, with friends
or AI, and there's leaderboards for all of the holes as well as an entire course run.
Multiplayer was quite enjoyable at times, when none of us are getting stuck.
The cutscenes are interesting but a bit cheesy at times.
And I thought the voice acting and commentary was good.
Overall, 100 ft Robot is golf is an ambitious yet wonky golf game.
I waited a bit to review this title because I wanted to see if some of the bugs and blemishes
would get patched out.
It is what it is.
And if you can get over some of the humps, you'll find that there is a quality mechanic
underneath the debris.
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There are computers in our pockets
connected to the world
they're always on and we should never feel alone
We use them to photograph our lives
and put it all online
sometimes I forget that they're still phones
in fact, phone calls are so rare
when one comes in I find
there's only one thought running through my mind
Who died? Oh my gosh, who died?
Something terrible's happening
Why else would my phone ring
and fill me with such dread inside?
Who died?
"Mom! What's wrong?"
"no, that's George Clooney"
"Yeah, Christian Bale's in the other one"
"Oh no, that's Ben Affleck"
"Oh no, it's not"
"I guess if he were Italian he'd look something like me. I don't know"
"Look, I have to go now, I'm in the middle of a song"
"OK, yeah"
"Love you too"
"OK. Bye"
Crisis has been averted
Calmness is reasserted
I'm sorry I blurted out my worst fears
Please don't think me derranged
It really was so strange
That's the first call I've gotten all year
I know I overreacted
it won't happen again
I won't even sweat this new call coming in
"Unknown number..."
Who died? It's the F.B.I.!
My friends are stuck in a hostage scene
What else could this call mean?
Bodies need to be identified!
Who died?
"Who is this?!"
"No, I canceled that appointment"
"Because you guys stopped taking my insurance"
"Well, then start taking Privation Mutual"
"Same to you"
I'm not saying don't reach out at all
Just send a text to warn me of your call
"otherwise I'm gonna think:"
Who died? Oh my gosh, who died?
The cops found my number in your phone
I was last seen with you alone
and I don't have an alibi
Who died? Oh my gosh, who died?
Why does my ring tone leave me terrified?
I can't relax, I've tried
All I can think is 'who died?'
Who died? Who died?
Who died?
"Who is this?"
"Oh, it's work."
"I'll just send that to voice mail"
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4 Post Workout Meal options to Lose Fat and Gain Muscle. - Duration: 2:58.
Hello friends.
Welcome to Fit Tuber.
Post workout meal is definitely one the most important meals of the day.
You lift as heavy as you can, but until you provide your body the proper nutrition specially
post workout your muscles will not grow bigger.
I have done that mistake in the past and I really don't want you to do that mistake.
A post workout meal has to be taken right after the workout.
Like within 30 minutes or maximum 60 minutes.
Post workout most importantly we need protein.
This is because the muscle fibers that have been broken while workout need protein to get re-build.
Then we also need carbohydrates, preferably fast digesting carbohydrates.
This is to replenish the muscle glycogen which was depleted while we were working out.
Unfortunately, there can not be many post workout meal options.
This is because the body needs immediate recovery.
First is whey protein isolate in water.
Remember, whey protein in water is the best thing you can take post workout.
It is ideal for vegetarians as it gets derived from milk.
Moreover, it is totally safe and natural.
Just take 1-2 scoops of it depending upon your muscle maturity.
And for carbohydrates, have a banana along.
Second best option is to have 6 boiled egg whites along with any fruit.
I prefer dates.
Egg whites are comparatively fast digesting protein source than other lean protein sources
like chicken breast.
If you do not like boiled egg whites, you can make a vegetable egg white bhurji also.
Remember, no yolks.
We need no fat post workout.
Next is spinach grape juice.
Now, this is not the best of the options but Vegans! you can definitely stick to it.
Just take 2-3 bowls of spinach and wash it properly.
Add in grapes along and blend them together.
Have 2-3 glasses of this juice post workout to get enough protein and carbohydrates.
So friends, after 1-2 hours of taking this meal, you have to take another meal which
is also equally important.
This meal has to be high protein, balanced with complex carbohydrates, health fats, vitamins
and minerals.
Some of the options can be.
Grilled chicken breast and brown rice with salad or grilled fish and boiled sweet potato
and salad or paneer bhurji with whole wheat roti and salad or rajma/chana brown rice with
salad or chickpeas spinach egg bhurji or moong dal dosa with paneer and vegetable stuffing
or sweet potato chaat.
There can be so many options for this meal.
Friends!
I hope you found this video helpful.
Well, if you did, do give it thumbs up.
And also please do remember to subscribe to my channel.
My name is Vivek, I thank you so much for watching.
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