Complexado
Turn left in ..
Watch out, bump in the road ahead.
In 600 meters.
In a rainy day like these, how much do you make?
There isn't a specific amount, get it.
There's no way to know.
A good thing it's to work on the neighborhood
It compensates more
because you work
An example, this street some time ago was all traffic.
It's a chaos.
I, you don't have a way to..
Today is raining, so I'm earning a hundred, a thousand, no, it doesn't work that way.
There isn't a ...
A formula that says, I'm leaving with this.
It varies.
A lot.
I can make a score or simply get out today empty pockets.
Sometimes the ride doesn't go.
Has my mom left yet?
Sorry?
She in here
Is she?
Maybe the bathroom?
Probably.
Hi
Good morning.
Morning.
You leave at what time today?
I'm already leaving, I have to be there by eight o clock.
Do you need swabs?
Hi?
Are you in need of swabs honey?
I have plenty of them, do you?
I am running short actually.
Yeah?
I will get more.
Ok
You can get mine.
Should I close?
I think I have them here look...
Your door, I close it..
Leave it open, please.
Ok.
You know that I'm going there to work, right?
Yes.
So..
So what?
Why are you like these?
I ain't doing anything.
It's just five months.
I will work in cinema.
You are so vague bro
Why?
Because you are
But man, you said...
No. You have to tell me.
What you are going to do, you're leaving for five months.
You keep on laughing, you keep on litigating this situation as a joke...
Man, I'm serious here,
I need to understand where you're going to, what you're going to do related to cinema, get it?
You can't take me seriously bro.
I've already told you what I'm off to do.
I will work and study...
...Already told you so..
I'm going to work ain't going on a vacation, no...
It's not like I'm moving there definitely.
See how many months went by and I'm still jobless.
I too have a difficult...
Bills to pay.
And so what? What am I supposed to do?
I ain't unemployed, I'm a freelancer professional
Ok, yes, of course. But the money isn't a sure thing.
We have to pay rent.
I understand, we need to pay rent, but what's on my mind is in this year that we spent together...
That you didn't resolve or gave a thought.
That you were planning on going to London.
Yes, but...
I just decided this.
You are going to stay the same way. Working, studying, trying to keep yourself up.
And when I comeback...
You think that's how I'm playing throughout all this?
I believe, yes.
Don't you think I'm going to screw up?
I think no.
I believe I'm going to screw up all.
But, for what reason?
well.
You need a reason right?
I don't need any reason, I'm just disappointed, that's it.
Kinda of overwhelmed.
You could have spilled it out before, ya know?
You're going to London, not...
It's not like your going to any place in Brazil.
It's not a place where I can get into a bus and be there.
I've already told you, I signed a contract can't go back now.
Do I have to say this eternally?
Get out, why don't you just walk out?
Why don't you just leave?
It's hell easier.
That's what you want?
I, in fact, know, that's what you want.
Do you know why this apartment was so cheap right?
It was way more cheapie.
You fucking pig you asshole
I hate all of your existence.
I swear on the holiest things.
Basically, that's it.
My son, are you sick in the head?
you get it.
But the thing is that you live in a apartment
So you can't see it at the level of clarity.
It's not like one or two come by...
There's a bunch of them, it looks like there migrating.
look.
Are you seeing this?
Do you see there?
I do.
What the fuck is this?
It keeps dropping here.
precarious alcoholism.
This man, trying to keep the can straight.
In a bent place.
Is it gone?
Man, how many times we screwed ourselves here ...
Your wicked mind.
My wicked mind.
Sent the message or not?
I received all these missed calls, but it was from this unknown number.
Neither way, I'm going there, it's just that I run out of battery.
sorry.
Kiss.
Bye.
I don't know this number.
It called me five times.
Maybe it was my mother.
Your room very soon will be a location to a Gaspar Noé Film.
This bathroom, it's only missing some graffiti.
It will complete the circle, the thing.
Jesus, man.
I have this friend, she lives in this house that really looks like ...
Out from a movie scene.
So as I said I met him at the festival, as I told you.
And they to this will their phones.
but man I do this all the time, I'm always doing the boomerangs from Instagram.
No i totally get it, it's cool
I also do it, but it's funny to think that...
- That the person is there with a thing in their face.. - Doing like these right?
It's funny.
What will this gesture mean in fifty years from now?
I don't know.
I will call it.
A scandalous title.
Like...
The generation of woman that BLA BLA BLA
Ya know?
It shouldn't be the same for everyone, evaluations are meant for evaluating...
like...
- It should be a system to... -Not to stock students, student's aren't livestock.
So, and not to be a...
Not all that that student knows, but the form that these evaluations are granted...
They ain't able to tell a lot about that student, once the pressure so much interferes.
If it was something free, spontaneous.
The students would really make... Eh.
What they really know, and not wasting time...
Writing some of that s- when they clearly don't know...
Did you know that Isa Meneghini studied here?
And sho what?
-What was the help right? - Exactly.
I recall very much so, that in their merchandising they would say...
A bunch of artists studied here.
the vocalist of that band and...
And so on.
fuck off.
Not to mention that a place from forty years ago has changed, the school where you went, well it doesn't...
I didn't go smoothly in any school, to be honest, so I don't think it's...
Actually,
eh
the professors
should use these evaluations
Not something to determinate If you're going to the next level, and actually being something that...
that.. Eh...
that really saw
These are you're weak spot's, let's target them, independent from a routine or rhythm of work flow.
or the ''vestibular''or any other fucking thing.
Because either way, most of the schools
I ou need to complement If you plan on going public.
In a more challenging course.
It's very hard, just with the...
This world creator, he didn't intend it for us. What the fuck is this right?
And it's a razor blade propaganda, like...
Wich is an imposition already.
I think that...
Getting to choose what you don't want and not having to do it.
But in casting, they ...
The commercials, the propaganda business.
They go on the curve of whats happening
It would be awesome for blind people
awesome.
But, I don't know, whatever.
try to occupy your time, be busy.
because when you have a lot of things to do
You can outer focus this...
bye
And I want to know about your short's and full films you produce.
ok
And fuck these casting producers.
I will send them a box full of glitter.
A long time, but, whatever
I'm trying not to focus on this at the time.
fair
A lot of ideas in my head my friend
And that one, where you...
edith piaf
You have...
Re-escale her face, make it big, make it small
You need to make some lashes here
Just kidding
pupile
The guy is the pupil of the pupil of the ...
The guy is the pupil of the pupil of the father
Rapist, assassin, communist.
I do that sometimes
But only out of sight.
The toad does like these...
Steak with unions
Done
And you?
chicken, it can be chicken.
This is the wrong man.
How many people are for god's sake.
There's two there...
Hold on, I will get back to you, give me a second...
We need to know how many people are.
Ok, so let's go
I'm going crazy. - I can take notes... Do you have some paper and a pen?
I will take note, take it easy.
Hello - Hello, how are you?
good?
so good?
tell me...
your creations, what's going on?
I'm doing a short film right now
Is something happening?
My boyfriend is going to London.
mooving to London?
For six months actually.
- Oh, I thought it was forever. - no, no, not forever.
I'm a little sad, that's it.
I know is going to pass, but the person could loose interest or...
Don't think negative, think about what your heart wants.
The moment where I don't feel stress is when I'm acting or writing, or...
doing something related to cinema or tv
media, anything.
That I believe too.
When you're doing what you love
that makes your heart pulsate
you pause the bad thoughts.
It's another thing when you are...
focusing on negative
the total opposite, right?
totally.
when is something that you love and you embrace it fully...
This sensation you get when you are creating...
try to
bring this sensation all the time, get it?
I didn't tell.
ow
I got into this vibe, to do this, to finish this.
And I'm all in.
So I'm a little out of the world.
but me, my being, it's pure wonderful art
It's more than perfect in fact
cool.
It stones you right?
its puts you in another place
right?
right.
kiss
You know right?
I do
yes
see ya Alex
kisses - Be fine.
A kiss to you my love.
Are you going to do something with your daughter?
All the time right?
yea
see ya
It's just that the question is
There is a moment I can't keep up with myself.
There are moments I need to get out.
from myself
If I don't do that
I will be all broke.
Do you understand what I am saying?
I feel lonely too.
Actually
most of the time.
Even when I am in a crowd.
In a night club and...
In a way I'm here, but...
Is it wrong?
But who chooses what's right or wrong?
I need to live by a code.
To keep me alive.
But I live in constant questioning... - I will take a glass two.
If it means anything being alive.
For you to make me stand in a window and think about jumping it's really easy.
It's worth it.
If it is for...
shutting up
what?
This shit inside of me.
I almost blew it all away.
It didn't go trough.
I'm shaking, right?
Yea, a little bit yes.
your hand
Unfortunately, you can't do it.
I wanted to be able to cry right now, ya know?
Being able to...
say things with passion
all of what I say is passionless.
I say these things and...
see
I know you for a long time, and I have seen you talking like these before.
you...
I will play here, and you should sing as it pleases you.
first the intro, then you
tell me when I should..
I don't really know this song, I will throw something here and you tell me so.
even after talking, and singing...
I'm still worried about. Anyway.
that you
so.
man
I don't loose my consciousness.
this taste sucks
let's arrange something?
I will
How I am still very worried.
and a lil bit
uncomfortable maybe
I will leave you a message
If you need anything, call me
I will let in your hands
you're already an adult
so
If you need, call me.
the rest it's up to you
you need your space.
I can't say what you are supposed to do, you need to make your own pathway.
As I said
And if you need me, call me so.
another person
it may be an exit
this change
this you can't change
take it anymore
maybe this death in your head is this.
go traveling, another place...
there's no text
So why I think I am missing the line the...
the moment to enter
you are already in
- Life is already going on - But I don't feel like I'm giving the text.
At this moment i should've been
crazy.
you saw how much I inhaled.
have you ever seen someone blow coke like these?
And don't get crazy?
that makes you the more comfortable.
and ever search for someone
how to get's music and singing and say, Alex...
So Alex?
Ain't you going to say anything?
No
I don't have much to say.
I lost perspective
you feel like thing ain't going that well?
nothing at all, that's it?
there are some good, but the most of it
and what's going well for an example?
I'm alive, healthy.
a thousand good things
but the most important thing isn't.
you can have a point of view, that goes in a positive lane.
actually, these are facts, and you can see them as a point of views.
and you can choose positivity
take a moment to reflex upon what's not doing that well.
see them as for what they really are
and you choose
I don't know, I....
we talk and talk like crazy and...
and always the same things everyday
it looks like repetition to me get it ?
in a certain way
doesn't go anywhere.
So I fell frustrated
I want to ...
feel some emotion, feel some...
freedom.
So Alex
What you need to take it in better is
you are fully responsible
You can't put in my back the task of...
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