hey guys it's me natalie and welcome back to one of those videos where i talk and do
my makeup at the same time.
I could talk about a lot of kpop stuff today like the fact that NCT was in america for
kcon and I could not see them which sucks or the fact that EXO did that whole thing
with the eclipse and like one of their teasers for the repackage album i think coming out
but I'm not gonna talk about that stuff today because my brain it just cannot focus on it
so I have a story to tell you now you may look at this background and think "wait natalie
I thought you moved into your dorm and that you were in college right now" yeah, me too.
I came home last night. I'm gonna have to go back again Thursday night because like..
I still do have school like I can't just stay home now I moved in on saturday and my roommates
are very sweet like they're very nice and I like them I'm pretty sure they think I'm
insane because one thing that I think I've learned about myself is that when I'm in an
awkward situation I think I just start to spout off like facts like random things about
myself that I should not be telling people so like.. pretty sure my roommates think I'm
insane because I told them some things about myself that like you just don't tell people
you met 3 days ago.
Since I moved in on Saturday I've done nothing but sit in my dorm and like do nothing like
we kind of sit in our own rooms and we don't really talk to each other like all day long
like.. we go out to eat together and we still don't really talk to each other because...
I think it's just because we don't know each other and we don't really talk and like..
it's fine if it's always like that it's fine if we're awkward around each other and I'm
not great friends with my roommates that'll be okay because I still like them and I don't
have any problems with them however I don't have any actual friends either
and I took this entire week off of work this week because freshmen at my school have this
freshman class that they can do that's the week before school
and it basically helps you get to know the school it's a great way to make friends and
meet people I was super excited about it but I had to drop the class because I got
this acting job on Thursday It's one line don't get too excited about
it but it's for a tv show..
I'm like the token girl in a wheelchair and I got this acting job on thursday that pays
well so I had to drop the class So basically last night all my feelings kind
of came to a head I went out to eat dinner with my roommates and we didn't really talk
I mean we kind of did but it was just awkward and I was feeling really uncomfortable about
it and just kind of upset for some reason and I just wanted to get out of my dorm I
wanted to leave and I wanted to go do something so I decided I was gonna watch a movie and
none of my roommates came with me so I went to watch the movie by myself (which I like
doing) and usually when I'm with other people I don't really pay attention to my feelings
that much like I just get distracted because I'm with other people and I'm worrying about
other things but I was alone in my car going to watch the movie and I just burst into tears
because I was like "wow.
I am really sad right now" and I think I was just upset because...
I had only been there like 4 days but it was not what I had expected it to be so far and
I was sad and I was lonely and I missed having actual friends to talk to and I missed my
home and so I called my mom and I tried to stop crying while I was calling my mom and
I was like "would it be weird if I just came home for
a couple nights" and she's like yeah just come home whatever
so that's what I did.
I cried for about another half hour in my car I went up to my dorm I packed a bag I
said goodbye to my roommate who didn't ask any questions and then I drove home for 2
hours and now I'm here I mean I'm going back because I still have school I have to get
an education like I can't stay here but that's my life right now
so.. update.
I'm fine I promise I haven't cried today so so yeah one of the things I told my roommates
about was my youtube channel so I really hope that they're not watching this right now...
anyways I'm done with my makeup thanks for watching
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liked it I will see you next time byeeeee
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