I love you Lotta (yay) this is King swag and he's gonna play a song called
Paramore still fucking sucks
so I am currently in Rovaniemi right now just visiting my family and this
little girl even though you probably hate me right now cuz I'm brushing you
I'm sorry it has to be done
(Come here)
She's not used to being brushed so every time I come home she's like oh fuck
I would've washed you too but don't have time so consider yourself lucky
Even though you definitely hate me right now
it's weird how a lot of the people who live in Helsinki have lived
there their whole lives or
around there and they have the same friends that they had
in like middle school and they still see them every day
and they go by their old schools and they go visit their families whenever they want
they go to their parents house to do laundry and to me it's just such a weird concept
so the people who don't have to kind of leave everything behind and start a new life
in another place are kind of lucky in my opinion
Nana
I have to get the crusties off of her face but she hates it so much
and I don't blame her I mean I would hate it too yeah I would hate it too I know
so I have not driven in a while it's been like a.. like a decent amount of time
maybe too much time to be honest so this is a little bit scary
I'm forcing myself to do it though because I don't like being scared of things
at all. there I was panicking for a second I don't know if you could see it
in my face but that was a scary moment that actually wasn't scary but like I'm
a nervous person I get nervous about most things really like flying for
example I hate it so much so much but I force myself to fly because I don't want
to be scared of it and also because it's only an hour and if I took the train
that would be like 12 hours so like no look I (merged) lanes I haven't done
that in like a year I'm feeling good about it I'm proud of myself I don't
have any hair to flip and I know some people might be like well why are you
vlogging while driving if you're already scared of driving see I'm trying to like
focus on something else because I know I'm a decent driver and I know what I'm
doing you know but usually what gets me is I get too nervous and freak out and
panic but see now that I'm talking to you guys I'm not even like of course I'm
paying attention I was gonna say I'm not even paying attention I'm just going
like no no no I'm paying attention but I'm not like focusing on things too much
it's the right amount of focusing watch me crash this car now that I said
that now that I was so sure of this like fucking "technique" or whatever I'm gonna crash this car
There.. that's probably from 1960... when is that from? Tuula is also in it
It's from 1966.. It's from 1964... 1965 we had a car already
You went to school in that one it's taken in Kauhava on the beach.. next to the big Kauhava river
Even though I love coming back here I do miss all the memories
And the friends
And just the past I guess
because this place does feel kind of empty now I guess this is the thing that
happens to a lot of smaller cities but people move out young people don't want
to stay there and the place just changes a lot and sometimes it's hard to cope
with those changes because it feels like you are forced to change everything
because everything changes around you and you can't just stay the same but I
guess that's what growing up is I guess it's my own fault for moving around all
the time and not really settling in anywhere but I haven't really felt like
I belonged anywhere for a really long time now for the longest time I miss
being 16 for some reason in my head that was like the golden year of my life
because I didn't have to worry about anything
I could just hang out with my friends do dumb shit get into trouble but I can
still do that if I want to the people who I have around me right now are
amazing I just need to let them in and I'm going to meet more amazing people as
my life goes on I just need to learn how to let them in
Help, Joonas help... Jack
Jack! hold on jack! Sorry there's no room
This is the thing from titanic
Yeah they couldn't fit on that either
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