oh my god I'm so out of it today I accidentally sprayed myself with the
makeup brush cleaner instead of this one which is the Troiareuke skin complex
aah oh my god complete fail!
Hey guys welcome back to my channel, so
today I'm going to do a get ready with me video I haven't done one of these in
a while and it's going to be sort of a chitchat video I guess I'm actually on
my way out to do some grocery shopping now nothing exciting just needed to run
a few errands but I needed to get ready I just want to talk to you guys about
something that has been kind of..not bothering but it is something that I've
observed over a period of time ever since I started doing YouTube videos
really anyway if any of you guys don't really want to listen to me rant or
anything you're more than welcome to click out and maybe watch something else
on my channel but anyway I'm going to get ready now or just wash my face and
everything and now I just need to tone it and the toner I'm using is from
Troiareuke. This is the skin complex formula and usually I just like to dab
that all over my skin so lately I've been trying out the no towel routine and I
think it's working for me so far because my skin is super dry and very acne prone
so I tried that for a week and I didn't have any breakouts yet so I think I'll
continue doing that yeah anyway guys as I was saying I've been on YouTube now
for a very long time ever since 2013 and although 2013 seems to be
pretty late to join the whole YouTube scene you know compared to the early
birds like Michelle Phan and Promise Tamang and you know people like that I feel as
though that there is some sort of weird like social status on YouTube now I mean
like you know don't get me wrong I understand that there's always a social
status in our society whether it be like the amount of money you earn which
school you go to what job you do but I've really noticed that it's becoming
more and more obvious on social media platforms too especially you know like
for fellow content creators such as myself
it's almost as though everyone is walking around with a big gigantic
number on top of their heads so that is pretty much like your social standing on
YouTube per se and the same goes for Instagram too and Twitter as well so
pretty much like your status is depicted by the number of followers and
likes and hearts you get I mean it's not like I've haven't noticed that there's
always some sort of invisible competition between all the content
creators and stuff like that I remember when I first joined I did it purely
because I loved doing makeup I really enjoyed um trying to get to
know new people on YouTube and back then I got to know quite a lot and on
personal terms too but then I feel as though nowadays you know if you don't
have a similar number of subscribers or likes or followers or whatever you want
to call it then that particular person doesn't really want to talk to you even
you know you're just like an invisible being to them because you are not up to
their rank or whatever and I'm not saying that everyone is like that I'm
just saying that it almost seems as though you have to have that number game
going really well for you for you to even be considered
as you know like a true content creator by the way I am now using the H+ cream
from Troiareuke and I love this one because usually I just use this instead
of my BB and the foundation if it's on a day like this where I'm just like you
know out running errands this is all I use on my skin because it also has SPF
40 PA++ as well okay let me blend this out so pretty much back in
the day I would get to collab with so many different types of people no matter
of how many subs they have it was all purely based on like fun mutual interest
and makeup and stuff like that but nowadays it seems like I get ignored
just because I'm a smaller channel to them and I just feel that it's a shame
really like YouTube for me used to be really fun and it was full of creative
you know channels doing what they love and sharing what they know about makeup
and but now I feel as though it's all about competition like who gets you know
the most compliments who gets the most likes
who gets the best brand deals which really reminds me of one well a couple
of videos actually but it all stems from Wayne Goss makeup video and I'll link
the videos down in description box down below and a few youtubers did a series
of their own videos reacting to that one video that Wayne Goss put up and it's
about like how youtubers are now becoming less inspiring I can honestly
sense the same thing to be honest because I feel as though like instead of
people being on this platform to share and to you know like talk about mutual
interest it's all becoming part of like a big vicious cycle of businesses yeah
so on that video Wayne Goss pretty much talks about how he feels as though people
are becoming more and more materialistic in terms of
their fame and fortune on YouTube they're no longer producing videos that really
personally appeals to people everything is so mass-produced everything is being
hired out like outsourced to you know that production teams people are having
professional help with that editing so there is no sense of that personal
feeling that people use to love and be attached to when they first watched
youtube videos back in the day I don't know guys it's just weird. Okay I'm going to do my
brows now and this is the only brow palette that I've been using for the
longest time I think it's like totally discontinued now but this one matches
really well with my my brow color so that's why I like it so this is the
benefit for us go go and let me just tell you guys why I even started YouTube
in the first place I started YouTube I mean honestly because the boredom I used
to run my family resort from 2011 through to 2013
something like that and when we used to live was a really remote island off the
coast of Thailand like the southern coast of Thailand and when it's really
busy it's super busy when is like during the high season is super busy but when
whenever we reach the low season which is usually during the middle of the year
because of the monsoon we barely get any customers so said during one of those
low seasons that I decided to you know upload my very first youtube video on my
channel and I think it was like a really outdated makeup inspired look from
Beyonce's old videos it was really really funny because you know at the
time I didn't know that you have to upload something based on what's
trending based on what is like the most happening now I didn't know that and you
know that's how it was meant to be like you just upload what appeal feel what makes
what makes you happy what you find fun or whatever so anyway that was how my
youtube channel started at the time I was traveling quite a lot I started
actually uploaded my first travel videos on my travel blog which was actually my
first YouTube channel before this one and I used to upload quite regularly
actually on that channel because I was you know like visiting quite a few
places and I wanted to keep my boyfriend at the time who is now my husband
up-to-date with what I'm doing and where I got to visit and stuff like that it
was just like a sharing experience and you know that was what YouTube was all
about back in the day to sharing your experience sharing your interests and
stuff like that you know everyone starts off from the same starting point
I remembered like I had a few people who are now a huge huge youtubers now back
in the day we used to talk all the time we had very good personal relationship
and stuff like that so then you know over time maybe it's because they had
more things to do whatever the difference of the number of subscribers
between us were so great that I guess that wasn't worth spending time with
anymore what can you do right guys so for my everyday look now I always use my
Too Faced chocolate bon bon sorry I keep itching my nose I don't know why
something is really itchy and I like to use this color right here Mocha
so yeah I know I'm going to probably get like a lot of hate comments based on
this video alone but I'm just expressing my thoughts on this guys you know I
mean we're all entitled to opinions here I'm not saying that I'm right I'm not
saying I'm wrong I'm just saying that this is what I observe and you know it's
just a shame that nowadays we are walking around with a huge number on top
of our heads I feel like the like you know if you're like a small youtuber and stuff
like that you kind of have your own clique or your own group of people that
you talk to but as soon as the same group of people start climbing up onto
the next tier of the YouTube Society or ladder you kind of just don't hear from them
again or they just kind of stop talking to you all together not everyone's like
that don't get me wrong I have a few really great big Youtuber friends that
really do overlook all that they do overlook the whole number game and you
know concentrate on the personality behind that channel and not just be
number like okay you have this and this and this many subscribers what can you
do for me something like that when they're all like first starting out it's
all like nice and friendly and all that's healthy sugar blah blah and this
is the reason why like I rarely even talk to anyone anymore I just kind of do
what I do on my channel I love creating content on
my channel okay yes the number of subscribers means a lot to me number of
these means a lot to me but to me personally it is not my number one
priority if it was I would have stopped Youtube a long time ago because of all
these algorithm changes and my number of views have dropped over time and I would
have probably stopped you know ages ago but I didn't why because I
genuinely enjoy creating content I genuinely enjoy editing I genuinely
enjoy sharing my travel experiences especially and it's also a way for me to
document my memories as well so for me it's totally fine like you know YouTube
answers utilizing it as part of something that I enjoy doing you know
like to de-stress myself away from I don't know work or the realities of life or
whatever it may be that is like my passion I do genuinely
enjoy it but I feel that some people are just take me a tad bit too far where
they just shut out the opportunity to even get to know anyone else based on
their subscription numbers and I think that's a damn shame to be honest if you
think about it if you take away the numbers and you put the same people in
the same room then I'm sure like people will be talking to each other but as
soon as you see that there are numbers on top their head
that's when comparison start content creators
amongst ourselves we shouldn't be so harsh on each other and we should give
anything we should try and you know support each other and I'm not doing
this video because I'm bitter or anything it's just interesting to me
like an interesting observation of our online society so pretty much if you are
like a small account there's no way in hell you can go hang out with bigger
accounts of like a few hundred thousand or something like that I think it's a damn shame
but then again I know that nowadays social media is being used as part of
online business marketing strategy so everything is like a like a paid exposure
almost everything now is about money money is not not about like the actual
person who owns up content anymore I think a little bit of a shame right
oh shit there are times when I look at my channel and I'm like why is it that I
don't enjoy doing this as much as I used to I mean I'm not saying I don't enjoy
it now but I don't enjoy it as much as I did back in the day people are so
fixated to becoming like an online personality that they forget to be the
personality behind the actual content itself if that makes any sense I think
like this online community almost like the YouTube world it's almost like they
have a social mask on no one can ever know their true personality because
everyone is busy pretending my eye makeup is pretty much done just going to put some
mascara on and eyeliner on now to be honest I don't even know what's the future with
me in my channel for now I enjoy doing it but since there's more and more
people doing it and they're all doing it for the same reasons I'm not even sure
we all have the same goal that we all want to you know establish something
here on YouTube like be able to have it make some sort of good reward for us for
all our hard work but I also wish that people are not so superficial I wish
that the number is behind all our channels and Instagram feed and Twitter
I wish that they didn't define us as a person it's almost like the numbers help
you to be appreciated for who you are I had someone the other day commenting on
how she couldn't believe that I didn't have more subscribers basically was
something that she liked to watch and then I told her that actually her
comment in itself was enough for me that one comment from one person
appreciating my and all the effort I put into making the
video pretty much made me happy already I feel I feel like you know my efforts are being
appreciated all right as I'm going in with my eyeliner now and this one is the
Sigma eyeliner the line ace black liner and I really love this and need to get a
new one as soon as I get back to the States because I'm totally out this
liner gives like the sharpest cat eye sorry I can't talk while I do this bit
I really feel that like people should not judge other people based on what
they see online all the time numbers shouldn't be used to define who we are
as a person whether it be like salary or wealth or
people should be accepted for who they are as a person so I guess if you agree
with what Wayne Goss has to say because it is true like we are all becoming a little
bit more superficial a little bit more materialistic a little bit more egoistic
especially when it comes to the number game all right what else I need to do I'm
almost done and the contour I like to use is the too cool for school art class. This is
my second one in am already hitting pan I really like how subtle it is I guess
it's not too contoured like I don't like the super chiseled contoured look when you
go out in the daytime it just looks way too much well that's pretty much all I
have to say for this get ready with me chitchat Edition I'm sorry it's a little
bit on the dull side of things I just I don't know I just wanted to share my
opinions really I also I'm really sorry if I somehow ended offending anyone with
this video but I just want to be able to talk about other
stuff on my channel as well want to be able to you know have some sort of real
talk with you guys I'm so sorry if I kind of bum
some of you out with this Rant video but well it's not really a rant it's more of a you
know like let's chat about it sort of chitchat like I just it was just
something that I observed and I wanted to talk about it openly anyway I am
done with this makeup what do you guys think? this is very simple this is actually
my everyday makeup this is what I would wear to go anywhere but sometimes I
don't even bother with the eyeliner but today I decided to put eyeliner so
okay-dokey alright guys I am off to the supermarket now thank you so much for
watching and listening to me talk let me know what you guys think in the comments
down below and sorry again if I offended anyone this is just purely my opinion
and what I think based on what I've observed over the years anyway I'll talk to
you guys in the next video. Bye!
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