Hello, beautiful people!
How are you?
For those who doesn't know me, my name is Luiza Scandelari
I am 20 years old
It's been around 4 years that I'm a model
I've already been to Tokyo, Singapore, Australia, Paris, Milan, Los Angeles
At the moment I'm living and working here in New York.... And I'm Brazilian
And today I'm here to talk about a very requested subject: Body acceptance!
Many girls send me messages all the time, talling me about how they feel insecure
Or how they suffer from bullying because they are too thin
I already told you guys about this, I do not remember which video, but
When I was a child, my mother use to listen to the priest in the radio
And every weekend we had to put a paper over the radio with thanks and wishes
And the note that I put on the radio was
"Jesus Christ, help me, I need to get fat, I need to get the same body as *that girl* "
So I know how it's like feel that way
And today I wanna tell you guys a little about my story
As a girl at school, suffering bullying
And after start modeling
Also, this bodily acceptance
I suffered bullying in high school, I think it's inevitable, it's sad, but it's real
When you go to school, you start to come across these things
With bullying... With everything... Everything bad, everything good...
I remember when my friend asked me if I was "bv", ( bv = never kissed on the someone's mouth in my language) at high school
And I said "no"
Because I thought "bv" was an ugly thing
No, I'm not "bv"
They started to laugh at me and I did not understand why, so I got home and asked my mom
"Mom, what is "bv"?"
I do not remember what she said man
I've been very embarrassed lots of times, I'm very uninformed man
I suffered a lot of bullying at school because I was thin
Those jokes that everyone knows...
"stick of poking stars", "olivia matchstick", "giraffe", "bones are for dogs"
I use to go home crying, I did not like that, I felt bad, I felt ugly, rejected, different of everyone else
Because in Brazil there is this thing, a beautiful girl, should be curvy...
big butt, big boobs and stuff
anyway
There's a whole stereotype
I've never been a girl with a high self-esteem
And I suffered in different ways, before and after being a model
Oh no, wait, I'm filming now
Before I was a model I suffered from being thin
For being different from everyone
And I felt
Rejected, ugly
Because I compared myself to the girls in my high school, the curvy girls
And these girls were the ones with dates every time
The ones that were desired
Beautiful and beloved
And I was... the olive stick
you get it?
What happened when I started being a model was
I started to get to know more about the fashion world
To know the models, top models, the Victoria's Secret's Models...
I started to realize that I was beautiful in my own way too
And I stopped comparing myself to the girls at high school
The ones that doesn't look like me, most of the girls, none of the girls were
It seemed like I was the only skinny girl in that school
I began to shift my focus, to those people, those models that I identified myself with
I saw in them my body, and I was like... Wait. calm. down.
I wanted to tell you that it's normal, unfortunately it's normal!
It's not the children's fault, they're kind of "trained"...
Not "trained"... They are "automatically trained" to focus on what is normal for them
What the media shows
What their parents show or what they do
what they see!
Although from a moment, when the person is a teenager, those are f*cking bad jokes
Then my dear, you're really wrong and annoying
Nowadays, these people who cursed me and mocked me
Maybe they are cool these days, who knows?
When I started to be a model, it changed...
Changed the focus of self-esteem, rejection
The fashion world is a very cruel world.
And very shallow from so many angles
I'm not saying that everyone is like this, but
In many angles it is like this, so
What happened...
You guys have to understand that it's never gonna be good enough
You'll never be good enough
For everyone
Before my first trip, my manager (who did not even know me personally) booked me to Milan
He told me to lose some weight before go there
And that was a huge shock for me
Because for me I was...Olivia stick!
And how Olivia Stick could lose more weight? is that possible?
Can I lose more weight?
I was 16-17 years old at the time
And it was the time that I stopped eating Mc Donald's, I stopped eating chocolate
I stopped eating chocolate-covered vanilla ice cream
I stopped eating all the bullshit and started those green juices and "healthy foods"
"Granola bars".... I hated.
I was in shock
For a person who was skinny, eating like a pig, wishing could gain weight...From day to night have to "lose weight"
I totally changed my diet, "from water to wine"
And I arrived in Milan.
And it was Fashion Week
And it was my first Fashion Week
And I remember the first casting I did
They told me (in Italian)
"You are so beautiful, but you are so thin"
And I was like, "Wait, what do you mean?!"
"Thin is not good?!"
Then I went to the second casting ...
"You are so beautiful, but so thin ..."
And that was in all the castings of that Fashion Week
I almost got into depression
And I got really sad ... I cried a lot!
I remember that I called my mother on Skype and I said
"Mom, I don't know what to do! Everyone say I'm too thin!"
Talking to my mother and eating a plate of pasta ...
My manager from Milan asked me to eat Mc Donald's!
She asked me to eat Mc Donald's!!
And I was already thin...
But for me ... What they put in my head, is that, I had to lose more weight!
And they put that in your head you know
I started to eat more ... I started to go to gym
I returned to my normal body again
That was still thin, I've never been fat
And then... I realized that I never ...
Especially for Shows, for Shows is a very specific body type
Many girls send me a message, boys too ...
Asking about measurements ... about weight
Weight is not much taken into consideration ...
It's more hips, waist and bust measurements
And I was within those measures
I've always been within these measures
But
I thought it was strange because they always keep saying that "You're too thin"
And I was like, "Oh my God, but ... I'm just like this other girl! See!? "What do you mean, so thin?"
Wtf?
Why?
Then I realized .. I don't remember exactly when
But my shoulders are "too narrow"
So what happens...
Every time is a problem ...
In many jobs .. Until now, my shoulders are "very narrow"
The clothes always get very big here ... And I don't have that much boobs, so it gets big here as well...
And then I started to do more bodybuilding to see if my shoulder could grow more you know
I started to eat more ...
Doing weight at gym ...
I just wanted to have big shoulders...
But I could not raise my hip you know, because my hip was already good
So only shoulders, you know
And it didn't end there, either ...Obviously it didn't end there ...
I'm not gonna say anyone's name here ...
But this person, my client ...
He said that I was very "curvy"
"very spotted" ...
And I had to lose weight ...
And then there's was Luiza going to do one more "lose weight plan"
to lose in 3 days "a little bit"
without f@#* eating appropriate
I made it
The thing is, guys
It's never going to be good enough
I was unhappy, very unhappy
I was like...
"Man .... What am I doing with my life?"
I want to please everyone ...
One tell me that I'm too skinny ...
One tell me that I'm "curvy"
One ask me to eat Mc Donald's
You know
Please can you decide?
I'm in the middle of it, I'm getting crazy
I said F@#*
I didn't tell anyone, I told myself
I started to listen to my body, to understand myself better
I stopped and thought ... Man, calm down...
Ambulance, not now ... Now I'm talking to my camera
We have to be strong, because the world is cruel, not just the fashion world
And people are different! Clients are different...
I have my clients, those who like me, those who like to work with me
And I started to focus on those clients! Not those who aren't my "profile", you know
And it's not just because you're not skinny, you're not beautiful the way you are!
Stop for a little and think ... What a beautiful gift is life ...
You have this blessing of living! You have your body, you have both arms, both legs ...
F@# * ambulance
I see how it affects people's psychological! This affected my psychological as well.
And that's why I'm here today, to tell you ...
Don't be unhappy
Don't live a whole life to please someone
If you want to lose weight, or if you want to gain weight
Do it for yourself.
Don't try to fit into a pattern
This will only make you unhappy.
You will become a "slave"
Trying to reach a standard that ..
Is unattainable
I want you to understand that, the most precious thing that we have in life, is our health
When I broked my arm, I think it was the moment I stopped to think about my life.
Because actually I had nothing to do
I couldn't walk because I if I had a 15 minutes walk my arm started to swell and I had to go back home
There was nothing I could do ...
I couldn't even tie my hair because I had long hair and I only had one arm
But then I learned to make a bun leaning my head on the bunk
I spent so much time in the hospital ... I saw so many people in such ... fragile conditions
In such sad conditions, from my point of view ... And they were happy!
They were ... You know ...
Happy!
They were ... Grateful for life ...
And I started thinking on how wrong I was, complaining so much about my life.
I was so wrong in trying to please everyone
I was so wrong to compare myself to other people
And I started to be happy when I realized that...
I didn't need that!
Nowadays, I only worry about giving my best
And be happy! You know... Being healthy
When I started to give my best in everything ...
Turning off the focus on those people who said boring things about my body ...
I will accept myself and I will love myself, you know
And when I started to accept myself
When I started doing what I like doing, without worrying about what someone will think
I started to work more, because this reflects a lot in photos and ... energy!
And you can tell me I'm right!
When a person is sad or feels "ugly"
We see it in her face!
So when you start accepting and loving yourself, you give it away to other people!
So consequently you will, have a healthier life
You gonna work more
You will reach people with the same vibes as yours!
I'm not gonna say that I'm always happy...
We are all humans and we have the low and high moments of life, you know
The only person who can make you happy, it's you! You don't depend on anyone else for that.
Man, I think I got the ambulances in my whole video, that's awesome
I'm outraged
Compare yourself, it's the worst thing you can do.
You don't have to compare yourself to anyone because you are unique!
Be the best version of you
I'm sure you have so many good things.
We forget that we also have qualities
We only focus on our defects
I hope I helped you somehow with this video
I did it from my heart
And that's it! We are together
If you want to share something of your life below in the comments, please do it! I'm gonna read everything!
And that's it! Kisses!
And be happy!! Jesus Christ! Because life is just one
And we do not know about tomorrow you know
When I was going to imagine that I was going to break my arm ...
... stay 5 months in Ny doing nothing?!?
But when I broke my arm, I started to pay attention to my channel
I started making more videos
See guys ...
There's always a good side.
Get it?
Kisses! (for the third time)
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