Wow!
I've just woken up, it's 3 in the morning
and I have to go to work
today I need to drive a lot and
I need to drive to another city and
and be at work at 5
in the morning, So
Yes, I need to go...
20 minutes later
Wow, I'm really late now, I cant believe it!
I overslept!
I was so ready to leave home at the right time, but
I should have left home thirty minutes ago
I didn't even have time to have breakfast, so
and a shower! I didn't have a shower!
I feel terribly dirty now
because I always take a shower before going to work, so today I feel dirty
Its a very nice way to start a week
It's Monday, so...Good morning!
I believe that this week I'll have to make more videos from the series
real-life English
in which I'll just talk at random
about any topic that pops up in my head
because I'm not going to write any script before or anything
This is real-life English
Unfortunately I haven't had time to make a proper video
filming my face wth the camera
or anything...So, I'll just
I'll just record my voice
I'm extremely late right now
Hopefully I'll not get there late
because I'm supposed to be at work at 5
I need to be in the office at 5 because I'm going to have a conference call
As I said, this is from the series of videos "real-life English"
Therefore, I'm not going to hold myself back
I'm going to speak the same way I talk to my friends
I'm not going to speak so fast today because I need to pay attention to traffic
I'm going to a different company today
and I don't know how to get there, so
So, I need to pay attention to traffic and to the GPS
but I don't have time to make a video at another moment, so I need to make a video on my way to work
Stay with me
I wish I could sleep a little bit more
only five minutes more
That would completely change my day
when I don't sleep properly I feel bad the whole day
I wish I could sleep five minutes more
but I can't
Well, I'll take this moment as an opportunity
to open myself to you
in a good way, of course
what I mean is that this channel has become more than just a Youtube channel
to me
I don't even know how to begin telling you
what this channel is now for me
of course, it's a Youtube channel
but it's also a language school
in which I'm a teacher and you are my students
but it's also a way for me to communicate with you as a friend
so for me, it has become some sort of therapy
yes, you are my psychologists now
and today I'll need you
So, I want to talk to you about something that I've been thinking about recently
Actually I started thinking about that yesterday
because some weird things happened yesterday
and I'll tell you what happened, so
without any further ado, let's get started
So, yesterday was Sunday and I was in my girlfriend's house
and we were talking and then she came up to me and asked me
"Rodger, what's the matter?"
and I was like "Why are you asking me that? There's nothing wrong!"
she said that I was different and that I looked tired
and that I was just complaining about work and about everything
and I said that perhaps that was the problem, because I was really tired, then I said:
"I must be tired because I've been working a lot recently"
"much more than I used to in the past"
and she said "No, Rodger, that is not the problem because..."
"even when you've got a lot of work to do, you're always so enthusastic and excited to do your job"
"you're not used to complaining about these things but today you've been complaining all day"
"and that's not you, you are a very energetic and excited person!"
"and today I've just seen a very annoyed person, complaining all the time about everything"
"So, my question for you Rodger is...What's the matter?"
and I was thinking about my attitude
yesterday
and I had to agree with her
I was just complaining too much about everything
and about things that I didn't use to complain about before
For example, today I woke up at three
in order to be at work at 5 in the morning
and I feel so down and sleepy
I don't feel motivated to go to work today
and do my job
I just wish I could stay home
I wish I could stay in bed all day
When I close my eyes now, I can actually imagine my bed
Oh! My soft and comfortable bed!!!
I'll be there with you soon!!!
and we'll be together!! Oh bed!!
I guess I should open my eyes because I'm driving now
but the thing is
I haven't felt motivated to do anything in the past two weeks
I just feel like going to sleep and that's so weird
but anyway
I had that conversation with my girlfriend yesterday in the morning
then in the afternoon I went to my friend's house because I'm teaching him how to play the drums
Yes, I'm also a drummer
I used to play the drums in a heavy metal band
a long time ago
and I still play the drums for fun
and my friend is a British guy living in Brazil
He got married to a Brazilian woman and he is now living here and
He wants to start a band and I'm teaching him how to play the drums
but when he opened the door he asked me instanty
"Hey mate! What's the matter with you?"
Yes, he's git a very strong accent, so he doesn't say MATTER, he says "MA'ER"
So, he asked me "Hey mate, what's the matter with you?"
and I said "Mate, there's nothing wrong with me, why are you asking me that?"
and he said "It' because you're always so playful, talkative and you're always joking around and..."
"you know, cracking jokes all the time about anything"
"and you're always so enthusiastic"
"and joyful
"But today you are so silent and quite, so, what's the matter?"
and again I had to agree with him, you know, I was really down yesterday"
and now I'm driving thinking about this
I've been quiet and silent lately
and it's not normal, I'm not a silent person
I'm very talkative
I don't know what's going on
I don't feel motivated, I just feel like going to bed
I wish I could sleep all day
as I've told you three times today...But...
You are my friends, so I need to ask you...
for your help
What do you do when you feel confused
about your own feelings
about yourself
when you don't know why you're feeling certain feelings
What do you do?
Well, I'll tell you what I normally do
When I'm confused, tring to find answers to my psychological problems, I always do the same thing
and from now on, from this part of this video on
You will actually think that I'm insane
but you are my subscribers, you are my students, you are my friends
and now you are my psychologists, so
I'll tell you everything
When I feel confused, I listen to music
and that's what I do
and I'll tell you why
But I'm going to have to tell you something from my past
it's going to take a little time, I'm sorry, this video is not going yo be very quick
because I'm going to tell you something that happened when I was a child
and that thing that happened when I was a child made me listen to music every time I have a problem
whenever I'm troubled
I listen to music and it's becuase of something that happened to me when I was a little boy
and I'm going to tell you what happened
when I was a child I was listening THE DOORS
if you are very young, you might not know this band, but
It was an amazing band
and Jim Morrison, the vocalist, sang:
"Music is your only friend. Until the end"
and I can't forget that. I was five years old
and I remember pausing the song when he sang that
and it got me thinking
"music is my only friend until the end"
and this sentence means so much to me
I remember that when I was a child
I had some good friends
and I thought I would be with them forever
but then I lost contact with them
with almost everyone of them
then when I was a teenager
I had other friends and we promised that we would be together forever
But today we just exchange messages on New Year's Eve
in order to say "Happy New Year"
We don't really talk
and then we never talk again throughout the year
You know, friends come and go but music is always there
at least for me
and now you're going to think I'm crazy
I don't know if it also happens to you but music really talks to me
Yes, music talks to me!
Seriously
It's some sort of magical force or something
When I'm sad I turn on my mp3 player at random
I've got around 2000 songs there
Every two months I change the songs
But I always have around 2000 songs on my mp3 player
and I never choose the specific song that I want to listen to
I just play them at random
and I let them talk to me
Yes, let me try to explain this in a better way
so when I'm sad I listen to these songs at random and I really pay attention to the music and most importantly
to the lyrics
and "magically" I always end up listening to something that helps me out of my specific problem of the moment
and I feel better
Sometimes it's a stupid thing, like, the other day
I wanted to buy a new cellphone
I don't know why I wanted to do that because my cellphone is working properly, so
I didn't really need a new cellphone
I'd just do that on impulse
coincidentally I was listening to Envis Presley and then
when I was about to buy that cellphone online
Elvis sang:
Wise men say, only fools rush in
and I was like..."What Elvis? What did you say?"
He was singing that "wise men say that only fools rush in"
Fools are "stupid people"
and "rush in" means to do something without proper preparation. To do something on impulse
So, basically Elvis was saying that
only stupid people do things on impulse
recklessly
and because of that, because of Elvis, I didn't do that
So music really literally talks to me
in a magical way
and now you might think I'm crazy
Yeah, perhaps I am
I'm probably a wacko
Please don't judge me
but it happens all the time with me, you know
I've got a problem then I listen to music and then a random song gives me great advice
Sometimes it's not the whole lyrics but a specific part of it
and then it rings a bell
in my brain and I know
that music is talking to me
telling me what to do
I'll try to think of another example to give you
Oh! When I was 15 years old I got a job as an office assistant
I basically needed to do everything and anything in the office, from making coffee to going to the bank
in order to pay bills, I did everything in that office
But the problem is that I had a very rude boss
and he was also racist because he used to call me "Indian Boy"
But for me it was ok because I had some friends who had come from India
and for me it wasn't a bad thing to be called "Indian"
it wasn't offensive in my head
but I've got Brazilian blood
and I'm not Indian at all
so now I understand that that guy was racist
and my boss was so rude to me
So one day I made up my mind and I decided that
that I would quit that awful job, but
I don't know why, I didn't have the courage to go to this old man and say that I wanted to quit
I was 15 years old
and I was like "How can I say that? I want to quit but I don't know how to do that"
and then one day before going to work
I was listening to THE SMITHS
another great band
and I was listening to a song and the lyrics went like:
"In my life, why do I give valuable time to people who don't care if I live or die?"
Ok, when I edit the video, I'm going to play this part for you
So, listen to this:
"In my life, why do I give valuable time to people who don't care if I live or die?"
"In my life, why do I give valuable time to people who don't care if I live or die?"
and it got me thinking
that I was giving my valuable time to a boss
who didn't care if I lived or died
and that song gave me the guts
to go to my boss and say, that same day, that I wanted to quit
and I did that
So, music talks to me when I'm in trouble
Today, I don't feel motivated to go to work or to do anything
I don't feel motivated to study Italian
you know, I'm studying Italian
and I've always been very enthusiastic about learning a different language
that's why nowadays I speak 7 languages
because I've always loved it
but today I really just want to go to bed, you know
I don't feel motivated to study Italian and for me
It's so different, it's not me, I don't feel I am myself
I haven't felt I'm myself lately
I need to go to work
Well, I'll listen to music all day
and hopefully I'm going to find the solution to my problem
I'm going to find some sort of conclusion
to my questions, you know
I want to stop the video right now
and I'll work all day
and I'll give a conclusion to this video tonight when I get home
So, I'll see you here in around 12 hours
Approximately 10 hours later
You won't believe it!
You won't believe it! I was listening to random songs all day, whenever I could
I listened to music at work
and one of the random songs really gave me the solution to my problem
So, I was listening to a song named "sad but true"
by Metallica
You know that I love metal, right?
So, I was listening to Metallica and then I came across this song "Sad But True"
and now I feel motivated again
to study Italian and do my things more enthusiasticaly
Yes, everything has changed
I can't play the whole song here for you, guys, because I want this video to be quick and
for copyright reasons
So, I can't really play the song for you
Maybe you know the song, maybe you don't know it
But I'll just read for you part of the song that changed my mood completely
Altogether, and brought my motivation back!
But please, when you have some time
Listen to the whole lyrics, ok?
Classic!!!
So, I'm going to read some parts for you
that I'm going to highlight here for you to understand why
I feel so motivated and energetic about everything
about my life
So, listen to this:
The lyrics go like this:
but just some parts, ok?
"Hey I'm your life I'm the one who takes you there Hey I'm your life I'm the one who cares I'm your only true friend now I'm forever there I'm your dream, make you real Sad but true Do do my work, do my duty You're the one who's blamed I'm the one who takes you there" ♩ ♪ ♫ ♬
♩ ♪ ♫ ♬ "I'm inside...Open your eyes..."
♬ "I'm you... Sad but true" ♬
I didn't read the whole lyrics
because I don't have time and this video is already too long
but what I understand by these parts that I've just read for you. That I've highlighted here...
is that basically
You are the one who takes you there
Nobody else will take you there, but yourself
so he means that you are your only true friend
You are your only true friend so I am my only true friend
If I don't help myself, it is very unlikely that other people will help me
So, I need to help myself
I am in charge of my life, I have my dreams
Therefore, I have to make them come true
because if I don't work hard, nothing will happen
I will not magically learn Italian
I'll need to do it myself
I'll need to study hard
If I don't work hard, if I don't study hard
nothing will happen
my dreams will never come true
It's sad but it's true
I'm responsible for my future
and for my present
because I am my life
So, I have to open my eyes, stop complaining and I need to do my work
because nothing will magically happen
Things are not easy
It's sad but it's true
I have to make my dreams come true
myself
I'm responsible for that
I feel motivated like a true warrior
So, I'll end the video here in order to study
I really feel motivated to study a lot
because i know that if I don't learn Italian
I can't blame anyone, I can't blame it on my work
I can't blame anybody else but myself
I need to make myself happy
Life is short
I'm not entitled to be lazy
I don't have time to be lazy
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