- Are you in pain?
- Not physically.
- Aww sweety, aww damn!
(soft music)
I'm Rayne, I do a lot of stuff.
Some include sex work.
- So, someone told me, guess who's a vampire?
- I think of a lot of stuff 'cause you gotta be specific
'cause there's physical disability,
there's mental disability.
- Yeah, I'm like really crazy.
- Guess who has a fucking disability, no?
So everybody has one?
Bet!
I'm trying to think of like non-offensive questions.
- Right?
Okay, so y'all can't get mad at me.
This was consensual, bitches.
Hello - Hello.
How's it going?
- I don't know, y'all tell me, this is crazy.
(laughing)
Shit, is it making you uncomfortable
to have to tell the world?
- Yeah, but I mean it's not like I can hide it.
- Let's talk about it then.
So I'ma get right to the cut because you have a cane.
Were you born this way or? - Yes.
- Okay, so maybe something didn't develop right.
That's my guess.
I can't say that more scientifically than that,
that's what I have to say.
- I have cerebral palsy. - Okay.
I don't know shit about cerebral palsy.
- So that's a neurological condition.
- Okay. - And it also affects
my muscles, so my muscles are like shorter
and tighter than they're supposed to be
and that kinda throws everything off.
(laughs)
- So it's a brain thing that affects your body.
- Yeah.
- You be fucking?
(laughs)
- Yeah.
The one thing that I've had issues with
is like, initially trying to figure out
like am I some kind of fetish?
- Real shit.
- Or like what, that's kinda the tricky part, yeah.
- Yeah, but do folks fetishize you?
- Yeah.
- Should make money off of that then.
- I know, right?
(laughs)
- Hey. - I like your tat.
That shit stands out. - Thank you.
- Let's start from the beginning.
Mental or physical?
- Physical. - Physical?
Are you in pain right now?
- Yeah.
- Yeah. (laughs)
Where's your pain at?
- Today is mostly in the right leg.
- But it changes. - It does.
But usually I get a lot of it
in my abdominal area and lower back.
- Okay. - Yeah, so.
- I don't know enough about the human body to do this shit.
Can I just say sickle cell
'cause I'm educated? - Yeah.
You can totally say sickle cell.
- Okay, what is going on
with your body? - Sickle cell.
- No fucking way! (laughs)
I'm gonna go run around this goddamn thing
like I told y'all I'm fucking smart.
- No, no.
- I'm not, I'm not. - Sorry, I'm sorry.
- What's going on with you, for real?
- I have endometriosis.
- I would have never said that long-ass word.
- The little cells that line the walls of your uterus
decide they wanna move elsewhere.
But they react to hormones the same way
so they shed...
- Can you start over?
- And... - Nope.
- Bleed... - Nope.
- Yeah. - No.
- Yeah. - Wait.
- Yes. - Holy shit!
You got period in your stomach?
- Yeah and it doesn't have a way out
'cause it's not going out through the hu-ha
so that it like-- - That's bullshit.
- Sits inside... - Wow.
- Creates cysts and this is not rare.
This is one in 10 women.
- That have endo-endom, that word.
- Yes.
- Are you gonna be able to reproduce?
- That's my biggest concern.
- Yeah. - It's a leading cause
of infertility in women and it can be,
not only difficult to conceive,
but difficult to carry to term.
- Yeah, it was nice meeting you too.
I'm gonna see that shit for a while in my head.
Of course you can.
(laughs)
You got period everywhere in your life.
You know how painful periods are on a regular?
And she got them...
Alright, mental or physical?
- Both.
(laughs)
Yes hunty.
- Did that just happen? - Yes.
- Was that a tick? - Yes.
- Okay.
Bet.
So I feel like I already think
that the physical might be Tourette's.
'Cause I seen you tick twice.
Was I right? - You are so right.
- I think that Tourette's is kinda cool, is that rude?
- No.
- I like the whole, like
being able to curse spontaneously thing.
- But I don't. - And then I realized
folks didn't always do that, but you can.
You should, people would allow it,
they wouldn't be mad.
- Well, one time I used to work as a nurse
and I had a nurse who did not like the fact
that I had Tourette's 'cause she was an idiot.
And so, she accused me of cursing in a patient's room
and I was like, yeah nice try,
I don't have that kind of Tourette's.
- She should've got her ass beat.
- You know, in another day and time.
- I think you're my best friend in my mind.
- It was so nice to meet you. - You too.
Wasup? - Hey.
You're not gonna stand in that, right?
- No. - Okay.
- Okay, you gon' rest your leg.
Okay, cool.
I thought she was gonna stand in that like,
I'm gonna be your height.
I was gonna say, get your ass down.
Is your leg or is your hip?
- Neither.
- But then, why you have the chair?
- I have multiple.
- You got a lot of shit going on?
- Yeah. - Oh, that's fucked up.
- Yeah. (laughs)
- Were you born this way or did you have an injury?
- No, these conditions that I'm talking about today,
they started during my senior year of college.
- Were you harboring something in your body or,
or did you like, get exposed to like asbestos or something?
- No.
- I don't know, like I'm trying.
- Sickle cell.
- So there are three main ones
that I'm kinda struggling with right now.
The first one is called POTS and basically it means
that my body can't control its heart rate long.
So the highest my heart rate's ever been
is been like 180 beats per minute.
- That's like prrr.
- Yeah, and the second one is chronic fatigue syndrome.
The last one is narcolepsy.
- So you got like some tired-ass shit
happening with your body.
Like we can sum it up, you're motherfucking tired.
- Yeah.
- Thank you. - Thank you.
- I can hug, I get hugs from everybody.
I'm so happy with this.
Alright, mental or physical?
- Mental.
- Did you get a check?
- Not yet. - Not yet?
But you felt it, didn't you? - Ah yeah, it's coming.
- SSI, we meant that, that's what I meant, no?
What's happening?
What were you talking about?
What the fuck are the checks you talking about?
- My check will come from the VA.
- Oh, you're a veteran. - Yes.
- Is it PTSD? - Yeah.
- Are you mad at America? - No. (laughs)
- What would you like folks to know about you?
- Don't tiptoe around me.
- What you mean by that?
- You get people who have no idea how to react,
don't know what to say and they kinda just,
on eggshells.
- So how can people support you?
- A lot of it is just understanding.
If I just get up and walk away, don't take offense to it.
If we're in the middle of a conversation,
and I get a bad vibe, I'm gonna walk away.
Be understanding that I'm not always going to be 100% there.
- Yeah.
How the fuck am I supposed to figure this out?
Are you in pain?
- Not physically.
- Aww sweety, aww damn!
Can I hug, give you a hug?
Let's hug, we should hug.
Okay, I'm sorry that you're in pain.
I wanna say depression.
I wanna make that my final answer.
Did I get you right or wrong?
- Uh, it's kinda right.
I have BPD.
- Borderline personality disorder.
- Yeah, yeah, that's what I am.
- What does that mean for you?
- Basically I'm just super unstable.
Like all the time.
I mean my friends, they have to watch what they say to me
'cause they don't wanna say the wrong thing and then,
you know, it's like I get suddenly like
super pissed off at them or something.
Everything's really black and white.
- Okay, you won't deal with the gray.
- I don't know how.
- Well, thank you for sharing that with me
and for like, you know,
coming out to the world with your stuff.
Hello boo. - Hello.
- You look stronger than a motherfucker.
You know that?
Like you look like you have muscles.
Can you make a muscle?
Hell yeah!
Do you ever like feel like you're moving your toes
or something and like, look down like am I?
- Well, because my feet are dangling,
like using my, can I do it right now?
- Oh yeah!
- Okay. - That's about the extent
of my movements and that's not when using my legs.
- Okay, hmm, so I'm going onto my Rolodex
'cause I do watch Grey's Anatomy.
I'm not a fucking idiot.
I'm gonna roll out my thing in Grey's Anatomy,
I'ma say spina bifida.
- You are dead on.
- No fucking way!
Don't do that shit 'cause she did this to me
and my heart went up.
You for real? - Yeah, for real.
- That's not dope, I'm happy for myself,
not for your issues or your, you know.
Okay, I'ma come and get it here.
It was lovely meeting you and your dress is dope.
Like that's a dope-ass dress, okay.
- It was pretty fun.
Everybody here was really dope.
It's good to learn new stuff
'cause maybe I might have the same symptoms
so now I'm like, go find me a doctor.
But I was fine, I met a lot of cool people today.
They were fun.
And I got some right.
(applauding)
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